I fear that i am ordinary, just like everyone
to lie here and die among the sorrows
adrift among the days
for everything i ever said
and everything i've ever done is gone and dead
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
my life has been ewxtraordinary
blessed and cursed and won
time heals but i'm forever broken
by and by the way...
Looks like we still got this shit goin on, so heeeeeeeere we go.
AMANDA FUCK YOU. Ill be the first to admit to ANYONE that Ive made some huge mistakes and that youre not the only one who has hurt anyone in our 'friendship'. Ask any of our friends who know ANYTHING about our fighting and Ive probably told them that. But you know what distuinguishes you and me my friend? YOURE COLD AND BITTER. I could give a shit what your rant in your journal was referring to. READ THAT SHIT. I would NEVER say ANYTHING like that about ANY OF MY FRIENDS. And since Im suppooooooosedly your best friend...oh wait, better not say that, I dont want any "lies" going around....THAT SAYS A SHIT LOAD ABOUT THE TYPE OF PERSON YOU ARE. Thats why I have a problem with you. You preach about how I wont get over shit but uh, Ive been talking to you and all that kinda stuff for the past week, and the fact that I didnt talk to you for 3 months has nothing to do with this one hun. So get the fuck over it, no use trying to drag that out. I DONT GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE...and my bad that everyone knows your the "evil" friend. SAD THAT THEY CAN MAKE THAT FUCKING CONNECTION ON THEIR OWN, HUH!?! And as to the picking a guy over a friend- thats useless anymore too. Thats not my problem with you anymore- weve moved on to bigger and better things!
And frankly dont take me for an idiot. Its rather insulting. Im not as dumb as you think I am.
And let me remind me so I make it CRYSTAL FUCKING CLEAR.
You are in NO POSITION to judge me and ASSUME WHO THE FUCK I AM. IVE MADE MISTAKES BUT THAT DOES NOT MOLD ME AS A PERSON. That doesnt put me in some fucking categorie so think what you want, Im the one who wakes up with myself everyday and knows who the hell I am. Not you. UNDERSTAND? NOT YOU. YOURE THE ONE WITH THE REALITY PROBLEM, AMANDA. F U C K Y O U and your little headgames. SO YOU WANT TO START SOME SERIOUS SHIT? GO the fuck ahead. Im ready. And youve been ready for quite some time. Hurt my feelings amanda, go for it. I wont even wait 3 months to bitch you out about it this time.
