I fear that i am ordinary, just like everyone
to lie here and die among the sorrows
adrift among the days
for everything i ever said
and everything i've ever done is gone and dead
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
my life has been ewxtraordinary
blessed and cursed and won
time heals but i'm forever broken
by and by the way...
Evening :]
I just talked to Andrea...my calling card supposedly had 44 mins on it but it lasted a good 25 mins..ghetto pos. Me and Danny talked from 3-6:30 this morning..lmao right when i got off the phone danny got up. It was perfect timing. I got up at 1..and have been cleaning since. OH wait.
I was going to talk about the conversation with andrea. She automatically thought that I was like calling to find something out..which was kind of eh..dono. Most of our brief conversation was about her boyfriend..and when I started talking about something else..I was like..uh hello? and shes like OH im sorry i was just thinking about...well her bf is going into the marines next year..and she said she was thinkign about that..which we had already talked about...so she talked about how upset she was about that...and I mean dont get me wrong, my job is to be there for her..and I try to be there for her..I listen..but when she goes around telling people basically that she doesnt consider me a best friend anymore..and that we dont know each other...then doesnt want to talk about anything but her boyfriend EVERYTIME we talk...that doesnt solve anything. I am happy for her..but she has always put her at the time boyfriend before her friends. I dont even think she realizes it. We got in a HUGE fight about a month before I left because one day we were supposed to hang out...do something like..I dono we were trying to make as many memories as possible before I left..but at the same time her boyfriend was moving..to another town..15 minutes away. I was moving 15 hours away. (if you drove slowly? :/ ) anyway...I called her all day waiting for her..my parents waiting to pick her up..and she was cleaning. Then she had to take a shower. Then her mom said she didnt know if she could go. Then she had some things to do. Then! I talked to her boyfriend, who at the time was one of my best friends...and he told me to leave her alone because she was going to hang out with him. Shit like that, I dont have tolerance for. Shes hurting herself..hurting her family..her friends for this guy that..I mean..I wont get too into her business over this thing but...jesus.
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nothing else to say about that.
Im so bored..I should be cleaning..I have piles and piles of clothes on our kitchen floor.. ;x ...and shit all over in my room, im rearranging and stuff for when amanda gets here. Which is in 5 days!!!! I talked to her on the phone for awhile this afternoon..she was baby sittin her baby cousin maci..that little girl is so cute, shes really pretty. And from what Amanda and Jeri have said shes really really good..but while we were on the phone she flipped out, and omg Ive never heard ANYTHING scream that loud. lol it was sad ;[ .. DEWD I was talkin to my parents..and me and Amanda might get to take Rachel to Funplex. Aww danny went to my sisters this morning and rachel was outside swimming (shes ALWAYS playing outside) and shes like papa you have your swimmin suit on? and she like invited him to go swimming..lmao and dannys like no I have to go home and get mine..and shes like oh..shauna have a swimmin suit too? lol aawwww..shes so adorable. I love that little girl to death. I want to start hangin out with her more...so we can be really close when she gets older.. :] if I have enough money and if we still have our sales goin on this wknd im gonna get her a bunch of clothes, omg our kids clothes are so cheap right now..because were clearancing everything...its wild. I think Im going to go get my nails done tomorrow afternoon...OH yah! I get paid tomorrowww yessss! Shit I hope its what Im expecting it to be..because..gah..just because I said so..money goes so quickly :/ its unbelieavable.
Im listenin to this song by Brian Mcknight..its so cuteee..hes such an awesome singer.
LMAO..we went to chinese today and like my parents are so hilarious..lol omfg..danny wanted me to move so he could go pay the bill..(we were in a booth obviously) and I wouldnt move bc he called me crisco..so we sat there for like 15 mins bc he wouldnt apologize..lmfao and then I like spilled my coke everywhere and my mom screamed..rofl it was SO SO SO funny..so we jumped up and left...it was great.
I have a new obsession. Wearing a belt and flip flops that match my shirt. Crazy, hm? I got these cute ass flip flops from vanity the other day..i love them..and then saturday I got these white flip flops with clear straps and lips on them, they would be grrreat for hot lips. Theyre cute. 4$~!! gah. I love shopping. :/
enough.
No ones talking to me online so I think Im gonna roll on outta here and work on my room. Which is going to be super cool. :/
ADIOS!!
sucka
