I fear that i am ordinary, just like everyone
to lie here and die among the sorrows
adrift among the days
for everything i ever said
and everything i've ever done is gone and dead
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
my life has been ewxtraordinary
blessed and cursed and won
time heals but i'm forever broken
by and by the way...
Do you ever get the feeling you're a horrible person? My bad. I mean a bad friend. That word horrible has been the start of many fights so I thought it a good idea to re-word that.
Anywho back to the subject. OH MAN. Today Im feeling like an awful person. I feel like the type of person who is supposed to be there for people but never am. Because, I dont give a fuck about anybody. I seemingly get distracted easily and that is obviously not to my advantage. You know, it also seems as if I happen to blow off things I think are stupid and focus more on the things that should be of priority. Why must I be such a bitch.
Everyone is always putting their feelings aside to help me, and this is how I repay them?
Why cant I shut the fuck up and agree with things I disagree with. Hm? God I am so dissapointed in myself.
Im so horrible. Excuse the word please, I feel it best describes the situation here.
Wait this brings back memories. "At least I know who I can count on" ....de ja vu.
I cant stand these kids
*sigh*
Horrible, horrible, horrible
