I fear that i am ordinary, just like everyone
to lie here and die among the sorrows
adrift among the days
for everything i ever said
and everything i've ever done is gone and dead
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
my life has been ewxtraordinary
blessed and cursed and won
time heals but i'm forever broken
by and by the way...
Yo. High School is so crazy. Someday were going to look back on all of this and laugh. Thats the only reason I keep getting involved in this shit.
Rants-
I havent talked to Amanda or Jamie for a long time. I listened to the Uhaul song today and got all teary. Still dont even know where Jamie is...shes online right now but its either not her..or she forgot to close AIM..cuz this is the conversation so far
Shaunaaaaa [6:54 PM]: HEY
So..yah. I called Amanda and Andrea on Mother's Day..but neither answered. Eh..
I hate it when people feel the need to critisize other people for something when they do things equally bad or worse. And Im not going to exclude myself because Im sure someones got some example of me doing the same thing. But if someone going to have the nerve to bitch me out for doing something and have some shit of their own up their sleave..thats not going to work too well. (Btw Im just RANTING..even though we have things semi worked out- it happens to other people too.)
Another thing. Why do we judge each other? I know me and all of my friends dont like the people who think their God's gift to the world..so why do we act like that to people we consider "lower" than us? Half of the people were calling bitchy and stuck up probably either think the same about us..or arent even the way we percieve them to be. Its so childish for us to keep putting people down...I dono does anyone believe in Kharma? Because I know a few of my friends have erm...givin me the line "what goes around, comes around"..and somethin about what you do comes back to you 3 fold..er something like that. So how can you say that to me but belittle other people because of the way they look...or act? None of us have been put in a situation where were superior to anyone else. And people wonder why those "quiet" loner type of people lash out on people..or commit suicide..hell I would too if no one accepted me..and made fun of me..and never took the initiative to get to know me...and I dont mean to exclude myself from this because I know Im not innocent..but Ive been noticing more than ever how badly we treat people...and not one of us is better than the other at all..no one has the right to JUDGE anyone in any type of way. Not your friends, family, and especially not a stranger.
Schools not out yet. GAH
Some people who are sarcastic towards everyone and their mom shouldnt take things so seriously. If I have a sarcastic relationship with someone..Im going to be sarcastic.
Sarcasm 2 a : a mode of satirical wit depending for its effect on bitter, caustic, and often ironic language that is usually directed against an individual
