I fear that i am ordinary, just like everyone
to lie here and die among the sorrows
adrift among the days
for everything i ever said
and everything i've ever done is gone and dead
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
my life has been ewxtraordinary
blessed and cursed and won
time heals but i'm forever broken
by and by the way...
1. Name: Shauna2. Nicknames: Shaniqua, Sha Sha, Cucharita, Captain3. Age: 17..18 in exactly 4 months4. Sex: female5. Date of Birth: February 18th, 19876. Place of Birth: Council Bluffs Ia.7. Time of Birth: 6:30 ish am8. Residence: uh9. Hobbies: music..marching band..concert band..corp band...honor bands..I get a little crazy10. Sports: HAHAHA11. Describe Your Personality: um. Lets cut to the chase, Im the most hilarious person in the world..and Im loud...and I like to be in control..and uh..Im pretty nice..jeesh and apparently Im not very hesitant to point out my qualities.Your Looks 12. Are you nails real or fake? real..unfortunately..I really need to get them done man13. Fingernail color? none..fingernail polish wont stay on my nails14. Eye color? green15. Hair color? dark blonde/light brown16. Hair texture (curly, etc)? straight..but I have a perm..weird..huh?17. Hair length? I dont remember. Like.. a bit past my shoulders probably..lol18. Ever dyed/highlighted your hair? uh yah..its part of my religion19. If so, what color? light blonde, dark blonde, golden blonde, and once I had just blonde and red highlights..and another time I dyed the bottom chestnut brown and put all different kinds of blonde highlights in it. It was outrageous20. What perfume do you wear? candies, lucky, tommy girl, eternity, passionate kisses..and I used to wear curve, love spell, and cool water..but Im poor and havent boughten any lately. 21. Height? Im gonna have to go with about 5'9 on this one.
22. Shoe size? 10-1123. Contacts/Glasses/Neither: contacts..I have glasses but I rarely ever use them24. Braces? nope25. Piercings? i have two piercings in my ears..soon to be 4 in each! 26. Do you wear a watch? nope27. How about sunglasses? probably not..except when I steal other peoples28. Do you take showers or baths? depends..mostly showers because thats all I ever have time forFamily 29. What are your parents names? Shelly and Danny30. How many siblings do you have? 231. What are their names and how old are they? Lynn- 28 and Ryan- about to be 2332. Do they have any kids? yes33. Do you have any pets? absolutely34. If so, how many, what are they, and what are their names? 4 dogs- Ginger, Baby, Molly, and Sassy, and two cats- Wrinkles and PumpkinFriends/People You Know 35. Best Friend: oh willickers.36. Funnest: theyre all extremely fun37. Funniest: Dani, Nick, and Angela..and dan38. Meanest: umm Zack 39. Nicest: Dani40. Loudest: Mellisa and myself Id say41. Quietest: oh willickers..Becky is quiet around folks she doesnt know42. Blondest: hm. I dont know maybe dani since it isnt offensive to her43. Sweetest: Allison, Amanda, and Dani44. Gives Best Advice: all of my good friends give good advice45. Most Exciting: lol oh no..all of them is exciting in some way or another46. Most Athletic: oh willickers, I dont know. 47. Most Boring: uhhh48. Most Creative: Angela or Amanda..and dani49. Always Argues: Nick..in a funny way?50. Most Calm: Allison51. Always Angry: uh52. Always Happy: Dani53. Most Normal: Allison54. Most Weird: all of them are weird man55. Best Hair: Angela and Allison..and Katie56. Best Eyes: Jeff57. Best Eyebrows: Angela..and dani58. Best Smile: Dale..and Mitch59. Best Laugh: willickers. me, jeff, justin, and Allison..all at the same time lol60. Best Clothes: Angela and Nick61. Best Nose: willickers..dani and she has a nose ring!..."I have a black man's nose" OH NO!62. Best Hands: uuuuuh..I guess Ive never rated them. Ill do that STAT63. Best Fingernails: angela64. Best Handwriting: Allison
65. Who have you known the longest? Well, here in IA Amanda66. Who are you the most like? see thats a tough question..because I like have multiple personalities...so Angela, Dani, Allison, and Amanda67. What’s your most memorable moment with your friends? Band competitions...summer time with Angela and Nick..chinese food lol...dances...etc68. Which of your friends is the most likely to: 69. Do anything for 1 million dollars? Mellisa..lol and definitely Nick..and probably Amanda70. Become an actress/actor? Allison71. Become a doctor? Audra72. Cry at the movies? me..and amanda in tx73. Talk to strangers? me and dani74. Be a professional athlete? uh75. Go to Harvard? Justin76. Join the Army? nick..
School 77. School Name: LC!78. School Colors: Navy Blue and White79. Grade: senior...05 whattt whatttt..big dawgsss80. Favorite Subject: Band81. Least Favorite Subject: math and science82. Classes: band..teacher aid..comp..child development...pre calc..UGH!..and Sociology83. Teachers: Blu diggity..blu diggity..muta..anko..and drake84. Do you plan on going to college? uh absolutely85. Which college? UNI86. What do you plan to major in? music edThis/That 87. Brunette/Blonde: blonde88. Long/Short Hair: long89. Kiss/Hug: hug..well depends on from who90. Summer/Winter: summer!! I missssss the summer91. Fall/Spring: fall..but it makes me sad92. Saturday/Sunday: saturday..93. Night/Day: night94. Rainy/Snowy: rainy95. Sunrise/Sunset: sunset96. Soccer/Football: soccer97. Hockey/Tennis: Hokey I suppose98. Volleyball/Softball: Volleyball99. Golf/Mini-golf: mini golf! lol100. AF/AE: AE101. Regular Mall/Outlet Mall: im down with the REG102. Darien Lake/Seabreeze: uh neither103. Candy/Pop: pop104. Chocolate/Vanilla: chocolate 105. Chunky/Smooth Peanut Butter: smooth peanut butter 106. Cappacinno/Hot Chocolate: hot chocolate107. Coffee/Tea: tea..oOoooo Ice tea sounds real good108. Sub/Pizza: sub..?109. Apple/Orange: ORANGE!110. Peach/Plum: plum111. MMs/Skittles: m&ms112. Lemon/Lime: lemon113. Sugar/Spice: sugar114. Salt/Pepper: salt115. Coke/Pepsi: coke116. 7-UP/Sprite: sprite
117. Ocean/Lake/Pool: pool..I used to have one :[118. Nerd/Dork: dork119. Purple/Pink: pink!!!!!!!!!120. Blue/Purple: blue121. Dark/Light: dark122. Black White/Colored: black or white123. Black White/Colored Pics: both124. Stripes/Plaid: stripes125. Solid/Stripes: solid126. Denim/Khaki: denim127. Shoes/Sandals: ..flip flops128. Short/Long Nails: short129. T-Shirt/Tank Top: t-shirt130. Gold/Silver: silver131. Necklace/Choker: necklace132. Silk/Satin: silk133. Sparkle/Shine: sparkle 134. Lipstick/Lipgloss: lipgloss135. Snail mail/E-mail: e-mail 136. CD/Cassette: cd137. DVD/VCR: dvd
138. Paint/Wallpaper: paint139. White/Red Rose: white140. Carnation/Rose: rose141. Dog/Cat: dog142. Monkey/Elephant: monkey 143. Snake/Spider: UH how bout no scott144. Lighter/Match: lighter145. Stay Up Late/Sleep In: definitely both..thats why I love the summer..I would go to bed at 3 on average and get up at 12..on a good day like 3 and then take a shower...go to work and then go out. Oh man. I love it146. Laundry/Dishes: laundryFavorites 147. Color: pink148. Food: salad..and chicken parmesian..except when bums rob it from me! right dani? :0(149. Drink: mountain dew 150. Type of Music: alternative..rap..country..jazz..classical...anything151. Band/Singer: singer 152. Song: anywhere-evanescence153. Actor: ryan phillipe? spelling? i DONT KNOW154. Actress: Julia Robers155. Relative: I dont know fool156. Store: umm Torrid157. Movie: DIRTY DANCING158. Animal: puppies :]159. Month: July160. Season: summer !161. Holiday: my BIRTHDAY162. Flower: white rose163. Finger: thumbs up!164. Candy: sour gummy octopuses 165. Gum: polar ice166. Resturant: spaghetti works or OLIVE GARDEN167. Fast Food: taco johns!!!!168. Fruit: oranges169. Ice Cream Flavor: mint chocolate chip170. Toothpaste: the blue kind with sparkles..i havent had it for a long time..one time I ate like half a tube when i was little171. Perfume: cool water and gavinci something or other172. Cologne: curve...hugo..and some pine cone scent173. Shampoo: bed head..and this oatmeal honey stuff by catwalk174. Flavor of Chapstick: uh175. Time of Day: night176. Day of the Week: Friday177. Sport: your mom178. Car: ESCALADES! im going to have 12 some day179. Color of Car: black..or white180. Number: 5181. Gemstone: i dono the white one182. Hair Color: uh? probably brownish183. Eye Color: brown and blue184. MM Color: BLUE185. Mall: this one in texas..grapevine mills..it HUGE186. Amusement Park Ride: this one with a loop at 6 flagsLeast Favorite 187. Color: poop green188. Food: FISH! EW189. Drink: dr pepper! YUCK190. Type of Music: uh..latino? I guess its good music I just dont listen to it. Mostly because I dont understand it.191. Band/Singer: punch!192. Song: I DONT KNOW GET OUT OF MY FACE193. Actor: Clint Eastwood? Dani: Do you know what movies he is in? Me: No.. Dani: me either... do you know what he looks like? Me: No.... Dani: Me either..194. Actress: Barbra Streisand and her nose195. Relative: probably this one uncle of mine who is crazy and doesnt talk to me. 196. Store: Lands End197. Movie: that one zombie movie...Guh !198. Animal: SNAKE199. Month: September..no one likes that one200. Season: spring..because no one likes that one either..except dani. 201. Holiday: Presidents day..because no one likes that one202. Flower: ..weeds?203. Candy: black liccorice..204. Gum: I dont like the pink Wrigleys kind205. Resturant: JOE TESS206. Fast Food: Mcdonalds207. Fruit: apples208. Ice Cream Flavor: I dont know209. Toothpaste: spearmint210. Perfume: Im not sure211. Cologne: I dont know man212. Shampoo: Suave because it makes hair really dry213. Flavor of Chapstick: anything not dct..because..as tony would say- its cancer214. Time of Day: MORNING because I hate getting up in the morning215. Day of the Week: Monday216. Sport: bowling217. Car: those box ones on wheels218. Color of Car: poop green219. Number: 17220. Gemstone: ID ONT KONW221. Hair Color: bright scary red..or..purple? 222. Eye Color: i dont really have a least favorite eye color223. MM Color: if my name were dani clemons it would be blue but its not..so..I dont know. yellow maybe224. Mall: redbird mall in tx cuz its dumb :[225. Amusement Park Ride: THE TEXAS GIANT..ITS MADE OF LUMBERClothes 226. What’s your favorite outfit? jeans and a hoodie227. What’s your favorite item of clothing? hoodies228. What’s your favorite store? deja vu229. What’s your favorite shirt? my yellow giraffe shirt...ohhh classic :[ no actually..me and amandas shirts are cool230. What’s your favorite skirt? UH this black one I have with red flowers. 231. What did you wear yesterday? uh mostly my drum major getup..and then jeans and a hoodie. cuz Im cool.232. Do you pick your clothes for the next day the night before? I think about it right before I go to bed233. Do you wear a belt? I used to be obsessed with belts..and I had like 18 but now I could care lessDo You 234. …Like to give hugs? yes! I love hugs!235. …Like to walk in the rain? ...uh should I sing in rain?236. …Like to travel? yes...like to COLORADO!237. …Sleep on your tummy/side/back? my side and...tummy?238. …Have stuffed animals? UH YAH AND I ALWAYS SLEEP WITH ONE239. …Do your own laundry? unfortunately..yes.240. …Have your own phone line? I used to..but when I got my cell phone my parents canceled my phone line thing..and then I dropped my cell phone in the bathtub...and got a new one and lost it in the sears parking lot so they canceled my cell phone and now I have neither. Cry for me :[When Was the Last Time You 241. Cried? yesterday..last marching band competition :[ 242. Laughed? like a couple seconds ago. Dani Clemons is here and were like the funniest people ver so we laugh a lot.243. Sang? like 10 minutes ago maybe? UH? I DONT KNOW 244. Left the house? 7:00..went to my unlces and then to dinner245. Ate ice cream? last week with Dani...and it was disgusting..water with chunks of chocolate in it..and the sonic guy hated us and made fun of me :[246. Went to Walmart? a couple weeks ago with Nick247. Talked on the phone? when Dani called me at like 8:45248. Shaved? yesterday.249. Gone to the movies? A long time ago. I dont remember250. Sneezed? I dont even remember..its not in my journal. 251. Coughed? just now252. Cut your hair? oh my gosh its been so long..like..may253. Gotten in trouble? I get in trouble constantly. I dont even know. 254. Lost something? I lost my sense of pride when the bum stole me and dani's left overs. 255. Said something? right now as we type.256. Ate something? awhile ago, a tasty slice of apple pie257. Drank something? 1 second ago258. Exercised? WAHAHAHAHAHAH like..months ago259. Took a shower? this morning.260. Brushed your teeth? this morning261. Watched a movie? its been awhile man262. Watched TV? I dont even remember263. Bought clothes? the begninning of the school year264. Slept? oh its been a long time my children.265. Had a song stuck in your head? awhile ago..my boo266. What was it? ..uh my booWhere Was the Last Place You 267. Went shopping? no frills..lol268. Went grocery shopping w/your parents? uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont have any idea269. Went on vacation? oh my gosh..i havent been on vacation FOREVER!270. Ate out at? THE GREAT WALLAt the Moment 271. What are you doing? filling this out..and talking to Dani Clemons and litsnetning to music272. Are you listening to anything? yes...take it away by the used273. What’s in your CD player? Tape player? Cd player..nothing..because the cd player in my room doesnt work..and theres a burned cd in my car..and the drum major judges tape from Burke is in my room tape player274. Are you talking to anyone? Who? yes dani clemons is here in this very room you pyschopath275. What color nailpolish are you wearing, if any? none..absolutely none because it chips off of my nails really easily and it looks awful 276. Do you have any nailpolish on your toes? If so, what color? yes like brownish pinkish? possibly?277. What are you wearing? jeans and a hoodie. what would you expect man.278. Are you cold? not really. IM rather toasty279. How are you sitting? with one of my legs resting on the desk?280. What time is it? 10:49281. What day of the week is it? SUNDAY I HATE SUNDAYS!!!!!Have You Ever 282. Gone out in your pjs in public? uh yah lol..duh283. Had an imaginary friend? no...but once I lied and said I had one named Zeek and I didnt284. Spent more than 1 hour on your hair? yes..if im bored I just do my hair285. Slept-walk or talked in your sleep? yes..one time me and my aunt had a conversation in our sleep..and then another time i woke up in the bathtub..and another time I spent the night at my friends house and went to bed with my pjs on and i woke up iwth jeans on and my side of the bed was made286. Gone caroling? never 287. Run into a wall? yes...i used to run into doors all the time too..in the dark288. Fallen off a chair? yes289. Tripped or fallen in front of someone you liked or thought was cute? I dont think so..maybe?290. Made people look at you weird? every day man..every day291. How? I say stupid things..or laugh really loud..etc292. Stolen anything? yes..ive stolen change out of my moms purse..all the time...and..i steal hoodies a lot..its more of a hobby than anything..and i steal pencils from the choir teachers all the time293. Broken a bone? nope! im so safe294. Driven illegally? yes..freshman year I drove aroudn the lake...and sometimes I drive without my liscence. thats illegal. haha..and one time I drove a rental vehicle and im not 18..haha295. Run away? uh no296. Prank called a 1-800 number? no uh because...that costs money. I have better things to do with my time297. Prank called the police? UH OMG NO..but one time my best friend called 911 at the library and i hit her and made her jog home with me lol298. Worn black nailpolish? yes299. Eaten an entire box of Oreos? not in lik eone sitting lol300. Hiked a mountain? daily301. Been to the Mall of America? no!!!!!!!!! I WISH OMG!302. Seen the White House? on tv? :[303. Seen the Eiffel Tower? in a picture once? :/304. Seen the Grand Canyon? god get out of my face man305. Visited another country? downtown omaha?306. Been to the ocean? noooooooooooooooooo307. Gotten surgery? no..gosh I am so not cool308. Been on a plane? NO309. Been on a boat? yes310. Been on a train? yes311. Been in a car accident? no!312. Ridden an elephant? YESWould You Ever 313. Jump out of an airplane? absolutely not..ever..I wouldnt even consider it314. Go bungy jumping? NO WAY 315. Stay in your room for a whole day? uh yah Ive done it before man..sleeeepp316. Drink salt water? uh no..thats so dangerous..?317. Touch road kill? WHAT?! ABSOLUTELY NOT318. Fly an airplane? no because I dont have 20/20 vision319. Jump over a waterfall? that sounds so cool man. But I wouldnt do it.320. Not take a shower for 3 years if it got you in the Guiness Book of World Records? no..because youd die..dani: UM NO BECAUSE YOUR SKIN WOULD EAT ITSELF OR SOMETHING..THATS DISGUSTING321. Watch tv for 3 days straight? ...absolutely not322. Wear slippers to school? yes!323. Go on Fear Factor? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YUCK324. Join the army? no325. Eat bugs? no326. Hold a venimous snake? omg definitely no327. Drink sewer water for a million dollars? I think so. maybe. Id ponder the idearIF 328. IF you could be cloned, would you? um no because no one else deserves to be as cool as me329. IF you could be invisible for a day, what would you do? I would spy on people and keep a diary of stupid things they do and then make fun of them the next day. ? 330. IF you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? Texas331. IF you had 10 million dollars, what would you do with it? what if i had 9 million dollars and my name was dani clemons' mom and i lost it all? HUH? actually..id buy 10 cars, 4 houses, a boat, a bunch of clothes, eat dinner out on the town, buy an airplane, donate money to charity, buy new band stuff, give my friends money..more for the cooler ones, give everyone in my family money, take a nap, and put a bunch in the bank, and invest some in some sort of mcdonalds stock and be even more rich. gosh im like tiger woods over here
332. IF you could go on vacation anywhere, where would you go? france 333. IF you could be on a reality show, which one would it be? the real worldDo You Believe In 334. God? yes..mostly335. Satan? yes..mostly336. Heaven? yes..mostly337. Hell? yes.. mostly338. Love at first sight? yes What Do You Think About 339. Abortion? Im pro choice340. War? its ridiculous341. 9-11? lmao Dani: what are you supposed to say..? UM I LOVED IT..it was the best thing thats happened to our country?? 342. Guys? uh..theyre attractive?343. Smoking? its disgusting344. Summer? I LOVE THE SUMMER OH MY GOSH i loooooooove it345. Make-up? i mobsessed..dani can i borrow your make up just one more time?Girls Only (About Guys) 346. Blue eyes/Brown eyes: brown347. Blonde hair/Brown hair: brown348. Tan/Pale: tan349. Sensative/Tough: whoever made this cant spell too well.. um..I like guys who act tough but are sensitive too..if you get my drift. 350. Tall/Short: tall!Best of 2004351. Holiday (so far): uh..groundhogs day352. Memory: dci probably353. Movie: uh i watched a lot of kings of comedy..classic354. TV show: the real worldHow Would You Spell 355. Sean/Shawn: shaun356. Ashley/Ashlee/Ashleigh: ashley357. Mark/Marc: mark358. Erik/Eric: eric359. Megan/Meghan: megan360. Nicole/Nichole: nicole361. Morgan/Morghan: morgan362. Derek/Derrik: derick363. Carey/Carrie: carie364. Caitlin/Kaitlyn: katelyn365. Bryan/Brian: bryan366. Vick/Vic: neither367. Nikki/Nicky/Nicci: nicky368. Christina/Kristina: kristina369. Zak/Zack/Zach: zack370. Gina/Gena: gina371. Jennie/Jenny: neither372. Shelly/Shelley: shelly373. Lacey/Lacy: lacy374. Kurt/Curt: kurt375. Caryn/Karen: karen376. Brandi/Brandy: brandy377. Amy/Aimee: amy378. Chelsea/Chelsey: chelseaFirst Things You Think Of 379. Nailpolish: pink380. Chocolate: white chocolate with the cookies..cookies and cream lol381. Food: chicken parmesian...that bum is eating real well382. Pencil: sharpener?Other 383. What is the nicest thing someone has done for you? Uh...Allison wrote me a letter and got my sour gummy octopuses and a balloon when i tried out for drum major..and amanda and jeff and her waited the whole time i was auditioning and everyone else was auditiong..so like..3 hours..until i found out the results! i dono people always do nice things for me. I dont blame them.384. What do you wish you could change about yourself? I wish I was more focused on school385. Anything you regret doing in the past 2 weeks? yes, I havent done my english comp assignments.386. Anything you are glad happened in the past 2 weeks? this question needs some re wording i would say..but yes..yesterday was definitely the most magnificent day ever..and we have really great performances and i cried like a pansy. Andddddd i got to see my friend like 8 times in the past two weeks387. How many pillows do you sleep with? well i have like 8 but i only use 2388. How many rooms are in your house? 4389. How many times have you moved (if any)? like 3390. Where have you moved and from where? well..from what i remember..from my aunts house to our house on 17th street..then to texas..then back to iowa391. What time did you wake up today? 9:37392. What’s the weather like today? it was very nice outside..it was..cool if you wil393. How long does it usually take you to get ready for school? well if i have band in the morning i dont get ready until 2nd hour..so like 10 minutes394. Are you the youngest, oldest, middle, or only child? youngest :]395. Do you have any trees in your yard? I dont remember. OH YES I HAVE like 3396. What’s the weirdest pair of socks you own? um I have pink ones with monkeys and BANNANAS397. What month has the most people you know born in it? um..I think September..or February 398. What month has the least people you know born in it? October399. Do your eyes change colors? not generally400. What color is your bedspread? i have 38401. What color is your room? white i guess402. Do you play any instruments? UH YAH i play the clarinet and im real good and i play the saxaphone..i suck at that...but um i play a real mean flute403. If so, what and how long have you been playing it for? clarient- 8 years404. Have you played any other instruments? ..obvioulsy the saxaphone405. If so, what, why did you stop, and how long did you play them for? this is too confusing of a question. Im still goin strong man406. Do you write in cursive or print? a mixutre of the two really407. Are you a righty or lefty? right408. Are you a morning person? ABSOLUTELY NOT
WELL, HELLO THERE. Good ole Amanda just emailed me and was like hey, you should update your blog. So, I decided I would, since I feel like just venting anyway. Lots of stuff has been going on...most importantly- band. We have our first football game this Friday- its so crazy, I feel like I felt my freshman year when we were getting ready for our first game. Like, being drum major is way different from playing my trusty clarinet. Nonetheless, Im very excited. I know things will go great.
Other than band..wow I think I forgot I have a life outside of band..lol..actually Im pretty stressed out with pre calc right now, because..I have that class right after lunch..and Im alwayyyys tired right after lunch..and Ankos voice practically puts me to sleep..so Im not doin so hot right now..but Justin is going to tutor me, so hopefully Ill get the hang of things gahh I have been sick lately..which is the last thing I need at the moment..I had some...weird..sickness which was basically really bad strep throat...although..the doctor really couldnt give me a name for it..lol..uh :/ willickers but anyway, I feel like Im losing my voice..but for the past like 4 nights Ive felt like that..which, really just..isnt cool. I need it lol. GAH...jeepers. I havent heard that for sooo long :/ hm unfortunately something that is pretty much constantly on my mind is my boy situation. Really, anymore..there is no situation..so youre probably saying..well then you shouldnt have a problem if theres no situation..but thats exactly why I do have a problem. Probably the worst feeling in the world is getting close to someone, and really letting yourself lose boundaries..I guess is the way I would explain it..like..letting your guard down contrary to what your c oncious is telling you...and then getting hurt despite your best efforts..thats probably the worst. Like, I had been through a VERY mini version of this whole thing with the same person..a year ago...and I got hurt pretty bad...and I happily put myself into the same position..because I really love this fella..and I just got my heart broken. I mean I really havent said this to anyone, and I dont think I feel comfortable having a conversation about what Im about to say..but Im honestly in so much pain right now..I keep making myself focus on other things because I dont want to feel like this..but Ive never been so hurt in my entire life..this is hell for me. And Im so angry with him but at the same time I understand that the way things are now...theyre logical. The whole situation had it gone any farther wouldve been just one big complication...so I understand that he pushed me away, however...I think with my heart...I hate how corny I sound right now..oh well..anyway I think with my heart, so ultimately I dont care about the consequences that there would have been..because Im in love with him..and thats what matters the most...not..what could happen...and the problems there would be... guh really this kills me. Ive never felt like..so sad....I have to fight with myself to not think about him, like..if I do...I feel depressed the rest of the day. I dont want this. God I just miss him so much. I want the summer back :/ guh.. I have to be up in 7 hours..so Im gonna take a shower and head to bed... sorry for the randomness..im not crazy..i promise :[
WOW! Its been quite awhile since Ive posted. Ive had sooo much stuff goin on. I went to a drum major camp in Ohio, it was OUTSTANDING! Then..the day I got back we had rookie camp..and the next week and a half was band camp. The good news is, Im so dark Im practically African. Its magnificent. Hmm..I went to work for the first time in a few weeks yesterday. I was actually like 2 1/2 hours late. I went with Bluford, Cayla, Nick P., Allison, and Dani to DCI world championships. OMGGGGG- the coolest thing Ive ever done. I could watch that stuff 24/7. Like..I would become a bum and grow a beard and never shower and cary a pack and just walk around the country watching Drum Cores. Okay, Im exaggerating a little bit- I wouldnt grow a beard. Mostly because its impossible. Anyway...it was AWESOME, and I recommend to everyone..before you die go to DCI world championships. As a matter of fact, I want to be in one. Im going to learn the mellophone/baritone this year..and try and tavel with the Cavaliers next year..then the next year try out for a Core. Itll be awesome. The thing that sucks though, is you can be in one when youre 17. I wish I wouldve learned a brass instrument early on..and then tried out for a core last year. I could be traveling around the world right now. Anyway :/ School starts soon..Im not excited. Well, I would type more but I feel like workin on some stuff..so maybe next time!
I could be sleeping right now...bah
Well, a lot has been goin on lately. Ive been hangin out with Angela a lot. Good times.
Hm. Yesterday was the 4th. Magnificent. I worked all day (time and a half though) and then went and got dinner with Danny, and we visited my sister for awhile. Then, I came home..talked to my friend that was at Angelas and went over there for awhile. They lit off some fireworks, and it was right by Dan Gs house...there were a lot of people over there..lol, it was entertaining. After a couple of hours I came home and did nothing! Hm..I went to bed kinda late..and then the night before I didnt get much sleep because I was with Peachtree and this girl cayla...we went to Big Brain and Peachtree and her friend Taryn we were hangin out with got their ears pierced. After that we were tryin to go over to my friends friends house to watch fireworks because its near Rosenblat...but there were absolutely NO parking spots..so we just did a bunch of nothin for awhile..then got Taco Johns and headed back to Peachtrees. I kept everyone up late talking in these voices and being hilarious (as usual..lol)..and we had to get up real early because I had to work and they had church. It suckeddd..So..anyway. I was trying to sleep in today, but of course my step dad wakes me up saying I have a lot of stuff to do before I go out tonight. (were doing something for Crystal's birthday tonight) So, Im like..well, hey! Let me sleep..Ill get up later and Ill get my stuff done then. So he starts harassing me about getting up..and I need to clean my room..and do my laundry..,and call Dan about the mace. WELL! Dan is at work. So hes like WELL YOU CAN GO THERE AND TALK TO HIM! (Hes working on the tech crew) and Im like..UH absolutely not. Im not going to go to his work for something that I can call him about this evening..thats ridiculous. Its not like hes going to be in some store standing around doing nothing. So then he says I need to be more involved in this. UH O-M-G! lol I couldnt be more frustrated. See, I have this DM camp to go to. First step- I need more money. So, I work at the school for a week. Second- I need to find out all about this camp- so I do. Next, I have to register. My mom takes care of that. Now.. I have to find a way to get there. From the beginning I have said...my parents need to take me. There is absolutely no reason why they cant take me- but of course, Im wrong. So now..they wont listen to me or any of my ideas and as of now were not sure who is taking me and yatha yahta yahta. I have a few ideas- but its not good enough. But anyway, I also have a list of things I need to get...but I dont get paid for a few days..so thats impossible. But, of course Im just irresponsible- whatever.
And then, Im VERY angry about a discussion that someone told me about. All some people do is gossip- and they need to find something better to do.
And guilty by association- wow. I dont believe in that. I believe that it happens but I think its wrong- and the shit thats being said about me and the people Im supposedly hanging out with isnt true anyway- lol so..wow. Just wasting everyones time with that BS.
Anyway. I better get goin.
I could be sleeping right now...bah
Well, a lot has been goin on lately. Ive been hangin out with Angela a lot. Good times.
Hm. Yesterday was the 4th. Magnificent. I worked all day (time and a half though) and then went and got dinner with Danny, and we visited my sister for awhile. Then, I came home..talked to my friend that was at Angelas and went over there for awhile. They lit off some fireworks, and it was right by Dan Gs house...there were a lot of people over there..lol, it was entertaining. After a couple of hours I came home and did nothing! Hm..I went to bed kinda late..and then the night before I didnt get much sleep because I was with Peachtree and this girl cayla...we went to Big Brain and Peachtree and her friend Taryn we were hangin out with got their ears pierced. After that we were tryin to go over to my friends friends house to watch fireworks because its near Rosenblat...but there were absolutely NO parking spots..so we just did a bunch of nothin for awhile..then got Taco Johns and headed back to Peachtrees. I kept everyone up late talking in these voices and being hilarious (as usual..lol)..and we had to get up real early because I had to work and they had church. It suckeddd..So..anyway. I was trying to sleep in today, but of course my step dad wakes me up saying I have a lot of stuff to do before I go out tonight. (were doing something for Crystal's birthday tonight) So, Im like..well, hey! Let me sleep..Ill get up later and Ill get my stuff done then. So he starts harassing me about getting up..and I need to clean my room..and do my laundry..,and call Dan about the mace. WELL! Dan is at work. So hes like WELL YOU CAN GO THERE AND TALK TO HIM! (Hes working on the tech crew) and Im like..UH absolutely not. Im not going to go to his work for something that I can call him about this evening..thats ridiculous. Its not like hes going to be in some store standing around doing nothing. So then he says I need to be more involved in this. UH O-M-G! lol I couldnt be more frustrated. See, I have this DM camp to go to. First step- I need more money. So, I work at the school for a week. Second- I need to find out all about this camp- so I do. Next, I have to register. My mom takes care of that. Now.. I have to find a way to get there. From the beginning I have said...my parents need to take me. There is absolutely no reason why they cant take me- but of course, Im wrong. So now..they wont listen to me or any of my ideas and as of now were not sure who is taking me and yatha yahta yahta. I have a few ideas- but its not good enough. But anyway, I also have a list of things I need to get...but I dont get paid for a few days..so thats impossible. But, of course Im just irresponsible- whatever.
And then, Im VERY angry about a discussion that someone told me about. All some people do is gossip- and they need to find something better to do.
And guilty by association- wow. I dont believe in that. I believe that it happens but I think its wrong- and the shit thats being said about me and the people Im supposedly hanging out with isnt true anyway- lol so..wow. Just wasting everyones time with that BS.
Anyway. I better get goin.
I could be sleeping right now...bah
Well, a lot has been goin on lately. Ive been hangin out with Angela a lot. Good times.
Hm. Yesterday was the 4th. Magnificent. I worked all day (time and a half though) and then went and got dinner with Danny, and we visited my sister for awhile. Then, I came home..talked to my friend that was at Angelas and went over there for awhile. They lit off some fireworks, and it was right by Dan Gs house...there were a lot of people over there..lol, it was entertaining. After a couple of hours I came home and did nothing! Hm..I went to bed kinda late..and then the night before I didnt get much sleep because I was with Peachtree and this girl cayla...we went to Big Brain and Peachtree and her friend Taryn we were hangin out with got their ears pierced. After that we were tryin to go over to my friends friends house to watch fireworks because its near Rosenblat...but there were absolutely NO parking spots..so we just did a bunch of nothin for awhile..then got Taco Johns and headed back to Peachtrees. I kept everyone up late talking in these voices and being hilarious (as usual..lol)..and we had to get up real early because I had to work and they had church. It suckeddd..So..anyway. I was trying to sleep in today, but of course my step dad wakes me up saying I have a lot of stuff to do before I go out tonight. (were doing something for Crystal's birthday tonight) So, Im like..well, hey! Let me sleep..Ill get up later and Ill get my stuff done then. So he starts harassing me about getting up..and I need to clean my room..and do my laundry..,and call Dan about the mace. WELL! Dan is at work. So hes like WELL YOU CAN GO THERE AND TALK TO HIM! (Hes working on the tech crew) and Im like..UH absolutely not. Im not going to go to his work for something that I can call him about this evening..thats ridiculous. Its not like hes going to be in some store standing around doing nothing. So then he says I need to be more involved in this. UH O-M-G! lol I couldnt be more frustrated. See, I have this DM camp to go to. First step- I need more money. So, I work at the school for a week. Second- I need to find out all about this camp- so I do. Next, I have to register. My mom takes care of that. Now.. I have to find a way to get there. From the beginning I have said...my parents need to take me. There is absolutely no reason why they cant take me- but of course, Im wrong. So now..they wont listen to me or any of my ideas and as of now were not sure who is taking me and yatha yahta yahta. I have a few ideas- but its not good enough. But anyway, I also have a list of things I need to get...but I dont get paid for a few days..so thats impossible. But, of course Im just irresponsible- whatever.
And then, Im VERY angry about a discussion that someone told me about. All some people do is gossip- and they need to find something better to do.
And guilty by association- wow. I dont believe in that. I believe that it happens but I think its wrong- and the shit thats being said about me and the people Im supposedly hanging out with isnt true anyway- lol so..wow. Just wasting everyones time with that BS.
Anyway. I better get goin.
I've fallen so deep in love you see
Until you become the very soul of me
Let me tell you something,
I don't care enough anyway
All over, hey, all over my face it shows
Said I'm talkin bout love this time
Oh, yes I am
And you know what?
It's not a schoolgirl crush
Well..this weekend has been good..graduation parties Saturday..and I worked for only 3 hours that night..then went to see Mean Girls with Angela and Krysta H. Sunday was graduation..and afterwards me and Becky went to Dan's party..then to get dinner...and drove around..stopped at her grandparents..then met Angela and Lauren in a parking lot and talked lol..then I talked to Beth and we all decided to go see Raising Helen (My 3rd movie this wknd!!) Gahhhhhh! Anyway..Becky spent the night last night..we went to bed around 2 and I got up at 2..it was soo nice..then I went to work...now Im here..and about to go to bed.
I feel really crappy..I realized this past week how much I still do like Bruno..thats been on my mind a lot..gah
Im tired..going to bed
1)using band names, spell out your name: how bout no scott
2) have you ever had a song written about you? Nope..I guess Im not cool enough
3) what song makes you cry? Echo- Incubus, Joss Stone- Falling in love with you, 311-love song
4) what song makes you happy? Audioslave-I am the highway
a p p e a r a n c e
height: 5' 9" ish
hair color: brown and blondeish
skin color: whitish tan?!?
eye color: hazel
piercings: Ears
tattoos: no tengo
r i g h t n o w
what color pants are you wearing?: jeans
what song are you listening to?: 211-love song
what taste is in your mouth?: popcorn
how do you feel?: stressed out
d o y o u
get motion sickness?: sometimes when the heaters on in the car
have a bad habit?: I have a lot..I mean..like does laziness count?!
How about a nervous habit?: yah..I cant stay still and i like twitch and stuff
get along with your parents?: I try
like to drive?: I love it
f a v o r i t e s
book: Tallahasse Higgins..and Mondays with Morie
non alcoholic drink: mountain dew
alcoholic drink: eh
thing to do on the weekend: sleep and hang out with friends
h a v e y o u
broken the law: yah
ran away from home: no
snuck out of the house: eh i tried to when I lived in texas
ever gone skinny dipping: No
made a prank phone call: yes
been in a school play: yes
l o v e
Girlfriend/Boyfriend: eh
children: kids are cool
current crush: bruno
been in love: yes
Had your heart broken: yep..mark and nick
Broken someone elses heart: yah thats what I hear
had a hard time getting over someone: unfortunately
your greatest regret: i don't regret anything
r a n d o m
your cd player has in it right now: A burned cd with dashboard confessional
what makes you happy?: being with my friends and family..sleeping in late..summer time
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t..
time you cried: yesterday when I saw Kellie and she started crying
you got e-mail: today
thing you purchased: a movie ticket
movie you watched: Day after tomorrow
y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
abortion: Im pro choice I think
teenage smoking: sad..and pointless..thats any smoking at all
spice girls: I LOVE TH EM!
dreams: eh I think the ones we cant remembet are an insight into the future
Wow I just got back from seeing a GREAT movie..it was me, becky, nick, nicks friends, and erin...Amanda was there too but apparently the seats that I had everyone move to so there was room for the rest of us..were "too close" for her...so her, Jeff, Chase, Michelle, and Andy were going to sit by us..but I guess it hurt Amandas eyes..pointless for us to go to the movie all together..but OH WELL! :] Only this summer left- Im glad were making the best of it!!
Tomorrows going to be a long day- 5,000 graduation parties to go to..Im going with Allison and Cayla..should be fun. AND EXPENSIVE! GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, its only once a year..thank God- I can only take so much of this..graduation is Sunday- its going to be intense.
Well Im going to wait for Becky to call, then go to bed! I have to get up real early tomorrow !!
Today was a sad day...last day for the seniors. Tomorrow is going to be so much worse though. I was thinking how weird it will be in the morning for me, Allison, and Jeff...and then going to 2nd hour..I'm a teacher aid in that class because Becky and Amanda are in there...and now it will just be me and Thomsen..lol..and then for some reason I was thinking about the announcements and I realized Dan and Jenny won't be doing them anymore...and then I thought about band..and different it will be...and lunch...it'll just be me and Jig..wow
It's going to be weird..especially after summer's over...work is going to suck...the people I'm there because of- Ashley, Becky, Crystal, Kellie, and Peachtree are gonna be gone..I remember a few Sundays ago when none of them were there...how bored I was...GUH..
This is the worst...the only senior I know that is sticking around here for awhile is Angela..that's really awesome..and everyone will be back to visit...but that's not at all the same.
GUH and graduation is going to be...awful...like I cried freshman year because Matt and Josh were graduating...and last year because Audra and Ellen...this year...Angela, Amanda, Becky, Beth, Peachtree, Crystal, Kellie, and Dan..all of those people are my good friends..guuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and Nicole and I used to be really close..even though we don't talk anymore that sucks..and my good friend Ashley from work already graduating and is going to Missouri..
this sucks
at least Allison and Jeff aren't going anywhere..I dono what I would do if they were graduating too..
blah ;[
just got back from becky's open house. It was a great time! Lots of people..Im pissed off though, a couple people who should have been there werent. Thats okay, Im sure they had better things to do...or at least have some good excuses.
Oh well! it was a good time.
anyway, I have a lesson with my aunt!
adios
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: "She had a rosary in her hand, Boyd. She must have grabbed it when the quake stated. But it didnt help her, did it?"
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: my moms head
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?: Music videos
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: 7:54
5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 7:55
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: amanda..Im on the phone with her
7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?: a few minutes ago..looking outside. it just rained :]
8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?: song lyrics
9: What are you wearing?: some old navy pajama pants and a white t-shirt
10: Did you dream last night?: yes
11: When did you last laugh?: when I was talking about me and Dan being simese twins today
12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?: light switch...window...and the like..
13: Seen anything weird lately?: I suppose so
14: What do you think of this quiz?: its..okay
15: What is the last film you saw?: Best of Will Ferell..addicting
16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: a plane ticket to texas
17. Tell me something about you that I don't know: I dont have any socks on right now
18: If you could change one thing about the world, what would you do?: Make everyone nice :] ...wahaha
19: Do you like to dance?: eh
20: George W. Bush: ...I havent decided
21a: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: don't know
21b: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: don't know
22: Would you ever consider living abroad?: definately
23: What do you wish to be doing 1 year from now?: Getting ready for graduation..planning my open house..planning out college with jig
Well, its been an exciting weekend. Friday night was.....exciting..lol. I had to work Saturday from 1-9 :[
and after work me, kellie, peachtree, and becky went to the carnival at bailis park..which was..CREEPY lol..I drove..which was exciting. We went to the US bank downtown where you have to use your ATM card to get in the door :X ..each of us closed the door after us so we could all use our ATM cards :]
Anyway..that was fun..then we went to Sonic..and home.
Then..this morning danny made me go to breakfast with my family...guhh I really didnt want to go..I had to take a shower in completely cold water because both of my parents had already taken their shower/bath..so no hot water..guuuuuuh!
but yah..I found out that my aunt is goign to be PRESIDENT of SWIBA! How awesome is that?!
yeppp :]
But..Im going to go get ready for work..........bleh
I could take every fucking word he says
Throw it in his face
but would he even care
I still remember when he looked at me
that frown upon his face
Trying to be sincere
I gathered all those little things he said
Kept them close to me
Trying to make this real
This cloud will alway hover over me
I'm leaving you today
'cause now I see
Suffocate, you suffocate
That you lie
That your fake
Suffocate, you suffocate
You always take
What you can
I could take every fucking game you play
Blow it all away
but would you even care
I could take all those lies you said to me
Never go away
Never dissapear
This cloud will always hover over me
I'm leaving you today
'Cause now I see
Now I'm far away from you (You're always far away)
I'll never bring back yesterday (bring back yesterday)
You're such a fake it's true
I can't believe the words you say
I'm far away from you
I'll never bring back yesterday
10 SONGS YOU LOVE ]
01 311-love song
02 Incubus-Echo
03 Deseree-Kissing you
04 Joss stone-fell in love with a boy
05 Audioslave- I am the highway
06 Dashboard Confessional- For you to notice
07 Switchfoot-Dare you to move
08 Brandy-Almost doesnt count
09 Finger 11-Sick of it all
10 Avril Lavigne- Anything but ordinary
[ 09 THiNGS THAT MAKE YOU SMiLE ]
01 making someone laugh
02 going sledding
03 hearing a great song on the radio.
04 inside jokes
05 hearing nice things people say about yuo
06 sleeping in
07 romantic comedies
08 doing goofy things with my friends
09 stand up comedy during lunch
[ 08 THiNGS YOU WEAR DAiLY ]
01 underwear
02 shoes
03 makeup
04 clothes?
05 pants
06 socks..sometimes? :]
07 hair tie?
08 A SMILE :]
[ 07 THiNGS THAT ANNOY YOU ]
01 MEAN people
02 3rd hour...GAH!
03 creepy customers at work
04 reruns
05 weird phone calls
06 long lines
07 people who smoke
[ 06 THiNGS YOU'RE LOOKING FORWARD TO ]
01 DM results-finally getting it over with!
02 Tomrorrow night..mean girls with angela!@
03 college
04 sleeping in during the summer
05 corp performance at the middle school
06 listening to my joss stone cd :]
[ 05 THiNGS YOU'RE SCARED OF ]
01 Losing someone
02 rejection
03 losing touch with my friends
04 failure
05 people not liking me
[ 04 PEOPLE YOU WANNA SPEND MORE TiME WITH ]
01 The seniors- Amanda, Becky, Ashley, Dan, Peachtree, Beth, Angela, Lauren, Kelly, and Crystal
02 my family
03 Allison, Amanda, and Jeff
04 my mom
[ 03 MOViES YOU COULD WATCH OVER&OVER ]
01 13 going on 30
02 Dirty Dancing
03 Love and Basketbal
[ 02 SPECiAL MOMENTS ]
01 fsdfssd
02 fdsafds
[ 01 PERSON YOU CAN SPEND FOREVER WiTH ]
01 ME
this is the worst feeling ever
trying to decide whether or not to tell someone how you feel about them...and knowing that either way its hopeless.
"i dont know- i think you'll get shot down no matter what- just becuase he wont think twice about it- he'll just be like well thats nice but hes committed to her"
You know, Ive been thinking about how much we all tak efor granted. Its creepy if you think about it. Me personally...wow there are so many things in my life that I wish were different. My relationship with my Grandparents for example..everytime I see them I think...wow these people are amazing, and theyve seen so much that I wish I could know about it..and its not that I cant go and talk to them with my free time..its that I dont. So, one day theyll be gone and Ill never forgive myself for never actually knowing them. Or, my relationship with my mom. We have spurts of good times...but not as much as I would like. I want my mom to be my best friend...especially since next year Ill be going to college and we will never talk..
or school...so many people before us..and still to this day didnt get the educational opportunities we have..and I slack off all the time..while I should be taking advantage of high school..Im not.
And even..not getting to people...I wish I could know everyone..even though it would be impossible to know or get along with EVERYONE..wouldnt it be nice to know as many people as you could? So many different opinions, ideas, stories, and so much more.
You know how you supposedly people see their life flashing before their eyes before they die...I can only imagine how incredibly different my life would be if I knew what it is that I would see..
God..I just want to be SOMEONE..you know? Were so priveledged to live in a country where we have so many opportunities...but so many of us dont take advantage of that..and its a waste. So many people have died for everything we have and so many people dont even acknowledge it..let alone appreciate it.
Its so interesting how so many of us spend our lives..granted were in high school..and we do the things and worry about the things society says we should...like the opposite sex..and relationships..and friends...and such..being dramatic and self centered..and judgemental and stereotypical..I mean thats how were supposed to be..but why? Its amazing how sheltered so many of us are...there are people starving and homeless..and abused..and tortured..even in our own country..and personally..I dont ever think about that. Who does? Im sure its safe to say that half of us dont. We fill our lives with our own problems..that are generally little and pointless..and blow them up as tragedies..and we dramatize everything as much as possible so we dont have to worry about the big things..and we have our minds set that we need to worry about OURSELVES..and OUR problems..how many times do you hear that..take care of yourself? Way too many. I wish I could actually stop worrying about myself..and take care of other people..that need taken care of..because really Ill still survive if the guy I like doesnt like me back..hell, Im doing a good job of that now...and my jobs not as bad as I make it out to be..and things arent as dramatic as I make them...but I guess that by doing that it makes us form a bubble around ourselves and the people we surround ourselves with and that way we dont have to focus on the big things..it makes it easier on us. WHY NOT! And not only are we all self centered..but we become so set in our ways that we judge everyone as much as possible..all of us do it! I dont care who you are..youre always judging someone..what theyre wearing..or what they say..or believe..or do..because if we dont agree, its wrong in our book! And the thing is..while were making lists of bad things about other people..theyre doing the same for us..so its pointless! God. The thing I hate the most is, I complain about my life like its a fucking disaster. Someone is dying somewhere right now and Im complaning about living. IM COMPLAINING ABOUT COMPLAINING.
Its a viscious cycle.
GOD has anyone watched the news!?! The man who was beheaded in Iraq...I just have no words...how does someone get so angry or whatever it is..and decide to not only kill...but behead..SLAUGHTER someone..live over the internet. With a small knife.. I cant think of a more painful or lonely way to die....Im not one to pray usually but Ill be praying for his family, and everyone.. that breaks my heart...and Im sure everyone else feels the same way. The guy was only 26 years old...my god..just looking at the picture of this man sitting on the ground with 5 men with ski masks behind him waiting to kill him brings me to tears
I swear, on AOL news..one of the links on the news is- the latest violence in Iraq...this is ridiculous.
A quote from the video-" You will not receive anything from us but coffins after coffins...slaughtered in this way."
God..this breaks my heart..
well hi.
Im sooo tired right now...
hmm Friday night me, Jeff, Allison, and Amanda went to the drive in and saw Van Helsing. Saturday was large group...and me and my sister took some stuff up to my moms work for mothers day..and that night me, Becky, Jeff, and Amanda went to Allisons and watched the best of Will Ferrel..HILLARIOUS! I borrowed it from Amanda and made my parents watch it..haha..lol anyway..Amanda spent the night last night but we ended up just coming to my house and going to sleep lol..ridiculous.
Anyway, school was boring as heck today..in band we watched the final episode of friends... :[
bleh then I had a dentist appointment..theyre crazy..I had my teeth cleaned...and then my gay dentist inspected my teeth and made a list of stuff I should come back for..one being to get my wisdom teeth pulled. And.. I want to be put to sleep..but hes under the impression that theyll just numb my jaw..and Ill just feel a bit of pressure....my ass! Hell be feeling some pressure when I gouge his eyes out for stabbing me again! He was like..well, if you do happen to feel any discomfort I will just use more anesthetic...apparently hes on drugs.
Welp..after all that I came home..did some stuff..then me and amanda went to the mall so I could search for something for allisons birthday..I ended up getting her Dumb and Dumber on DVD..which now that I think about she might already have...which will suck!..and some Simpsons pez things...a card...and some balloons for her locker...and some chocolate chip cookie mix...let me tell you..Im no Emeril in the kitchen..I butchered the cookies...I dont know how..Im a little dissapointed to be perfectly honest.
But anyway...tomorrow is going to be a longggg day...me and Amanda are supposedly going to school at 6:45 to decorate Allisons locker...because Amanda has to go in for a Trig test. RIDICULOUS...plus Im going on this Spanish field trip...lmao. Itll be entertaining. And on top of that..I have to work tomorrow night. So..Im going to take a shower and try to get some sleep before I pass out!
goolay!
ggggeeeeeze today has been a long day.. I didnt get enough sleep this weekend so I was soooooooo tired this morning...school was okay
OMFG THE BEST MOVIE EVER is 13 going on 30..I love ittttt..and Im in love with Mark Ruffalo..jeesh. Everyone should go see it...Im probably goin like 2 more times :] Me and Becky saw it last night..it was the best..I had fun
anyway..school was okay..I didnt read huck finn so I didnt get any points on the quiz..lmao wtf...and then thompson wasnt there in spanish..so I did my music theory homework..not that I wouldve been doing anything different had she been there...and like omg derek was in the computer lab with us like in front of me and I didnt notice the whole time..lmao Becky and Amanda were like yahh we thought you noticed..and didnt want to point it out and you freak out.. lol ggggggguuuuuhhh that sucks!
anyway I love it..we watched some of Billy Madison again today...it was the best..it gets me in a good mood...
soooo after school I came home and excersized..ew..then had a nap for like an hour and a half..it was nice :]
and now Im about to go watch Bringin Down the House and then go to bed :]
oh yah..funny story...the other night when I went to Angelas but I was going to go to Ashleys bfs Dale and Beth had been at Angelas but they were going to some guys apartment for some party..and they were at Ashleys boyfriends..how ridiculous.. I asked Dale how he knew them and hes like I dono..I dont really know how we ended up there..lol
lets see...whats new..
ehh..nothing..lol...this weekend hasnt been too exciting..I just went to Angelas for awhile tonight..Ashley wanted me to go with her to Steve and Kyles and shit I wouldnt mind...their friend Drew is soooooo hotttttttttttttt ..wowwwwwwww..lol
anyway..Im excited because I dont work at all tomorrow...which is actually weird because I never get sundays off without requesting it off...and this is the second sunday in a row...
ridiculous.
guh..my throat hurts still..
bleh
wow..for some reason I miss Nick...I had a weird dream about him last night..and I just remembered the whole thing..so now it makes sense that Ive been thinking about him off and on today...I talked to him a couple weeks ago..pretty sure he was with some girl..but eh who cares
well im gonna skidattle on to bed I think...I have to get up and clean my room in the morning so ashley can either highlight my hair or we can go job hunting ;x
whichever
last wknd was cool..i hung out with angela and beth saturday night..we went to the movies then i spent the night at angelas...and like slept all of sunday... it was nice
hmm
guh i procrastinated with my solo..go figure..so yah my mouth is in so much pain..lol i deserve that though.
anyway im about to pass out
night!
<3
uh wow. people are gay.
i had to sit at home last night and do nothing because my room is supposedly dirty. And I cant go anywhere tonight either. And dannys pissed off at me because I got pissed off...uh yah I dont want to sit here all weekend.. so he like told me how i dont do anything around here..dont do chores or clean my room or do my homework and yahta yahta yahta..right.. because last weekend was prom and I was tired as hell sunday and monday...and went to ijc on tuesday..didnt get home until 10 something because when my mom picked me we went to my uncles house..and wednesday I cleaned my room and then tried to go working out...and worked last night and tonight..cleaned my car and went shopping for his birthday shit then to lunch today...
sure why dont i clean the whole house. Actually maybe I should just build a whole new house since I have so much time to sit around and do nothing.
yah and now hes probably pissed off because I told him I couldnt wait to move out..yet he says shit all the time about how he cant wait and whether hes joking or not i dont care...gay either way..and since I dont do anything at all anyway theres no reason for me to want to stay here. duh
~ABOUT YOU~
*Name: Shauna Lehmer
*Birthday: 2/18/87
shoe size: 10-11 :[
Boyfriend/Girlfriend's name (if applicable): ..
*Best-friend(s): Amanda, Allison, Becky, Amanda, Angela
*School/College: Lewis Central..hopefully UNI
~BESTS~
*Best compliment ever given to you: uh that Im the funniest person alive..lol
*Best date: uhh lol..well I wouldnt consider it a date..but when I went out with this guy and we got taco bell and stuff...blah
*Best day you've had in recent memory: um..Im not sure actually
~FAVORITES~
*Color: PINK
*Ice-cream flavor: mint chocolate chip
*Scent: Lucky..Curve..Candies..Cool Water..Vanilla stuff
*Shampoo: Bed Head- Self Absorbed
*Animal: puppies and kitties
*Food: Chinese
*Article of clothing: hoodies
~WHAT QUALITIES WOULD YOUR DREAM-PERSON POSSESS?~
*What type of clothing is most attractive on them? uh nothing that looks uncomfortable
*What color eyes? blue
*What color hair? brownish/blondeish
*What height? like 5'11"-6'2"
*What occupation? whatever they like
*What religious preference? I dont have a preference
*What family values? definitely respectful and all that
~OUT OF ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS, WHO IS THE MOST...~
*Attractive? well Id say Nick but hes really not my friend anymore
*Adorable? I dono all of them
*Sarcastic? Jeff and Anhela
*Emotionally deep? all of us are sappy idiots :/
*Poetic? Amanda, Amanda, Becky and Jamie
*Musically talented? ..lol uh all of us
*Athletically talented? Jeff..Dan..
*Easily angered? uh me lol
*Amusing? Im not friends with people who dont amuse me
*Likely to laugh at a bad joke? all of us..were losers
*Likely to be found in their dorm during college? I dono..probably Amanda liek she said..SLEEPING!
*Likely to be married with three kids and living in the suburbs? Amanda..Dan
*Likely to be unmarried at the age of thirty? Dale
~WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...~
*Sex before marriage? Whatever you believe
*Abortion? definitely pro choice
*Al Gore? um
*Same-sex marriages? I believe that none of us have room for judgement..so we should stop using so much negative energy worrying about what we think is right..I think its shallow, and we all have better things to do than judge everyone else's decisions.
*The five-second rule? YUCKY
Today.
Wow, today was a long day. I went to see The Passion of the Christ last night with Audra and Angela...that movie gets me soo bad. After I came home I stayed up till 1:30-2:00 reading the Bible. Not something anyone was expecting me to hear from me.
It went well though.
I kept punching snooze on my alarm clock from 5:45 :| to 7:10...Im not positive as to how to set the alarm because its brand new and my moms been doing it for me but she wasnt home last night..and I didnt want to test it because I was soo tired..so I just went to bed and pulled that little number.
Got to corp at like 8:10..and I really didnt do much at all..lol..me and Chris went to burger king...did a little hosting..
Hm I went home for awhile and when I got back there were absolutely NO parking spaces..it sucked..the auditorium was so packed before finals..there was NO ROOM at all..it looked so uncomfortable..
after we performed, which was really fun..I went home and changed and stuff then came back and walked around with Allison and Natalie..
So I guess the day was okay overall..except for Bruno...I dont believe how sad this is making me.. guh..
and the prom argument..that wasnt fun. I just hope we get everything worked out so we can all have a good time.
hmm soo yah..
I feel so bad right now, all I can think about is Bruno...I hate being the girl who gets so emotional about ths type of thing but I really havent felt this way before..I seriously know hes worth it..but I guess it really doesnt matter if hes married..
eh, you win a little you lose a little..
maybe its the way that i get nervous when your around. And I want you to be mine
and if you need a reason why
Its in the way that you move me, and the way that you tease me the way that I want you tonight, its in the way that you
teach me, and the way that you know me, when I can't find the right words to say, you feel it in the way, you feel it in the
way.
Theres something bout how you stay on my mind, theres something bout the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep
Maybe its the look you get in your eyes. Oh baby its the way that it makes me feel to see you smile. And the reasons they
may change but what i'm feeling stays the same.
*What....*
. What do you think of the way you look?: blah :]
. What do you think about your attitude?: I try to have a decent attitude..but I guess its not wonderful most of the time..lol
. What do you think about life after death?: Im really not sure what I believe
. What do you think about karma?: I believe in karma.
What do you think about love?: Its difficult, but its wonderful
. What do you think about fate?: I believe in fate definitely.
What do you think about your self?: I think Im funny? :| Id be my friend?
. What do you tell yourself if times get hard?: That everything happens for a reason
. What would you give your life for?: Im not sure..probably something I strongly believe in..I dont have an example though...and like my mom or someone liek that
. What do you think about your first love?: That I shouldve checked the family tree. lol, nah, I think that taught me a lot...like heartbreak can only hurt you as much as you let it..like its always going to be painful but life goes on..no matter how tough it may be
. What do you think about the first person that loved you?: My mom? lol :] I dono that anyone has loved me or who the first one was and all that
What are you scared of?: death
. What was the saddest moment of your life so far?: moving..or the mark thing..that was sad for me
*Do you...*
.Do you write in a journal or diary?: I try to
.Do you keep an organizer?: uh, no..I dont keep anything that has anything at all to do with organization :]
.Do you believe in love at first sight?: yah
.Do you believe that every person has one soul mate: yes
.Do you believe in god?: Im not sure
.Do you believe in having a good education?: yah
.Do you believe in horoscopes?: yessir I do
Do you believe in yourself?: I give it the old fashioned try
Do you cry easily?: yes..im a pansy :|
.Do you believe in Heaven?: Im not sure
.Do you believe in hell?: Im not sure
.Do you believe in reincarnation?: Im not sure
*When you hear ___ you think of..*
1.Baseball: Texas rangers..my first baseball game with my sister and her husband
2.Jeff: heff my son
3.Dog: molly moose
4.Warm apple pie: fork
5.Socks: dan black
6.Fish: ugly
7.Nail: polish
8.Amanda: poopface..wahaha I kid
9.Swimming: my old swimming pool ;[
10.Bologna: yucky!
11.Giant Eagle: the lake
12.A nun: weird clothes
13.The # 69: perverts :|
14.School: getting up earlier
WHICH OF YOUR FRIENDS...
Is the funniest: all of them are hilarious :]
7Do you tell your dreams to: Amanda..Amanda..Becky..Allison
Do you tell your fears to: Amanda..Amanda..Becky.
Do you go to for advice: Most of my friends
.Knows everything about you: I dont think any of my friends knows everything about me..but Amanda and Amanda are closest I guess
.Do you tell your secrets to: Amanda..Amanda..Allison..and Becky..and Anhela!
Is the most shy: Allison
.Is the loudest: Ashley
.Can't you live without: All of them
Lives the farthest away from you: Amanda
.Lives closest to you: Amanda
Are you most like: Im not sure..I think Im a little bit of all of them
*Relationships*
.boyfriend/girlfriend's name: UH
things you like in the opposite sex: A great sense of humor..understanding..nice eyes and smile
.when was your first kiss: first real kiss like 13
are you a virgin: yes
.the most romantic thing anyone has done for you was: uh..im a loser
.which is more important- personality or looks?: personality, and they have to be at least not half bad looking. I'm not gonna deny that.
.first boyfriend/girlfriend: Jarred Persell and Josh Mccamond, at the same time- I was already pimpin the game in preschool
Creative Q's*
.What color do you think best describes you and why?: Pink, because its girly kinda and Im a bit girly I think..and because its just cool
.If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing: probably eating chinese with Amanda, Shauna, and Jeff.
.Would you ever share you heart completely with someone else? If yes- who~* if no- why not?: Yes...everyone knows who he is
If you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why?: I would have taken a nap :/
Do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed indoors?: my cozy bed indoors :]
What is the most beautiful thing in the world?: Happiness and love
.Name one person whose changed your life for the better: so many people...SOOO many people..oh my..my mom, my aunt pam, my grandparents, Jamie, Amanda, Andrea, Julio, Amanda, Allison, Jeff, Becky, Ashley, Angela, Dan B, Mark May interestingly enough, Nicole, Nick..and like a thousand more..almost everyone Im friends with has changed me
.If you knew you were going to pass away within the next few days, what would be the last thing you say, and who would you say that to?: holy cow..Ive always thought about that..I have no idea how I could chose one person..
I would tell my parents Im sorry for my attitude and thank them for always loving me as much as they do..and being so forgiving, and teaching me so much and making me who I am..
My aunt..that she has always been a second mom to me and I wouldnt be who I am today without her, and thanks for doing for me more than she ever had to, and that her believing me is the reason Ive continued persuing music..which is like the love of my life
Jamie..that she makes a great best friend and sister..and that my life wouldnt be complete without having known her..and that no matter what life throws at her she can overcome it
Amanda (tx)- my other half, more than my other half..more like 3/4...that shes one of the sweetest and amazing people Ive ever met...and thanks for taking a chance on some "annoying girl who looked like a boy" back in 6th grade...and that shes the strongest person Ive ever met whether she sees it or not..and that I love her to death
Amanda- that shes been a hell of a friend, and that shes been an inspiration to me, and has changed me for the better. That shes made me re evaluate my definition of a friend, and that I wouldnt have traded her for the world, and that I appreciate everything shes ever done for me.
Becky- that shes stronger than I think she knows...and that I dont know what I would have done had she not always been there when I needed her..that shes a wonderful person, and to always stand up for what she believes in no matter what
Allison- that shes unbelievable..she has so many talents and I know she can do anything she wants...and that Ive never met someone with such a big heart...and that I dont know what I ever would have done without her
Jeff- that hes the best son a mother could ask for..lol
GOSH ALL THIS TALK..makes me sad ;[ I love all you guys!!!
What makes you you? my friends and family make me who I am..but I guess my sense of humor and my personality..and..uh my rapping abilities definitely :]
have yOu..
x. Fallen for your best friend - uh
x. Been rejected - yah here ant there
x. Been in love - yes
x. Been cheated on - yes
x. Done something you regret - a few times
the last person..
x. You touched - uh ashley..in a friendly fashion
x. You talked to - amanda
x. You instant messaged - ashley
x. You yelled at - danny
x. You laughed with - ashley
x. you had a crush on - bruno
x. Who broke your heart - uh a couple folks
Do you..
x. Floss daily - no..but I brush.
Have you/do you/do you have..
x. Considered being a pimp - consideration came and went. I am a pimp.
x. Think you are psycho -uh yah
x. Split personalities - depends on which of us youre asking
x. Obsessive - yes
x. Obsessive compulsive - id say so
x. Panic - definitely
x. Anxiety - yah
x. Depressed - not so much
x. Suicidal - nah
x. Obsessed with hate - uh
x. If you could be anywhere, where would you be - sleeping in the sun :]
x. What are you listening to - New blue champion-everclear
x. Can you do anything freakish with your body - uuuuuummmm. I dont know. I have a lucky ear
x. Chicken or fish - chicken
x. Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be - yah kitties and puppies and koalas :]
x. Current Clothes - grey fuzzy pants and a black tank top
x. Current Mood - sad and tired :/
x. Current Music - ^
x. Current Taste - chocolate milk :|
x. Current Hair - down and messyy!
x. Current Annoyance - parents and..a couple other top secret things
x. Current Smell - candies
x. Current thing I ought to be doing - sleeppping
x. Current Desktop Picture - two stick figures in black and white..one with a paper heart in its hand trying to hand it to the other..and it says.. "take it.......please?" :[
x. Current Favorite Group - Incubus..classic..well and maroon 5
x. Current Book - im not reading anything onw
x. Current DVD In Player - uhh shit I dono
x. Current Refreshment - nothin now
x. Current Worry - ...sigh
x. Current Crush - :/
x. Current Favorite Celebrity - uh
Favorite..
x. Drink - mountain dew..coke..orange juice..not together :|
x. Color - pink and blue
x. Shoes - shoe-less
x. Candy - eh warheads
x. TV Show - MTV anything
x. Movie - 50 first dates..the Passion of Christ..Dirty Dancing..Love adn Basketball..etc
x. Dance- hokie pokie :]
x. Music - rap and rock
Are you..
x. Understanding - i try
x. Open-minded - i try that too
x. Insecure - who isn't?
x. Interesting - yah..like a pimp
x. Hungry - nah
x. Friendly - yah..to most people
x. Smart - I work on it
x. Moody - very.
x. Childish - when I want
x. Independent - yah
x. Hard working - i guess
x. Organized - AHAHAHA
x. Healthy - ew
x. Emotionally Stable - ...
x. Shy -not usually
x. Difficult - definitely
x. Bored Easily - eh
x. Thirsty - yah
x. Responsible - depends
x. Sad - yah
x. Happy - not really
x. Trusting - yes
x. Talkative - wahaha yes
x. Unique - yah
x. Needy -yah
Who do you want to..
x. Slap - this one girl
x. Be like - myself
x. Talk to offline - this kid
On you..
x. How do you describe yourself - funny..emotional..needy
On friends..
x. Best Friend(s) - so many
x. Friend(s) you go to for advice - allison..amanda..becky
x. Friend(s) you have the most fun with - allison..jeff..amanda..becky..dan
x. Friend(s) you've dreamt about - all of my friends
On preferences..
x. Chocolate milk or hot chocolate - chocolate milkx.
McDonalds or Burger King - Burger King
x. Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend - friend
x. Sweet or sour - sour
x. Root Beer or Dr. Pepper - neither ever
x. Sappy/action/comedy/horror - comedy and sappy
x. Cats or dogs - I cant decide :|
x. Ocean or Pool - ocean except ive never been there
x. Cooler Ranch or Nacho Cheesier - cheesier
x. With or without ice-cubes -w/ ice
x. Shine or rain - shine and rain?
x. Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring - summer <3
x. Vanilla or Chocolate - Vanilla
x. Snowboarding or skiing - neither, I suck
x. Cake or cookies - cookies
x. Cereal or toast - cereal
x. Gloves or mittens - mittens
x. Eyes open or closed - both
x. Fly or breathe under water - fly
x. Bunk bed or water bed - bunk bed
x. Chewing gum or hard candy - gum
x. Motor boat or sailboat - motorboat
x. Lights on or off - off
What's your favorite..
x. Number - 5
x. Holiday - Christmas ..birthday :]
x. Radio station - 89.7
x. Place - my room
x. Flower - white roses
x. Scent - candies..lucky..love spell..etc
[`Name] Shauna bo banna
[`Nicknames] uh..Sha Sha..Sissy..Captain
[`Birthday] Feb 18th
[`Age] 17..like a pimp
[`Astrological sign?] Aquarius
[`Chinese zodiac sign?] ..rabbit...rufff :/
[`Location] IA
[`Sexual Preference] boys
[`Marital Status] single...I wish it could be contagious.
[`Religion] in between
[`Current Hair color/length] brown, dark brown, dark blonde..medium length
[`Eye color... W/ & W/O contacts] Hazel
[`Height] 5'9...ish
[`Parents still together?] Nope.
[`Siblings? ] brother and sister
[`Nieces/Nephews? ] 1 neice, 3 nephews. wow.
[`Kids of your own? ] jeff
[`Grandkids? ] not yet thank god
[`Pets?] 4 dogs, 2 cats
[`In school/graduated? ] Junior in HS
[`Rent, lease, or own your home? ] uh..
[`What do you do for work? ] at the good life
[`How much do you make? ] enough but not too much
[`Have any credit cards? ] no
[`What do you drive? ] the ole pt
Preferences
Favorites
[`Color] pink
[`Number ] 5
[`Animal ] puppies and kitties :]
[`Vehicle ] an escalade..like a pimp
[`Flower ] white rose
[`Scent ] vanilla
[`Shape ] uh..no preferences i guess..lol wtf
[`Drinks ] orange juice is good :]
[`Soda ] mountain dew or coke
[`Book ] uh Tallahasse higgins all the way
[`Band ] Incubus
[`Song ] fell in love with a boy- joss stone..lost cause-beck, last train home-lost prophets..i am the highway-audioslave Do you...
[`Color your hair? ] yes
[`Twirl your hair? ] ..fuck i dono
[`Have tattoos? ] no
[`Piercings? ] my ears
[`Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? ] no
[`Cheat on tests/homework? ] not lately
[`Have a crush ] yah ;[
[`Drink/Smoke? ] not lately
[`Like roller coasters? ] not so much
[`Wish you could live somewhere else? ] somedays
[`Want more piercings? ] yah my cartlige
[`Like cleaning? ] UGH NO
[`Write in cursive or print? ] a little of both i guess
[`Carry a donor card? ] uh...no?
[`Swear a lot? ] yes
[`Own a web cam? ] not at all
[`Know how to drive? ] yes
[`Own a cell phone? ] ive had bad luck with the past two ;[
[`Ever get off the damn computer? ] rarely
[`Hablar Espanol? ] uh si
Have you ever...
[`Gotten a speeding ticket?] no :]
[`DUI? ] no
[`Been in a wreck? ] no
[`Been arrested? ] ..not lately
[`Been in a fist fight? ] eh kinda
[`Kicked someone in the nuts? ] once my brother :| and i got in SO much trouble
[`Stolen a car? ] wtf
[`Stolen anything? ] uh who hasnt
[`Held a gun? ] nah
[`Smoked? ] yah.
[`Crack? ] uh no..
[`Drink? ] yah ..well not lately for serious though
[`Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name? ] thats not realistic at all
[`Considered a life of crime? ] uh yah just fuckin like bonnie and clyde?
[`Considered being a hooker? ] ew
[`Been married? ] no..NO ONE SHOULD BE MARRIED THIS YOUNG
[`Cried over a girl? ] no, well not in that sense
[`Cried over a boy? ] yes
[`Lied to someone? ] yesss
[`Been in love? ] yes
[`Had sex outdoors? ] nope..im virginal
[`Fallen for your best friend? ] more like fallen for someone then became best friends
[`Been rejected? ] yah
[`Been in lust? ] probably
[`Been cheated on? ] yes
[`Been kissed? ] yes
Emotional concerns are being activated in your life. This can be important, for you don't always go out of your way to do the emotional processing that you should be doing. You are so comfortable within you mind, you tend to discount feelings. You're not going to get away with this kind of thinking now. Evaluate your current condition from the standpoint of how it makes you feel.
YAH. Hm.
The good news is me and ashley and becky have become crimestoppers. Were working on a case now, but I wont say too much- for the safety of innocent bistandards, etc. That whole schpeel.
Safety first. All you need to know is we have everything under control.
lol ;x
uh anyway. Im sure tomorrow will be a WONDERFUL day :/
I think Im seriously going to say something. I dont know if I should, but I feel like Im going to. So..whatever.
Gay- "there are no other fish in the sea"
well, then I guess you got the bad end of the deal. It must suck pretty bad being practically married at this age.
I went to burger king to get breakfast today in my pajamas :|
that made me happy :/
anyway..it was an okay day..went to do some shit at the bank..then I got the Joss Stone cd..btw everyone needs to hear her..amazing.
Anyway, then I went to work from 4-8 which was reallllllllllly boring. After work me and Danny got chinese..then I went to Angelas for awhile. Maaaaan..she invited me to go with her and Lauren and Pat to Des Moines tomorrow and stay the night but I have to work..and my parents wouldnt let me..and more importantly I have plans with Allison already. So its cool!
ugh...I have to get up at 7 tomorrow..because I have to work from 8:45-5:00.............uuuuuuuuuggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh lol.
Nothing worse than getting up early.
I feel so bad for Amanda, she moved today :/ Not far or anything but shes lived in that house forever. I know how that feels. Guh :[
My poor sissy
anyway..Im reallllly tired..and as of now I can only get up to 6 and a half hours of sleep which isnt bad but Im already tired :[
..god I havent talked to Bruno for like 3 days..which is just weird...blah.......
Fell in love with a boy
I fell in love once and almost completely
He's in love with the world
And sometimes these feelings can be so misleading
He turns and says, "Are you alright?"
Oh, I must be fine cause my heart's still beating
Come and kiss me by the riverside,
Sarah says it's cool, she don't consider it cheating
Red hair with a curl
Mellow roll for the flavor and the eyes were peepin
Can't keep away from the boy
The two sides of my brain need to have a meeting
Can't think of anything to do
My left brain knows all of love is fleeting
He's just lookin for somethin new
I said it once before but it bears repeating
Can't think of anything to do
My left brain knows all of love is fleeting
He's just lookin for somethin new
I said it once before but it bears repeating
Fell in love with a boy
I fell in love once and almost completely
He's in love with the world and sometimes these feelings can be so misleading
He turns and says, "Are you alright?"
Oh, I must be fine cause my heart's still beating
Come and kiss me by the riverside
Sarah says it's cool, she don't consider it cheating, oh
Don't go telling all my
Don't go telling all my
Don't go telling all my lies on Sarah
Don't go telling all my
Don't go telling all my
Don't go telling all my lies on Sarah
Can't think of anything to do
My left brain knows all of love is fleeting
He's just looking for something new
I said it once before but it bears repeating
Gonna tell you what's on my mind
I'm gonna tell you what's on my mind
Cause it bears repeating
It was so nice outside today. I liked it a lot :]
Well, me, Allison, Amanda, and Jeff went to see The Passion of Christ tonight. It was incredible. My eyes were swollen from crying so much...at one point I had to catch my breath. After it ended no one in the theatre really said anything...and we just sat there for a long while. Until after the credits..then I decided to get up. Then after I dropped Amanda off I shut off the radio, which is very unusual..I never drive without the radio on. That movie was just so moving. Intense. It just really made me think about everything..
Wow.
Anyway, I guess I have to work tomorrow night. :/
I also work 8:45 Saturday...and I guarantee Im not looking forward to that. Im not so sure how theyre going to handle this weeked being as how were very under staffed.
Felicia is in the process of hiring new people...not fun at allllll
Me and Ashley are both getting like 25 hours right now..its insane.
Oh wow!
Joel was at the movie theatre tonight..he came up and talked to us a bit..and invited Allison to hang out with him tomorrow- how awesome is that!? They used to be pretty close I guess, but after Joel quit band and Allison stopped hanging around with all those other people I guess they just stopped talking. But, Im happy he wants to hang out with her...itll be fun for both of them.
Amanda and Becky are both going to Morningside tomorrow..and Beths at U of I right now I think. Jeesh, this year seems like its going by fast.
Hm. I have so much to say about the Bruno matter...I just dont know where to start. With my luck hell read this..oh well.
I just..havent felt this way before... Hes the best guy.
Speaking of which..is it illegal to hang out with someone who is practically married..without their spouse? See- Id love to say its not..but for example- if I invited Jeff to hang out with just me...Amanda would be angry. So..how do you approach that. "Hey..lets hang out without your girlfriend."
Why does he have to be so great..
the good news is Im going to bed now..and I have every intention of sleeping in. That makes me happy :]
blaaaaahh
its been an interesting weekend...uh if anyone actually reads this..GO SEE 50 FIRST DATES. Right away. Go..now..dont even continue reading just leave.
Anywayyyyyy..I was gonna go to bed early tonight but its already 9:00 and I still have to take a shower and get ready for tomorrow and blah blah blahhhhh
Guh and Im waiting to talk to someone...should be intersting if they ever get online.
Duh I was just on the phone w/ amanda and shes like OH HANG ON ITS STEPHANIE...lmfao her admissions counseler..she was so excited. wahahahahaaha.
SO now theres nothin to do..and Im bored..Ive probably played solitaire 30 times since Ive been home.
hmmm
I went shopping on saturday :/ yayyyyy
OH AND jazz band got second place..made it to IJC..and the little kids got 4th place..niceee.
im t-i-r-e-d
GuUuUUUUH I have to get up early tomorrow and take Danny to work...at like 6:10 or some shit like that..
good news...corp won...2nd time in a row- not bad.
jazz band..eh. better next time
bad newssss
i like someone i shouldnt
but hes so great :[
I saw your face in the crowd
I called out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could be what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest girl
If I was invisible
Wait..I already am
im tired.
not much went on today..or yesterday. Nothing has really happened since the night at the bowling alley..
it was a good time..i made friends with some people at the table next to us...asked this hot guy for his number.
I still havent called him. Maybe Ill do that tomorrow.
Actually, Im tomorrow..which is good..I need something to do. I think Im going to lunch w/ Ashley..we had a raincheck on some chinese.
Then me and Becky are gonna go shopping..I dont know if I should get my nails done..or buy some jeans..or pay a little for these doc martens im tryin to get. God..it sucks not having a bunch of money..if only I didnt spend it so fast.
Anyway..sounds like me, ash, peachtree, and becky..and whoever else..might hang out tomorrow night..watch a little jamie fox..that kinda thing.
I have no idea what im doing new years eve. I was gonna ask some folks to come here but I think everyone but me ha s already got plans. My parents will probably make me stay home...
"drunk drivers will be everywhere"
they told me that bullshit back when i was like in 5th grade..I wanted to spend the night at Jamies grandmas..and they wouldnt let me. Its not like we were gonna be taking the fucking car for a spin.
Anyway..now theyd probably be worried about me getting wasted. No trust at all these days..whats the world coming to.
welp..im planning on getting up in like 9 hours...
so i think ill get to bed..I need allt he sleep I can get :/
hey to everyone who..doesnt..read this. lol. its okay, I know you guys still care and read this <3 youre just shy..right..? :/
ANYWAY!!! Lifes exciting. I havent been up to much..been hangin out w/ becky..allison..ashley..and peachtree here lately.
Me and Becky were hangin out w/ Angela the other night..lol I got in a shit load of trouble..because my step dad was fuckin stalking me.
that was a guy ass night.
Anyway..Im getting used to it.
Ashley M. invited me to go to a party w/ her..ashleys goin..that would be fun, but I obviously said no.
Some other people from sears..good life great price..asked me to go bowlin tonight but daniel said no..which didnt bug me too much bc im worn outttt
ive worked almost 40 hours this wk..fun
well enough of this!
well I just thought Id type up a little something..for my own amusement obviously
..yah sooooooo its almost christmas.
I started shopping today..fun.
And of course people were psychotic a lot at work..people just get a little crazy around christmas time..so its basically just like 53820923 insane people shopping at the mall...its interesting..at least
..no ones online..and im so not tired..I wanted to hang out w/ Angela and or Dale tonight but they all went to the movies to see lord of the rings..for probably the 3209 time..and that was at like..8 or somethin..so i dont even know if their out yet..ohhh well
tomorrow should be fun...well hopefully at least..I get off late of course but im gonna do somethin after work..
guh I feel bad..erin was having a little get together thing last night and I couldnt go :/
school got out early
I was SO pissed when I woke up..I was expecting it to be snowing..and it wasnt so I actually had to get up.. :[
anyway..we went and got chinese during lunch and came back and ate it in the choir room..then I left and almost fucking died..this was the first time ive driven in snow..and i did like 20-30 all the way home...and like i skidded on the bridge..so i hopped out of the car and got on my hands and knees and praid..
but...not really..i did think i was going to die though.
anyway..i have to work..unless the mall closes..jesusssssss
...freaking out..
for those of you not in band this is going to be the gayest thing youve ever heard..
but a pad is coming off of my clarient..and I have a concert in about 3 hours.........
my aunts in crescent and I dont know when shell be home....
and i think her clarinet is in need of some work too so uh...yah
...talk about screwed.
welp..
just got back from the movies w/ becky and jig...it was a great time..we peoples..lol
funny story i lost my check card..but my step dad found it..and i was so excited that i didnt realize that its been so long since ive used it that i forgot my pin number...
lol so we were at the atm guessing combinations of numbers..and obviously nothing worked...so i tried again at the movie theatre...no luck..so allison and becky, being the good friends they are, paid for me..and as soon as i got home i remember exactly what it is..guhhhhhh
anyway, nicks not talking to me..suprise suprise. he has himself though, thats all he really needs. he loves himself enough for all of us.
theres other bullshit goin on, theres always somethin goin on..but what can you do.
I remember when you filled my heart with joy
Was I blind to the truth just there to fill the space
Cause now you have no interest in anything I have to say
And I have allowed you to make me feel dumb
What kind of fool am I that you so easily set me aside
You made a fool of me
Tell me why
You say that you don't care but we made love
Tell me why
You made a fool of me you made a fool of me
I want to kiss you
Does she want you with the pain that I do
I smell you in my dreams
But now when we're face to face you won't look me in the eye
No time no friendship no love
Don't say don't touch you I can't touch you no more
Can't touch you any more any more
I don't touch you anymore
You made a fool of me
Tell me why
You say that you don't care but we made love
Tell me why
You made a fool of me you made a fool of me
well well well..its been an interesting day
I woke up late :] and uh..Im not feelin too well..but it could be worse.
lol first hour I thought I was going to die from the sniffles. Its possible :/
anyway...the rest of the day was pretty fun..except home and car care..good god..lol...after the whole hour (in all we spent like 3 hours on it) we got our light..wires..thing..up and runnning. Thats a bullshit class if you want my opinion.
Anyway...at lunch I talked to everyone (except amanda obviously) we called the other night..they all laughed..except justin really..he took it too seriously I think..hes all like..yah I couldnt figure out what the hell you wanted..and etc..but i think everyone else appreciated it..rightfully so.
Hm. WOW interesting story.. that kid is back in town..lol...awkwarddd...
yah uh really..awkward..for that matter.
Life sucks, then you die.
HM so yah I got a little pissed off today, I wont lie. Daniel had my car today..my mom works Sunday nights so she has to take the truck (she doesnt work monday-thursday) so I have to fnid another ride to school..and my step dad takes my car...and he doesnt get home till 5 ish and my mom sleeps till like 6...so basically I dont have a ride home...and there was jazz band so they were all busy..and I talked to danny and he told me I could take the car...so i assumed he dropped it off at the hs bc sometimes if my moms up they do bring me the car..but i got out there and it wasnt there..so I had to go to the bus place and get it...and crystal, kelly, and kevin always stand outside and talk...and being as how the bus barn is like a whole .75 miles probably from the school I figured one of them would be kind enough to give me a ride over there..but I asked and theyre just like..no. lol so I was pissed off because I would have done it for any one of them..and I think they knwe I was mad because as I was walking away Kevin goes..well, shauna I mean I guess if you REALLY need a ride I can take you..and Im like no thats fine...and luckily zach y. was walking out to his car..and I explained to him my situation and hes like sure no problem, anytime. GUH he barely even knows me! lol..thank god for nice people..not that it was a huge deal..but I mean youre supposed to do simple favors for your friends every now and then..blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
anyway..I dont feel good at all :/
im gonna go do homework..and try not to fall asleep cuz ashleys coming over to pick somethin up..and I have to pick danny up in like an hour...guh!
How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle
You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to fuckin' tread the ground I'm walking on
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to a word I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control
Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold
hm
another life altering weekend. Not really. I worked 2-10 yesterday..but that wasnt bad at all beause peachtree, becky, and ashley spent the night..it was so fun..lol..were all going to start hanging out together more often. lmao "doo doooo do do do do....sorry Im just playin a little mario brothers" lmaooo mwahhahahahahahaa..anyway
all four of us slept on my bed..plus my kitty :] it was complicated but funny...guh we all had to work today..lol poor nicole she had to be there at 9...so she got like 2-3 hours of sleep then had to get ready :/ ..and becky left at 9:30 and me and ashley did my hair then she left to go to the cricket place because lmao we spilt orange juice in her phone. I think the pulps what did it..lmao
I think we all got sore throats because I left my fan on..and like I think I have the flu..everyone else said they think they do too..all I know is that Dannys sick so I wouldnt be suprised if everyone got it from me..but what the hell can you do..everyones sick..its pathetic..my manager at work can barely talk..blehhh
lmfao last night peachtree was tellin me about how her dad downloaded 50 cent..in the club because he thought it only cost him .50 to get it put on his phone..lmao. and if you know anything about her dad...youll laugh.
well shit im BEATTT so im off to bed..I had a long fuckin day..2-10..and this lady pissed me off so bad- but ill elaborate on that some other time
night :]
Almost made you love me
Almost made you cry
Almost made you happy, babe
Didn't I didn't I
You almost had me thinkin'
You were turned around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't count
Almost heard you saying
You were finally free
What was always missing for you, babe
You'd found it in me
But you can't get to heaven
Half off the ground
Everbody knows
Almost doesn't count
I can't keep on lovin' you
One foot outside the door
I hear a funny hesitation
Of a heart that's never really sure
Can't keep on tryin'
If you're looking for more
Than all that I could give you
Than what you came here for
Gonna find me somebody
Not afraid to let go
Want a no doubt be there kind of man
You came real close
But every time you built me up
You only let me down
And everybody knows
Almost doesn't count
Maybe you'll be sorry
Maybe you'll be cold
Maybe you'll come runnin' back, babe
From the cruel cruel world
Almost convinced me
You're gonna stick around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't count
So maybe I'll be here
Maybe I'll se you around
That's the way it goes
Almost doesn't count
Interesting how just awhile ago I had NO time what-so-ever to get online yet alone post anything in here..and now I have nothing better to do.
I talked to Nicole for a long time tonight. I was impressed..our whole conversation wasnt about Mark. Usually we both go off on a few tangents and then we find some way to complain about mark and conclude that he ruined our lives and is the source of all of our problems. :]
Turns out hes doing some pretty crazy shit these days..such as a variety of drugs. Supposedly he lost a lot of weight (not that he needed to at all) and looks like shit.
He never really was full of suprises.
Its been almost 2 years since Mark and I went out and probably 8-12 months since Ive talked to him.
Me and Nicole went on a search for him a couple months ago..good times. Actually it was pretty creepy..humorous nontheless.
Anyway..feelin pretty down about you know who right now. Or maybe you dont know who, and in that case you probably dont need to know who. Well call him Bob, for the sake of my safety.
I miss him. Honestly. And it sucks that I do because hes not worth it. Actually I do sadly believe he is..but then again who is to say whats right and whats wrong. I just wish things wouldve turned out differently, because I seriously have never felt like such an idiot. I wont lie, its respectable that he left me alone because my parents asked him to...but in this circumstance any excuse is a bad one. There is no possible excuse for the way he treated me..after I confided in him and trusted him..trusted that he wouldnt lie to me or use me..and etc. But, he partially explained himself to me and I do respect that as well. See, I knew from the start that things wouldnt be perfect and like I told him, my main problem has been accepting the fact that you cant change people..or how they feel. I cant make him have feelings for me. So anyway, I guess its a good thing that he moved. Even if he really didnt move and is still here its not like Ill ever know. So either way ..hes gone...
.....
SO
what else can I complain about :/
I talked to Jamie last night! I dont think Ive mentioned that, and if I have- though shit, Im going to mention it a little more!
Shes.. 9 months pregnant. Thats pretty interesting..I think Im in denial. Its kind of weird when youre best friend of like 9 years is about to have a baby of her own. See, we met in 2nd grade at recess...and I was the new kid..she invited me to play house or some corny shit like that...and I was always the mom..she never wanted to be the mom. And after we got older we would ride our bikes to that school..lol..and have picnics and stuff..and talk about how our kids would go to school together. We went there before I moved..and like vowed that no matter what Id come back and when we were old enough to have kids they would grow up together and be best friends like us. lol we were such losers..but honestly theres no doubt in my mind that either of us didnt mean all of that. Guh, that girl is my heart..weve been through so much shit together..things just went downhill after I moved though.. we talk once in a great while..Ive been busy and I imagine she has been too..with school..and everything else. I just wish I could help her somehow..the thing I guess that sucks the most is that I wont be there when my best friend has her child. Thats kind of weird..when i was little, granted this is pretty dumb, but I thought wed both be pregnant at the same time and eat pickles and ice cream together (you should try it)...but then again I also thought that wed have a huge mansion and her husband and kids would have one half and my family would have the other.
Hmm..
speaking of best friends I havent really talked to Amanda much either. Just the other day when she told me she talked to Nick.
She told me shed call me..like 2 days in a row and I havent heard from her.
And Andrea..havent talked to her forever either. Whenever we talk though she just tells me about her boyfriend..nothing wrong with that of course because thats what Im here for..but she doesnt even seem happy when I call her ever. Thats a big thing to deal with...when i moved here my uncle was like..."hey you make friends wherever you go..anywhere you go youll even have best friends. But you know what happened to my best friend from high school? Me either..havent talked to him in years." So you can imagine how I reacted, having just left the 3 people I was closest to in the whole world..I flipped out and told him he was wrong..and at first he was..but now we seriously do rarely talk and we dont really know each other anymore..well me and Amanda are still pretty close..she came up here in the summer..and were both pretty much a couple years older
Anyway...Ive been typing for a long time..Im tired :|
Goodmorning
I suddenly feel very sorry for myslef..lol..every other year we dont "do" Thanksgiving..because like I said..my mom is a nurse.. she has to work..and well me and Danny couldve done something or I couldve gone to one of my friend's house but..its just not the same without my mom..sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo im going to sit at home all day. blah
happy thanksgivng!@$@
WOW. Another exciting night at home.
I wanted to go hang out w/ Beth or Allison or someone..but my parents think I need to rest at home. Oh well..
SO I got online thinking millions of people would be online..but Im like the only one...bleh..
Today was so slow..I barely slept last night so I slept through Spanish again today :] guh I wish we could have naps daily..works wonders.
hmm..
so....Oh, well..tomorrow should be extremely boring..were not having a Thanksgiving because my mom has to work..sad story, huh.
Jesus..I just listened to my parents bitch for half an hour because they cpouldnt get our phone cord to work..
I guess that advanced technology is really getting to them..
hm, gtg!
well hi.
Like I said yesterday, Im going to try and post more often.
Lets see, what happened today.
Nothing memorable obviously. Well, actually..government was pretty entertaining, Mr. Drake is hilarious. Guhhh speaking of school..I have music theory first hour.. which not only sucks because I HAVE to be there on time or Ill get a huge lecture in front of a bunch of people I know..but also because those people are really quiet. Except Britney of course. I dono hopefully people will get a little more..loud..so I dont feel like an idiot..
anyway I should go because im on my moms computer and shell kill me if she finds out :]
wow as usual...its been a long time..a lot has been going on..the new trimester began last week..fun.
I went to an honor band in South Dakota a couple of weeks ago, and All state this past weekend. Good times..
I guess I should be doing the rest of my homework now- funny story..im actually going to do my homework from now on- at home. Wish me luck on that.
Well I bitched a certain someone out last night..then today I found out that theyre moving...tomorrow...thousands of miles away..now you tell me, dont I have wonderful luck? I cried for like 2 hours..Im such a fucking baby its amazing.
Anyway..I got a new kitty
her name is Wrinkles..she was in the play..and Molly couldnt keep her, as a matter of fact she just got her because she needed the prop..nice story huh.
Well..my mom should be home any minute-were going to my aunts concert..
i wonder if anyone ever checks up on this anymore
i know i wouldnt, since i never post anything and all.
i just feel like crap right now
i think i have bad kharma.
yep.
or maybe its just alltogether bad luck.
incase you guys havent caught on its one of those nights you just feel sorry for yourself.
its been a good night though..good day as a matter of fact..drove back and forth between the schools w/ jig like 5 times...that was fun..did a little marchin at state..not bad...went shopping with jeff, becky, and allison..that was fun..we saw lauren and dani..i looooove them! then we went to perkens...listened to chicago music in the parking lot..lol..and me, becky, and allison were going to go to the movies but we didnt see anything that looked too great..and jig didnt feel well so we took her home..then me and becky drove around for awhile...stopped at wal mart and raided the aisles for something exciting. it was thrilling :/ we ended up with a couple candy neclaces, some circus peanuts, mints, life savers, bubble gum, etc. Then we drove around some more and basically vented for a long time.
And now Im home. With nothing to think of except how sorry I feel for myself. lol..thats me for ya.
i guuhhhhh..i just cant stop thinking about him, and shoot me- yes youre right I DO break the rules for myself. Does it make you feel better that I admit that? Because if you throw the rules back in I still feel exactly the same. And Im still a stupid girl with hurt feelings :/ Either way..no one wins..so
forget you and your stupid note that made me feel like shit- because I cant help the way I feel. And neither can anyone else.
and call me overly emotional..im getting used to it.
update..hmm
life sucks :]
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amandas going to be here in less than 24 hours. Im so giddy! I havent seen her in 2 years..2 whole years! My best friend! 2 years! gah.
amanda[10:20 PM]: omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shaunaaaaa [10:20 PM]: yesss maam
amanda [10:20 PM]: this isnt happenin
Shaunaaaaa [10:20 PM]: what!
Shaunaaaaa [10:21 PM]: ?!?!
Shaunaaaaa [10:21 PM]: @@*35(%*#0
Shaunaaaaa [10:21 PM]: is something wrong?
amanda [10:21 PM]: nooooooooooooo
amanda [10:21 PM]: im sayin i cant believe this is happenin
Shaunaaaaa [10:21 PM]: lmao
Shaunaaaaa [10:21 PM]: oh i know!!!!!!!
Shaunaaaaa [10:21 PM]: 14-16 hours my friend
Shaunaaaaa [10:22 PM]: im so excited im not going to be able to sleep..lol
well hi!
Got up early and danny showed me how to get to some places me and amanda are going. so, im tired. Im making my mom go to the movies with me :] ahahhaa itlll be exciting
i love this song, november rain by guns n roses. its so pretty :]
man...i wanted my sis to go with us by my parents are all freakin out bc she prolly couldnt get anyone to watch the kids so they told me not to ask. ;[ but oh well
i saw dale weedwacking earlier...lol
me and jr saw him earlier when we were moving still..he like works for the golf course...hes prolly on like the maintenance crew or something..eh
welp were gonna be leavin soon..adios
sooo!
woke up early and went to breakfast with my EAST COAST-WEST COAST crew= my parents.
good story..hm? Now only if it were true. Wouldnt it be nice to be able to get up and have a nice day with the family.
Me and my mom got up at 9 and were ready by 10 and danny was pissed off because we werent up at fucking dawn milking the cows and trimming the crops. If you can trim crops. lol but really we got in a fight..then everything was cool and we had a bunch of fun. I love my parents. Even if they are crazy.
Pam called at like 12:30..I was supposed to be at her house for a lesson :x
I completely forgot..actually I thought that we werent having one bc her friend cj is in town..but I went..and she wasnt really mad..we laughed most of the time so that was excitinggg.
Went and did some errands..then came home..I havent really done much. I talked to Lauren forever..she was upset that I didnt go to the drumcore thing..lol shes like our tickets were right by e/o.. i fellt bad..i so forgot about that. I need some gynsync..er whatever.. lol
GOD i cant wait for saturday..Im so antsy :]
god i need darker foundation..im almost black.
lol..
well theres obviously not a lot left to say. adios.
Happy Wednesday!
Just got the nails done...and did a little shoppin. Im all pimped out now, as they would say. ;x ahahha jp. Audra's bday is like...in 3 days. I started gettin her a little bit of stuff today..ill prolly finish that tomorrow..then im not spendin anymore money.
oh god danny just came in the house so hell probably make me get off the computer..
I was up until 7 this morning cleaning. Got up at 12..Im so wide awake.
I talked to Amanda for awhile on the phone last night. There were some people at her house..and you can only imagine. lmfao she was..a little..out of it...she kept sayin damn fool....what are you doin fool...and she tried to say somtehin and shes like damn. I done fucked that sentence up. lol it was hilarious.
Then Adams like who you talkin to?? and she told him and hes like ohh let me holla at shauna..lmao..and hes like SHAUNA!!!!!! and im like hey..who is this? and he couldnt figure out what I was sayin so finally i figured it out..bc hes like SHAUNA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH COME HOME..and im like laughin and hes like im not playin i do miss you..i have a picture of me and you hangin up in my room from fifth grade..yahta yahta..he might come up here when they pick amanda up..lmao that will be so wild..seriously..I mean COMPLETELY crazy...but not too crazy bc band camp starts the next day. Damn I miss that kid..I used to be all in love with him..in the 5th grade..lmao we exchanged number in mr alsups room..and he called me that night at like 8..and danny told him i couldnt talk after 8..so he kept calling back and finally he was like CAN I PLEASE TALK TO SHAUNA ITS ABOUT OUR SCIENCE HOMEWORK..so danny let us talk..and we talked for a long time..it was fun..then when me and amanda became best friends..they also became best friends and like 7th and 8th grade I hate him so bad...then we hung out a little..and he liked jamie for awhile..then some other stuff..yahta yahta..and uh thats the story.
sooo hm. Im bored. I have to go get my 23038 pictures developed and wash my car.
and right now dannys bitching so ill post more later if i feell like it.
peacce sucka
almsot put fucka
;x
Evening :]
I just talked to Andrea...my calling card supposedly had 44 mins on it but it lasted a good 25 mins..ghetto pos. Me and Danny talked from 3-6:30 this morning..lmao right when i got off the phone danny got up. It was perfect timing. I got up at 1..and have been cleaning since. OH wait.
I was going to talk about the conversation with andrea. She automatically thought that I was like calling to find something out..which was kind of eh..dono. Most of our brief conversation was about her boyfriend..and when I started talking about something else..I was like..uh hello? and shes like OH im sorry i was just thinking about...well her bf is going into the marines next year..and she said she was thinkign about that..which we had already talked about...so she talked about how upset she was about that...and I mean dont get me wrong, my job is to be there for her..and I try to be there for her..I listen..but when she goes around telling people basically that she doesnt consider me a best friend anymore..and that we dont know each other...then doesnt want to talk about anything but her boyfriend EVERYTIME we talk...that doesnt solve anything. I am happy for her..but she has always put her at the time boyfriend before her friends. I dont even think she realizes it. We got in a HUGE fight about a month before I left because one day we were supposed to hang out...do something like..I dono we were trying to make as many memories as possible before I left..but at the same time her boyfriend was moving..to another town..15 minutes away. I was moving 15 hours away. (if you drove slowly? :/ ) anyway...I called her all day waiting for her..my parents waiting to pick her up..and she was cleaning. Then she had to take a shower. Then her mom said she didnt know if she could go. Then she had some things to do. Then! I talked to her boyfriend, who at the time was one of my best friends...and he told me to leave her alone because she was going to hang out with him. Shit like that, I dont have tolerance for. Shes hurting herself..hurting her family..her friends for this guy that..I mean..I wont get too into her business over this thing but...jesus.
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nothing else to say about that.
Im so bored..I should be cleaning..I have piles and piles of clothes on our kitchen floor.. ;x ...and shit all over in my room, im rearranging and stuff for when amanda gets here. Which is in 5 days!!!! I talked to her on the phone for awhile this afternoon..she was baby sittin her baby cousin maci..that little girl is so cute, shes really pretty. And from what Amanda and Jeri have said shes really really good..but while we were on the phone she flipped out, and omg Ive never heard ANYTHING scream that loud. lol it was sad ;[ .. DEWD I was talkin to my parents..and me and Amanda might get to take Rachel to Funplex. Aww danny went to my sisters this morning and rachel was outside swimming (shes ALWAYS playing outside) and shes like papa you have your swimmin suit on? and she like invited him to go swimming..lmao and dannys like no I have to go home and get mine..and shes like oh..shauna have a swimmin suit too? lol aawwww..shes so adorable. I love that little girl to death. I want to start hangin out with her more...so we can be really close when she gets older.. :] if I have enough money and if we still have our sales goin on this wknd im gonna get her a bunch of clothes, omg our kids clothes are so cheap right now..because were clearancing everything...its wild. I think Im going to go get my nails done tomorrow afternoon...OH yah! I get paid tomorrowww yessss! Shit I hope its what Im expecting it to be..because..gah..just because I said so..money goes so quickly :/ its unbelieavable.
Im listenin to this song by Brian Mcknight..its so cuteee..hes such an awesome singer.
LMAO..we went to chinese today and like my parents are so hilarious..lol omfg..danny wanted me to move so he could go pay the bill..(we were in a booth obviously) and I wouldnt move bc he called me crisco..so we sat there for like 15 mins bc he wouldnt apologize..lmfao and then I like spilled my coke everywhere and my mom screamed..rofl it was SO SO SO funny..so we jumped up and left...it was great.
I have a new obsession. Wearing a belt and flip flops that match my shirt. Crazy, hm? I got these cute ass flip flops from vanity the other day..i love them..and then saturday I got these white flip flops with clear straps and lips on them, they would be grrreat for hot lips. Theyre cute. 4$~!! gah. I love shopping. :/
enough.
No ones talking to me online so I think Im gonna roll on outta here and work on my room. Which is going to be super cool. :/
ADIOS!!
sucka
hey hey
dannys talkin to mary on the phone right now ;x amandas going to be here in 6 days..im so freakin excited!!!!!!
omg you know what my favorite song is? my love is like whoa by mya. Its awesome.
DEWD omg im so excited. Dannys gonna let me start goin to Omaha since amandas gonna be here and we so need stuff to do.. we MIGHT go to fun plex..were prolly going to a few movies..were gonna go to west fair..and brenda just gave me a few more ideas..theres the old market..not quite sure if my parents will let us go there..but then theres the zooooo! and were going to get new shirts made if we can find some place..well prolly han gout w/ some ofmy friends..etc.
There gonna be here noon saturday :] :] :]
anywho!
beckys outta town..in missouri. I miss her dog ;[ ole molly mouse. me and mouse have had some good times. were like best friends. lol
holy shit i got tuty fruity popcorn everywhere man
whaaaaaat kind of giirll you likeeeeeeeeeeeee
i love this song. its so awesome..like..the lyrics are cool..but the "beat" is really awesome too..the mya song that is
gah im sleepin in late tomorrow..then i have to clean ;[ ...SHIT i was going to go to the band th ing but..fuck i completely spaced it off..gah..shit i have to call lauren up..! geehs
well i might go do that now
adios
1. A good third of everything i say is out of sarcasm.
2. I think I have asthma
3. I cuss like a sailor ;x
4. I get headaches if I dont have my caffeine.
5. My middle name is Hasia and it means protected by God in Hebrew.
6. I was born at 7 something in the morning.
7. I hate mornings. Im definately not a morning person.
8. I get all excited when I get mail. Snail mail, email you name it I love it.
9. Ive never had braces. I hate the dentist.
10. I love perfumes and lotions.
11. Ive never been kissed on new years.
12. I once ate half a tube of that blue sparkley toothpaste when I was little.
13. I lived in Texas for 7 years.
14. When I was little I was really good at math.
15. My first boyfriend was Jarred Persell. He used to stare at me in class so I asked him bluntly if he had a crush on me. We used to do the little I love you thing in sign language ;x
16. Im bad at charging my cell phone. I also hate pointless voice mails. Except for sometimes.
17. I used to have a bird alarm clock.
18. I check people out- no really. Its my job.
19. I absolutely HATE tofu.
20. People who excessively compliment themselves make me sick.
21. I used to watch Drop Dead Fred constantly with Jamie.
22. Im obsessed with bed head stuff.
23. Ive spent over $600 worth of calling cards in my time.
24. I have approximately 1,534 songs downloaded. Thank God for Kazaa.
25. I love to dance, but I cant. Im white and uncoordinated. All the odds are working against me.
26. I have curly, redish blondeish brownish hair. Its so fake.
27. Im too self concious.
28. But I really could give a shit what you think about me. ha
29. Sometimes I act like a hardass.
30. I hate stereotypes.
31. Sears opens at 9:00 on Saturdays.
32. Im in love with a guy named Neil. But not really. Hes cute though.
33. Im actually in love with a guy that lives like 1000 miles away.
34. I hate people who think they know me and dont.
35. I have ugly feet.
36. Becky and I both have dogs named Molly. My dog is Molly Moose, and Beckys dog is Molly Mouse.
37. I found a bottle of vanilla antibacterial soap at six flags with amanda one day. It reminds me of the good times.
38. I get aggravated when people repeatedly refer to themselves in the third person. Mr. Webb used to do that. *shoots myself*
39. I used to have a strange habbit of grinding my teeth in my sleep. Creepy :/
40. One of the best days ever was my 16th birthday..er and the day after.
41. I met Mark May in personal development class.
42. Ive seen Dirty Dancing way too many times.
43. Im an extreme pack-rat.
44. I cry at a good half of every movie I see.
45. My wedding song is going to be "kissing you" by desiree.
46. Ive wanted color contacts for years. Im getting them soon :x
47. Ive never understood why people pierce their lip..or chin. *cringes*
48. I owe my eye brows to Jamie. Before I moved she forced me to let her pluck them. Praise her.
49. As if you couldnt tell, I pay too much attention to peoples eye brows.
50. I lost a spelling bee once because I couldnt spell avalanche.
51. My freshman year I sold $900 worth of trees and cookie dough for our band fund raiser.
52. The band room is my second home. Sears comes in a close third.
53. Um. Would you like to apply for a Sears card?
54. Im semi afraid of the dark.
55. I love makeup like you wouldnt believe.
56. I have a short temper. :]
57. Chicken Soup for the Soul books rock my socks ;]
58. I have 2 nephews, a niece..and an unknown on the way.
59. The Great Wall and Taco Bell are my favorite places to eat.
60. When I was younger I thought I was born on Valentines day.
61. I have a passion for music.
62. Sometimes when Im nervous I twitch. Not quite sure why.
63. I used to be a hyphochondriac.
64. NEVER accidently give a picture of your crush with goofy things written about him on the back..to your crush. It can ruin your whole day :]
65. I trust people easily, contrare to what Ive said in the past.
66. Im sensitive about people talking shit behind my back.
67. Im sensitive. Period.
68. I hate cleaning my car, although its usually a weekly event.
69. It bothers me seeing people running at the crack of dawn. GO TO SLEEP.
70. I love working out at the gym.
71. I will never touch a drug in my life. The illegal kind, you know what I mean.
72. I saw my first opera with my aunt. Phantom of the Opera. It was absolutely wonderful.
73. I dont know how I ever lived without my liscence.
74. Recently Ive become obsessed with belts. Belts and flip flops. I love it when they match my clothes ;x
75. I hate losing that one hour of sleep for day light savings.
76. "Love is the slowest form of suicide."
77. I trust 4 people with my life.
78. I love Eminem.
79. Ive run 1 red light.. :X
80. I have little tolerance for racism.
81. The glass is always half full.
82. Me, my brother, and my mom lived with my aunt until I was like 5. Shes like a second mom to me.
83. I consider my step dad Danny my dad. Hes been in my life for 12 years now.
84. My Grandparents are wonderful and I regret every day that I dont get to know them even better.
85. A barbie dream boat (the love of my life for a whole year) was given to me in 3rd grade for being such a nice person.
86. That puppy had a BLENDER! and a space for barbie to go swimming!!!! I was infatuated with that boat for so long..and when I got tired of it my brother (....16 at the time...) played with it in our pool.
87. My mom recently gave up smoking. Im so proud of her.
88. I have too much road rage.
89. I hate people who are abusive in relationships. absolutely HATE.
90. Me, Stephanie, and Jamie are mexican man slaves forever.
91. I love pickles.
92. Ive developed a love for the MTV show made. "I wanna be maaaaaaaade."
93. Tom Green is honestly my idol.
94. Ive had AOL for like 7 years.
95. Last summer I babysat 3 kids everyday in a house with no air conditioning. Ive developed such an appreciation for air conditioning.
96. I usually dont say things unless I mean them.
97. Fortune cookies are always right. Except when they talk about money. Those are always flukes.
98. Someone once asked me if Iowa was in Canada.
99. I have a scar on my leg from when I hopped a barb wire fence. Wow.
100. My fathers a bitch.
Last book you read: el libro de espanol
Last movie you saw: um jeez...im not really sure
Last thing you had to drink: mountain dew :] im an addict
Last time you showered: this afternoon
Last thing you ate: cheese stick
Last person you talked to on the phone: on the phone with becky right now..she says..hi to the little folk out there..who have made it possible..for us to live, in the land of make believe. Thats it.
=Do I=
Do drugs? im not sure, do I
Have sex?: not
Give oral sex?: not daily
Receive oral sex?: naw
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: yes
Remember your first love?: lol no i fuckin forgot?
Still love him/her?: yes
Read the newspaper?: occasionally
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: not any that i know of..well a few in tx
Believe in miracles?: yes
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yessir
Consider love a mistake?: absolutely not
Have a favorite candy?: jolly rancher suckas
Believe in astrology?: yes
Believe in magic?:yes
Believe in god?: somedays
Have any pets: a few dogs and a cat
Do well in school?: not usually im too cool for school ;[
Go to or plan to go to college: i hope to go to UT @ austin
Wear hats?: uh, no..i thought about buying the mouse hat at aeropostale that matches my pjs but justin didnt think i should so i decided not to waste my money bc i dont like wearing hats anyway. :/ usually makes me feel like a boy but thats just me
Have any piercings?: yeah
Have any tattoos?: not yet
Hate yourself?: hates such a strong word
Have an obsession?: i guess
Have a secret crush?: not really, mostly everyone knows
Do they know yet?: joe..now ya know
Collect anything?: money :] hook me up
Have a best friend?: a few
Close friends?: yes i do :]
Wish on stars?: uh
Like your handwriting?: sometimes..and me and beckys looks identical when i wrote nice and she writes sloppy- CRAZAY huh
Care about looks?: yes i do
=Love life=
First crush: jarred persell
Single or attached?: never attached
Ever been in love?: yes
Do you believe in love at first sight?: yes
Do you believe in "the one?": sure do, and you better pray its not your family member. lol jp
=Juicy stuff=
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: yes
Have you ever been intoxicated?: no se :]
Favorite place to be kissed?:wha
Shy to make the first move?: depends on who the other person is
=Are you a=
Wuss: depends
Druggy: you already know, hook me up w/ the nyquil anytime :] jk
Daydreamer: yes
Freak: allllready
Dork: like you would never imagine
Bitch/Asshole: can be
Brat: definately
Sarcastic: yes
Angel: er
Devil: :]
Shy: yes
Talkative: depend on who im talking ot
Adventurous: mwaha of coursee
Joker: yes
Flirty: depends
=Word association=
Rock: music
Green: grass
Wet: shoe?
Cry: ..me a river
Peanut: squirrel
Hay: tractor
Cold: beckys house
Steamy: ;]
Fast: car
Freaky: genuwine
Rain: duck
Bite: cookie
Suck: a
Blow: dry
Hard: soft
last car ride: 30 mins ago con becky..lmfao almost got killed
last good cry: not for awhile my friend
last library book check out: no se
last cuss word uttered: fuck..or dumb bitch..what the fuck..something like that
last tv show watched: made- im addicted to that show
last time showered: this morning
last shoes worn: slippers right now :]
last cd played: burned cd
last item bought: uh no se
last downloaded: standing outside the fire by george straight
last disappointment: scott didnt help me count my drawers :/
last key used: /
last word spoken: bitch
last sleep: last night
last IM:
Shauna [12:31 AM]: youre a pimp
Brenda[12:31 AM]: Oh yeah
last sexual fantasy: uh
last weird encounter: lmfao this girl tried to kill me tonight..id say thats a little unusal
last ice cream eaten: oh its been awhile
last time amused: every second of the day my friend
last time wanting to die: uh
last time in love: i dont think you just fall out of love. maybe im crazy
last time hugged: no se
last time scolded: becky told me to shut the fuck up.. lmafao
last chair sat in: the one im in now motha fucka..you think im standing?
last lipstick used: allisons
last underwear worn: purple bluish w/ clear straps
last bra worn: black
last shirt worn: new one from aeropastle
last time dancing: uh
last poster looked at: dono
last show attended: hm
last webpage visited: your moms
Dear diary~@!
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talked to andrea awhile ago. so much shit going on with that girl...mary told me something that went on today and I about flipped..so I called her and we had it out for like 15 mins.
I almost fuckin broke down a few times...because, well shes talked to amanda about how her and i arent close anymore..yahta yahta the usual. and I said something like.."you know what?! back in the day we used to CRUCIFY lisa and jamie for doing shit like this..but now that its you its okay.." and shes like "We were fucking 11 and 12 then.." and mother fuck if that didnt piss me off..i was like..my ass we were 14 years old..and shes like..still..and i cut her off..and im like..well I dont remember..something about hwo I was the only one who stuck to it and stuck with my beliefs..omg it got bad I couldnt say anything I meant to say and I started stuttering..yahta yhta...god...
*sigh* what can yah do.
today was a good day.
mother fuck when it was time to close at work this lady walked around for 5 extra minutes!!!!!! I still had 2 drawers to count down and shes taking her sweet precious time!? that makes me SO incredibly mad. We have lives too- just because we have to stay till everyone leaves doesnt mean you can shop as long as youd like after our doors close. Actually it really does :/ and I hate that.
its just so stressful..it must sound like bullshit but it is...being in charge of 4 registers...and I mean we have to do a lot before we can close them down.. I wont go through the list bc its really not necessisary unless youre in the family..lol ;x anywho..making sure youve got everything perfect..getting your stuff together..trying not to leave anything for the next cashier the next day..and other stuff..while feeling really rushed because all of the management is stuck there until youre done...gah..
but otherwise I love it. Im a float Saturday..praise the lord.
my my. life is so thrilling. honestly, i think i change a little each day, and im so happy with that. Life is changing and Im ready..and whoevers not can get tha fawwwk out the way because I wont change for anyone. You know I guess its not that I ever disliked who I am..of course I have my insecurities..but the difference now is that I appreciate myself. and I appreciate everyone, and I mean everyone for helping me figure life out. Whether positive or not..or if you have the wrong idea of me or not..everyones is much appreciated.
anywho. seems like its bed time :/ im soooo tireddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
well im trying to motivate myslelf to update everyday, which I think Im doing a fairly good job of.
Today has been pretty good...we went w/ justin to lunch and did a little shopping...I got a bunch of lotion and spray stuff from Victoria's Secret. Justin was a little nervous going in there, lol but we forced em. lol hes such a good shopper. So anyway everyone get your asses to Victoria's Secret..theyre having a 5 for 30$ sale for fragrances, and that is sooo awesome :] hm. and let me tell you, endless love is the best stuff Ive ever bought. It smells like this after party stuff by bedhead that I use. Mmmmm. As a matter of fact I like found out about this stuff because when me and Dan Black were helping the m.s. choir teacher move her stuff around she was wearing endless love lotion..and I asked her if it was after party ..yahta yahta.. lol thrilling story, hm?
Anyhow..I also got these flip flops that I LOVE..they like have these people at the beach on them..and the straps are blue. *Sigh* I wish we had a beach. Btw anyone who considers that fucking toilet water at manawa a beach, youre crazy. Jesus you can probably get like herpes from putting your feet in. Dont get me wrong..if I can go boating w/ like my uncle or whatever I have no problem going to manawa..but um, soaking in that piss water isnt too appealing to me. :/
Im waiting for my hair person to call me. *sigh* I think she was supposed to call like..now..but I forgot what time I called her. Im getting my hair either dyed or highlighted..and trimmed. Exciting, hm? And the cool part..is Im paying for my mom to get hers cut and dyed..or permed. She hasnt decided yet. I love doing cool things for my mom and danny. Makes me feel all nice :]
Anywho I want to do something dramatic with the hair...but not anything out of character. Yah know? I wouldnt ever be a bleach blonde..and I would never dye my hair like darker. Hopefully I wont that is. But anyway my hair person is a complete genius, so let me know and Ill hook you up. Shes awesome. Gah. I also have to break down and buy my shampoo..conditioner..hair spray..styling stuff...which adds up pretty fast. I wouldnt be suprised if I spent 300$ when we go. *shoots myself* I have such a hard to spending a lot of money. The only reason Im going to is because I still have enough money coming in soon. It goes soo quickly. I have to pay for most of my school stuff this year, plus..Im getting contacts soon. SHIT I was supposed to call and make my eye appointment today. *sigh* gahhh so many things to do. Anywho. Im getting colored contacts..which I have to pay for. My parents are hookin me up with the glasses though..and the best part is..since Im an employ I get 20% off...awesomeeee :] :] :] Seems like I have other stuff I have to..OH yah.. after school starts I have to start making some payments towards my car and insurance. Thank God I dont have to pay all of it, because Id shoot myself.
I love parents :] Today anyway. lol
Sooo. The Thursday night rehearsal approaches us. Its going to be so fun metting the freshmen..Ill be suprised if half of them show up, though. But what can ya do.
Time to go watch a movie
bye suckas :]
du du du du, dudududududuhhh daaaaamn
good morning :] oh man, today was good. Slept until 1:30..
awww this morning I woke up bc my mom came in and laid down on my bed and wwatched tv..and im like hey mom!!!! and shes like hey babe!! wheres danny? and im like I dont know..lmfao..well actually Danny also woke me up before that talking to me about his construction friends..so i told my mom he was out with the construction guys..lol obviously not making much sense..so she took the remote control and left..im like I LOVE YOU MOM..and shes like i love you too sweetheart. :] :] that made my day.
lmao then becky called me and I woke up..and called her back and shes like GET THE FUCK UP! wonderful words to wake up to. thats how it goes though.
Took a shower and did my hair for like a long time..lol..just because i had nothing else to do. It was fun :]
Thennnn I came out..and it was dinner time..lol thats how long I was doing my hair...anywho...we ate and me and my parents got in a huge fight because I was talking about how theres jack SHIT to do around here...so I told them that when Amanda gets here I want to take her to Omaha. So to make a long story short, dannys going to take me around and show me places so I know how to get around there. lol omfg..my mom left the room when me and danny were fighting..and she heard me scream at him..so shes like SHAUNA SHUT UP! and im like fuck off..and dannys like hey!...and then when my mom came in here he made me tell her what i said..lmfao..she laughed. So it was all good. We got over it.
THEN OMG danny took me shopping..i got 4 shirts..3 pairs of pants..2 pairs of flip flops and like 6 belts..Im SOO excited, I love shopping :] :] :]
I saw so Ashley with her friend kaci from texas~!..Danielle..she was with lindy dinklage..and some other girl...and then I saw Allison! that made my day too..i was so happy to see her..its been so long..she looks different.. I ran into her and the chef family minus mrs chef lady..at old navy. I saw her and just stopped and stood there. I was speechless. Since school got out Ive been wondering...what am I going to say to allison when I call her..what will she say..does she hate me? and i never quite got it figured out so when i saw her I was just like..oh woah that was weird. what do I say..lol..but we talked, and everything was happy...and mr chef lady was hilarious as usual.
Well I have to get up early tomorrow..its going to be a fun day :]
yeehaw
nighty night kids.
Happy Monday :]
Shall we rewind back to the fourth. I woke up late, as usual when I dont have to work :] *sigh*..GOD life is so loveable when I get to sleep in. Anywho! I rolled on up to the mall and ate lunch w/ Becky..and did a little too much shopping ;x got some pimp ass shit...and a few lucky folk got hooked up w/ some small gifts, for I was in the mood of gift giving :] I saw Kevin at target when I went in there to get a card, havent seen that fool all summer which comes as a suprise since his little hunny works at my work.
Where was I? AH. Soo, I went home..met my parents at Subway and watched them eat dinner..lol..
came home
went to beckys
went to get shakes
went to the middle school
spent the night here
and thats my fourth. Not too bad, Manawa's fireworks were impressive this year, everyone lost focus of Rosenblatt's as soon as Manawa's started up.
Anywayyy..Saturday I worked from 1-9, lol I went to burger king to get lunch before work...and out of nowhere Justin came to the drive thru window it was a shocker. Anywho.
Me and Becky went to get dinner at like 10..then went to her hosue and chilled..GOD let me tell you this gettin up early thing is so tough when you get used to sleeping in :|
agggghhhh..
today was excitinggg, but not really..extremely slow at work..and like always 3932 people came in right before we closed = shauna was royally PISSED.
Anyyyywayyyyyyyy..tomorrow danny's taking me shopping :] yeehawww..im such a freakin conartist. You know what place I loveeeeeee to death!? Aeropostle.
anyway.
hm
Amanda will be here in 12 dayssssssssssssss!!!
gah justins bday is this week..on a thursday rehearsal~!..audras is the 18th..GAH we all need to start planning that like weve previously discussed..k? k
way too tired right now :|
OOOOOOOOH my gosh. I feel like talking in this puppy but theres nothign to talk about. My life is so unbelievably EXTREMELY boring at the moment. The highlight of my day is going to bed. lmao ;x
Wow tomorrow is going to be boring. I usually cant do anything on the fourth besides hang out with my family. WOOT!!!!!
Exciting, eh? Not really..theres like absolutely no way of getting in trouble hanging out with family. omfg I almost DIED today. After tanning I came inside bc I didnt feel good ..and I got EXTREMELY dizzy and felt like I was going to throw up or pass out..so I laid down for like 10 minutes and yuck :/ I felt so awful. Been worse though.
lol WOAH
just saw one of my poems up in michelles blog..i hope she got that from my other sn pf otherwise im bout to jack someone up for stealin my shit. lol..i wonder if she even knows im the one who wrote it. oh well, well see.
Hm so you know what Ive become like obsessed with here lately??
blue mascara ;x its so..niffty.
So..hear any good jokes lately?
:|
My parents rented gangs of new york..im pondering if i should go watch it or not,being as how theyre taking it back tomorrow..because in dannys words "its the red kind" lmfao ;x ..which..means that its a 2 day rental.
speaking of blockbuster..
good ole nick and his youngster broke up. Sad story, hm? Who will he date now? lol now that hes a freshman in college seems kinda like hell be forced to persue someone from his own generation. ;x
anywho- he invited me over to watch carebears. lol.. sure. "I want to hang out like the old times"...well, I got a little smarter this past year and hopefully its not possible for me to back track.
and speaking of nick, matt imd me yesterday.
I thought itd be the typical "hey, hows life, okay, BYE!" type of thing..but it was actually a little more in depth this time. See, he came into sears like last wknd with his college gf and was like HEY SIS!!! I didnt know you worked here! and im like..well hm, if you took the time to hang out w/ me sometime, we could catch up! yahta yahta..
so anyway back to yesterday. Were talking and Im like hey! We should hang out sometime...the usual.. And hes like..yah, whenever you decide to stop thinkin I dont have time for you..something along those lines. And im like...well thats how you make it seem. And he flipped out in a calmly fashion though- about how he was extremely busy with work, college life, etc. And none of us could ever understand that. And im like well ya know what, personally you never took the time out to tell me why exactly you didnt talk to me.....yahta yahta.. that lasted a good 5 mins and like usual he stopped replying out of the blue. And thats that story.
Reese is going to Europe with his gf and his dad. lol...sounds fun, huh. I like talking to that kid..lol, I always thought he hated me. And maybe he does, thats been going around a bit, but its fun tryin to get to know him.
Have you guys heard the jump off by lil kim? Reminds me so much of marching band ;x lol. Speakin of which..I think this year is going to be awesome. Weve got some rather challenging music, but not impossible. Cant wait to see the drill. Next Thursday we start out Thursday rehearsals- thrilling :] ..actually me and becky suggested today to amanda that we do somethin w/ our freshmen before band camp..but I forgot about our Thursday rehearsals..so eh. Dono what we will do about that.
omfg, yay! just found somethin to do. I ran across this girls journal and she has her playlist posted and there are like 3290 million songs...OOH i love it :] yayyyyyyy
night,
SUCKAS!
Its been a relatively good day. Got up late :] and cleaned the room..did a little tanning..took a shower..becky came over and did the hair and stuff...we went to chinese..and the lady said SUS ZAPATOS! mhmm..and we went to the section leader meeting which wasnt half as bad as I expected..then went with becky's family to watch fire works...me and becky played on the play ground and looked for hot guys..played a little catch..then watched some people playing basketball..lmfao we were trying to get up the courage to talk to them when they left. The story of my life. Lmao Becky "I hate guys, I hate guys, I hate guys.......maybe if I just keep telling myself.."
anywho. Now my parents are fighting. It sucks so bad. I hate when they
fight..my mom gets so upset. *sigh*
Im so freakin bored.
Life is boring right now..
nothing
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I just watched Jasper, Texas. Oh man, if you guys dont know about that you should look into it. That movie, oh man...made me cry so bad. The one thing I cant stand the most in the whole world is racism. Its so sad that people are still judging other by their skin. What I hate most is that black and white people both are stuck in this past that most of us except for some of the.. "older" folks havent been through. Cant we all just get along?
Are the sins getting staler
Does every moment move past you
Or does it feel like forever
And shouldn't you be laughing too?
Take a look how they found you
Take a look what they've done to you now
What was it they wanted
Sullen and haunted?
If only you saw it coming
How far down would you fall
If you never came up again
'Cause you're so sick of it all
And you want to change everything
Just how deep will you go
To see through it all?
If you could consume him
Would you say you were finding your way out?
Is anything coming clearer
Smashing your mirror?
Still you can see you're guilty
Coming closer my composure turning
inside out in him
Calling home all alone
You can call I won't answer
Any question in my head
Remains until you feel the same
Never telling how I felt is all I ever cared about
Looks like we still got this shit goin on, so heeeeeeeere we go.
AMANDA FUCK YOU. Ill be the first to admit to ANYONE that Ive made some huge mistakes and that youre not the only one who has hurt anyone in our 'friendship'. Ask any of our friends who know ANYTHING about our fighting and Ive probably told them that. But you know what distuinguishes you and me my friend? YOURE COLD AND BITTER. I could give a shit what your rant in your journal was referring to. READ THAT SHIT. I would NEVER say ANYTHING like that about ANY OF MY FRIENDS. And since Im suppooooooosedly your best friend...oh wait, better not say that, I dont want any "lies" going around....THAT SAYS A SHIT LOAD ABOUT THE TYPE OF PERSON YOU ARE. Thats why I have a problem with you. You preach about how I wont get over shit but uh, Ive been talking to you and all that kinda stuff for the past week, and the fact that I didnt talk to you for 3 months has nothing to do with this one hun. So get the fuck over it, no use trying to drag that out. I DONT GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE...and my bad that everyone knows your the "evil" friend. SAD THAT THEY CAN MAKE THAT FUCKING CONNECTION ON THEIR OWN, HUH!?! And as to the picking a guy over a friend- thats useless anymore too. Thats not my problem with you anymore- weve moved on to bigger and better things!
And frankly dont take me for an idiot. Its rather insulting. Im not as dumb as you think I am.
And let me remind me so I make it CRYSTAL FUCKING CLEAR.
You are in NO POSITION to judge me and ASSUME WHO THE FUCK I AM. IVE MADE MISTAKES BUT THAT DOES NOT MOLD ME AS A PERSON. That doesnt put me in some fucking categorie so think what you want, Im the one who wakes up with myself everyday and knows who the hell I am. Not you. UNDERSTAND? NOT YOU. YOURE THE ONE WITH THE REALITY PROBLEM, AMANDA. F U C K Y O U and your little headgames. SO YOU WANT TO START SOME SERIOUS SHIT? GO the fuck ahead. Im ready. And youve been ready for quite some time. Hurt my feelings amanda, go for it. I wont even wait 3 months to bitch you out about it this time.
Amanda would like me to change in my blog that I said I am her best friend because in her words we havent been best friends for 5 months and we apparantly "dont want any lies going around" if you know what she means.
so for amandas happiness and comfort :] I would like to annonounce for her that we are not best friends
Sure, Im afraid of being ordinary. But I know Im not. I may wake up some mornings and look at myself in the mirror and wonder why Im still alive but thats life. I want to be me. Im happy being me. This IS me. I dont need some angry so called best friend of mine to tell me what and who I want to be. I dont need your approval, I dont care if you like who I am...
but thanks for trying to put me in perspective. I appreciate your view, and anyone and everyones view of me is welcome. Just try not to step on anyones toes. Its not ethical. Because, mind you, were a little past being mean and nice. Threaten me as much as you want, kill me if youd like, Im not scared. You have nothing left to prove to me. You want to hate me? Theres no one stopping you. No one but yourself and that can easily be overcome as shown through your spurts of opinion about me in your journal.
Im sick of being angry. It gets old.
And it takes up too much of the time I could be using to get a life.
welp! to whoever is reading...youre going to enjoy this one :]
FYI it wasnt exactly my idea to put my extremely personal shit in everyones view but it seems thats the way were doing things these days. Its the "IN" thing.
Now, we all talk a lot of shit? am I right? I know youre all nodding your heads. And if youre not youre a damn lie. But anywho, back to what I was saying...we all talk..unfortunately even about people we are close with. But if we have any courage/class we can say it to that person without much hesitation.
If you would like to have a brief overview of who I am take a glimpse of Amanda's journal. Theres a nice little shin dig in there..summing me up in less than a page. Take a gander...the opinion of my very own best friend, it doesnt get much better. :]
Residence: my house
Occupation:a wonderful employ of Sears. Good life, great prices.
Clothes: my pimp pjs like always
Mood: Alternating between giddy and annoyed and angry and sleepy and awake
Thoughts: Too much to mention
Annoyance: your face
Desktop Picture: somethin hip
Book: At the moment nothing
Refreshment: no tengo
Worry: nonya
Crush: stupid joe
Favorites:
Day or Night? Night/early morning. I love summer
Celebrity: ehhhhh im not sure
People to talk to online: well the people that I specifically get online to talk to...friends here..and danny, da da, drea..mary..etc
Current favorite word or phrase: sucka
Current Favorite Movie: dont go there girl
Favorite day of the week: friday
Favorite Flowers: white rose
Preferred type of Ice-Cream: Mint-Chocolate-Chip yessssss
Favorite Fast Food Restaurant: subway on the REAL
How many times did you fail your drivers test: none
What do you do most often when you are bored: listen to music
Last Movie you saw: in the movie theatre? Charlies angels..and as hot lips put it " As soon as we left I was ready to kick some ass" lmao
Have you ever...:
Ever been so drunk you blacked out: oOoo rawrr
Been hurt emotionally: yes, fuck the world
Kept a secret from everyone: oh, I try
Had an imaginary friend: hehe :] any one of my friends can become imagination at anytime so dont fuck with me. HEHE :] jp guys!! I love you band kids, most of you!
Cried during a movie: all the time babbbbbby
Thought an animated character was hot?: uh fuck thats gross
Had a New Kids on the Block tape: Who?
Been on stage: Yes.
Cut your hair: yessa
Been sarcastic: thats my life
Last time you...:
Cried: people like me are too horrible to cry
Were sick: not too long ago
Ate: awhile ago we had dinner. Shit..actually like 10 hours ago
Felt stupid: 24/7
Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: if I want to tell someone I love them I will and do
Had a serious talk: Serious? Me? Must be some mistake.
Missed someone: all the time
Do you believe in:
God: Who knows
Magic: magic..stick?
Yourself: fuck that
Your friends: yes
Santa Claus: hell yes and hes a pim[
Destiny/Fate: yes
Angels: yessa :]
Ghosts: :/ scary
Random Questions:
What annoys you: people who judge me...and try and tell me who I am....people who assume things about me...people that need to get a fucking clue and look in the mirror, and stop telling people what the fuck they think everyone wants to hear...I HATE THESE KIDS
What do you want to do: I want to change the world
Who is one person you never get sick of: there are only a few people I do get sick of
Who is one person you would marry tomorrow: Danny
Do you sleep on your back, stomach or side? I shift..mostly on my side and tummy
What would you take if you were stuck on a deserted island? a radio with a catrillion cds and a gillion batteries
Who would you take to that island if you had to take anyone, dead or alive? thats sick
Do you like water? its refreshing. or some shit like that
If your house was on fire and you could only save one thing, what would you save? Relatives not counted - my animals
Have you ever said `i love you` and meant it? surely have
What time did you wake up this morning? YES! IM SO PROUD OF THIS ANSWER! 2 pm!
Who would you trade places with for a day? i like being me thanks
Have you ever been told you look like a celebrity? lucy from 7th heaven in my younger years
Do you regret any of your past relationships? i guess I dont regret going out w/ anyone that I have. You learn from everyone
Would you rather live in the mountains or by the ocean? definately oceans..mountains would make me feel..secluded er something
Social Life:
Boy/Girlfriend: no tengo
Are you center of attention or a wallflower: neither
Do you like being around people: yes I do
Who is your role model: Tom green, hes hot shit
Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with:the story of my life
Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: sure have!
Have you ever lied to your best friend: about little stupid things
Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: I guess Im a little vindictive
Want someone you don't have right now: sure, if only he noticed
What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: I dont particularly like anything
What is your favorite part of your emotional being: emotional being what is with the lingo bud...erm...I guess im not sure
Are you happy with you: no se
Are you happy with your life: I guess its progressing
if you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: omfg so much..so much bullshit I could do without. I guess I got myself here though, right? right.
Makes you laugh the most: beckys dog molly..molly the mouse. were tight
Can make you feel better no matter what: depends on the mood
Who Has it easier? guys have it easier for many reasons
Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: well when the creepy guy walks by at work it makes me feel like im going to pee my pants
HAVE YOU:
Fallen for your best friend?: no
Made out with JUST a friend?: uh
Been rejected: yes
Been used : not really
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
You touched?: i dono
You hugged?: my mom still
You yelled at?: the computer
Who broke your heart?: mark may you are a bitch
DO YOU:
Color your hair? yes
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
Own a thong? yes
TYPE WITH FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?: i guess, i dont know
DRINK?: yes
SMOKE?: no
ANY OTHER DRUGS?: no
---Favorites---
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK:Ice tea, red bull, and Mt. Dew
SOUND: music
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: have a good time working at good ole sears and hangin out with the friends
BAND OR GROUP: Switchfoot, No Doubt, Bush, Dashboard Confessional, Lifehouse, 8stops7
SINGER: dannys gettin pretty close to the top of that list
MOVIE: so many so so many
COLOR: blue and pink
SPORT: soccer
DAY OF THE YEAR: 2/18
MONTH: June/July
---Future---
MARRIGE SEASON: marriage? you mean? hm..winter
PLACE: some place beautiful
HONEYMOON: Im not sure
SON'S NAME: Hayden something
DAUGHTER'S NAME: Jade..or Kylie..something
GOALS: To be something great
---Love---
BOYFRIEND: no tengo
VIRGINITY EXISTANT: yes
CHILDREN?: not that I would claim
CURRENT CRUSH: Joe..fuck it everyone knows already
BEEN IN LOVE?: yes
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yes
TOO SHY?: sometimes..depends on the person
BEEN HURT?: yes
HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?: lol yes
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: long fucked up story
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: yes
HAD/HAVE AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: kind of..not like bf gf thing
WHERE DO YOU WANT TO HAVE YOUR HONEYMOON?: away from here
WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU LOOK FOR IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?: sense of humor
---Random---
WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED AND IMPORTANT POSSESSION?: I guess I dont really know
WHEN YOU WAKE UP, YOU: throw my alarm clock across the room
WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?: pictures and stuff
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: music, laughing
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: no se
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?:cerulean blue
`*..do you drink// every now and then ;] ...but not here lately
`*..how many times have you been drunk// enough to recognize a good hang over comin on
`*..is your best friend a virgin// no, sex craved fool..I can only think of like..2 that are
`*..do you wear short shorts// for pjs
`*..how many people have you slept with// a grand total of none
`*..do you get along with your mom// most of the time..but how interesting would life be if I always did
`*..been so drunk you couldn't remember your name// not quite..maybe drunk enough to not know how to say my name..but not that bad! lmfao brings back memories.." I dont like Dustin!"
`*..do you have any eating disorders// probably not
`*..piercings or tattoos// no se
`*..do you wear shirts that show your clevage// are you stupid
`*..ever wear shirts that show your belly button// huh
`*..have you ever smoked// yes
`*..are you a regular smoker// not these days. Its awful.
`*..do you have any kids// not any that I would claim
`*..do you think you could be pregnant// nowadays anything is possible
`*..ever find yourself wishing to poke people with sticks// I guess you could say that
`*..ever taped your nose to your face// holy shit that is an awesome idea. One time me and drea taped our faces with tape..obviously..lmfao..taped with tape get it...anyway..and we made masks
*..do you wish you could live in another realm// wtf is this some anime bullllllllshit?
`*..have you ever ran in circles like an elf// maybe not like an elf
`*..do you pick your nose for a living// uh
`*..do you fart in public// eh
`*..do you pick wedgies in public// youre dumb
`*..what's your view on religion// think what you want just dont enforce your ideas uppon me because ill believe what the fuck I want. k? Amen.
`*..ever stop to smell the roses// I dont have time for that childishness..ish
`*..what about wake up and smell the coffee// that only happens in the movies
`*..can you smell// I guess so
`*..gotten so drunk you didn't know where you were// now this is a good question..jp. Um. I almost peed in a shower once?
MORE QUESTiONS..
`*..what is the most common question you get asked// donde esta? tu pantolones?
`*..your usual response// no se?
`*..what's your natural hair color// ugly dark blonde-ish
`*..eye color//hazel
`*..how tall are you without shoes//5'9"ish-5' 10"
`*..favorite colors//black and white together
`*..how many surveys have you taken// so many that I have most of them memorized by now
`*..do you have any siblings// a couple
`*..if yes how many// yah 2
`*..do you have any pets// a few fews
`*..if yes, what kind// no se
`*..what's your sexual prefrence// guys
`*..do you agree that men are little boys in men's bodies// probably but i dont really care
`*..do you have your own site// nope
`*..do you sleep with clothes on// yes as a matter of fact I try to make that a habit
MUSiCAL STUFF..
`*..favorite band// Dashboard Confessional, 8stops7, Zwan, Bush, No Doubt, Switchfoot..etc
`*..favorite song// Echo- Incubus
`*..what song most describes you// none im too fucking hard to understand
`*..what song shows how you feel about your best friend// I have a lotta best friends..but erm.. I turn to you by christina aguilera..which is actually me and dada's song and me and jamies kinda..and yesterday by boys 2 men..run by george straight for my tx friends..and mobile by avril lavigne..and anything but ordinary,remy zero- shattered, Rascall Flatts-These Days,
`*..what song makes you cry// echo by incubus, anything but ordinary by avril lavigne, for you to notice-dashboard confessional, Jimmyeatworld- A sunday, Lucy Woodward-Dumb Girls, If youre not the one-daniel befdjdslf, I miss you-Incubus
`*..what song describes your love life// For you to notice- Dashboard Confessional
`*..what song describes your happiest moment// its peanut butta jellay timeee ;]
`*..what song describes your worst moment// wish you were h ere-Incubus..Hurt-NIN, Garbage- as heaven is wide,
`*..what song describes life for you// Seether-Fine Again..Finger 11- Sick of it all, Weezer-say it aint so, Hold on-Good Charlotte
`*..what song describes your feelings for your enemy// fuck the world..actually thats to everyone at any given moment...jaja jk, right?
favorite lyric//fuck you
*..what song/lyric reminds you of an exlover// lover..lmfao how about ex bf..that sounds more acceptable - a few songs about mark-Breathing-Lifehouse, before I let you go- freestyle...if you leave-good charlotte, Hurt-NIN, Too much to Ask-Avril Lavigne,Default-Deny, Clay Aikens-Not supposed to love you anymore, ETC ETC ETC ETC ETCCC and some of me and justins songs are- dont cry for us by justincase, real good friends-blessid union of souls..and some others..
some lyrics-
I am blue, the sky is grey,
I guess it's better off that way.
There's really not much left to say.
I called you on the phone,
another guy said that you weren't at
home,
but, I don't care I'll call you again
anyway.
Baby I'd give you the world...
please forget about those fifteen other
girls.
(part of take me back by the ataris)
and my all time favorite song to mark-
Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
preoccupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
Can you take it all away?
can you take it all away?
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
can you take it all away?
well ya shoved it my face
Everyone is changing
there's no one left that's real
to make up your ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away
This pain you give to me
*..what lyrics do you want the world to hear// that describe me? I dont really have any of my own but I like this -
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what
I'm gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
EVEN MORE QUESTiONS..
..and some repeated..
`*..eaten a box of oreos// not a full box by myeslf
`*..been on stage// yes
`*..dumped someone// yes its crazy
`*..gotten in a car accident// not really
`*..been in love// yes
EiTHER//OR..
`*..coffee or hot choccolate// frapucinio?
`*..neve campbell or jennifer love hewitt//fuck if I care
`*..tom cruise or brad pitt//brad pitt
`*..jeans or cords// jeans
`*..sweater or sweatshirt// both
`*..t-shirt or tanktop/ tanktop
iN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU..
`*..cried// fuck you
`*..helped someone// yes, I think
`*..bought something// flamin hot cheetos :x
`*..gotten sick// yes
`*..gone to the movies// no
`*..said i love you//ive said fuck you and have been said fuck you back
`*..written a letter// nopeee
`*..moved on// i dont care
`*..talked to an ex// nah
`*..missed an ex// i dont care
`*..talked to a crush// no
`*..had a serious talk// depends on what the fuck you clasify as serious
`*..missed someone// i dont care
`*..hugged someone// my mom
`*..fought with your parents// somewhat
`*..fought with a friend// this isnt fighting its L I F E
DO YOU//WHAT..
`*..wear eye shadow// yes :] all kinds!
`*..put on a 'front'// naw HOME DAAAAAWG
`*..kiss on the first date// depends i spose
`*..have a crush on someone// yes
`*..eat with your mouth open// yuck becky who does that remind you of :|
`*..color is the carpet in your room// dont recall
`*..the last CD you bought// nor do i recall this one
`*..how did you spend last summer// iiii slept a lot..and talked to danny like everyday..and him and vicki on the phone..and hung out with friends..and all that shnazzy stuff
`*..when's the last time you showered// i bathed thank you very much and at ..like ..8 or someting
`*..are you lonely// I like the way becky puts it- as alone as i can be
`*..are you happy// sometimes
`*..are you wearing pajamas// yes ;] rawrrrr
`*..are you talking to someone online// reese..actually his gf now..lol
`*..what's your astrological sign// aquarius because im a pimp
`*..what are you listening or watching right now// this song by jude
1. When Did You Start Wearing Bras?: lol erm..like 4th-5th grade? got my first bra at sears..lmao what do ya know
2. Do You Carefully Select Panties Or Are You Happy With Simple Pairs?: I guess Im some what picky
3. Does Your Lingerie Have To Match?: sometimes it does, when im feeling obsessive
4. How Many People Have Seen You In Your Undies? Im not sure
5. What Is Your Fave Color Of Undies?: lmfao pink, black, and white
6. Have You Ever Worn A Thong Or G-String?: of course
7. Do You Normally Wear Pantyhose?: hell no, thats too classy for me
8. Do You Own Slippers?: yes :]
9. Do You Wear A Robe Out Of The Shower?: most of the time
10. Have You Ever Had Your Undies Removed By Someone?:no se
11. Have You Ever Had Your Undies Removed Forcefully?:ive not been molested in such a way
12. Have You Ever Worn A Garter Belt?: hell no
13. Have You Ever Worn A Thigh Belt?: rofl no
14. What Does Your Fave Pair Of Undies Look Like?: lmfao they- well nm thats dirty i dont want to describe them, ask if you really want to know
15. What Does Your Fave Bra Look Like?: black
16. Has Anyone Ever Signed Your Bra?: lol uh
17. Do You Feel Comfortable Sharing Your Bra Size?: lol no
18. Is Your Butt Big?: got big butts and i cannot lie all you other brothas can't deny..haha ROFLMAO becky
19. Do You Own Edible Panties?: no se
20. Has anyone ever bought you lingerie?: lol yes
21. What would you think if a boyfriend/significant other bought you underwear?: i dono well see
22. Do you get embarrassed when shopping for underwear?: lol no its fun :]
23. Do you show your underwear often?: lol...no se
24. Do guys snap your bra straps?: not since i lived in tx..dirty freaks..dirty christina aguilera style
25. Have you ever thought about underwear this much before?: not that I recall
Five details about your appearance right now:
[x] ugly
[x] hair in a towel ;x mwahaaha
[x] wearing my new pimp as fawkin pjs
[x]matching socks btw
[x] clean?
Five things you did today:
[x] slept UNTIL 2:00..Im so excited :]
[x] woke up and got online
[x] picked up the pay check and cashed it
[x] helped mom cut the dogs hair..and gave her a bath in my swim suit..lmao ;x
[x] took a bath, and no Im here
Five things that everyone should know about you:
[x] my favorite thing in the whole entire world is music
[x] Im not good at the whole forgivness thing, although im working on it
[x] I dont need to explain myself to anyone, nor do I unless I want to
[x] I think Im hilarious and if you dont, fuck off....hey jp :] about the fucking off part
[x] I can be a bitch..or the nicest person youve ever met :]
Five groups/artists you listened to yesterday:
[x] Dashboard Confessional
[x] 8stops7
[x] Eminem
[x] lil wayne
[x] blue october
Five things that make you happy:
[x] my friends
[x] family
[x] band kids
[x] my sears family
[x] music
lmao becky so much in common
Five things that disgust you:
[x] liars
[x] chosing guys over your friends, etc
[x] my brother and sister dropping out of highschool and having kids so soon
[x] people who judge me before they know me
[x] guilt trips
Five things you can't live without:
[x] friends
[x] music
[x] band
[x] sears..lmao..IM FO REAL..lmao
[x] ..spanish? donde estoy?
Five things you'll do when you complete this:
[x] not practice my clarinet
[x] clean my room
[x] talk to folk online
[x] listen to music
[x] ponder
Five things you feel right now:
[x] anger
[x] sadness
[x] love
[x] boredom
[x] confrused
Do you ever get the feeling you're a horrible person? My bad. I mean a bad friend. That word horrible has been the start of many fights so I thought it a good idea to re-word that.
Anywho back to the subject. OH MAN. Today Im feeling like an awful person. I feel like the type of person who is supposed to be there for people but never am. Because, I dont give a fuck about anybody. I seemingly get distracted easily and that is obviously not to my advantage. You know, it also seems as if I happen to blow off things I think are stupid and focus more on the things that should be of priority. Why must I be such a bitch.
Everyone is always putting their feelings aside to help me, and this is how I repay them?
Why cant I shut the fuck up and agree with things I disagree with. Hm? God I am so dissapointed in myself.
Im so horrible. Excuse the word please, I feel it best describes the situation here.
Wait this brings back memories. "At least I know who I can count on" ....de ja vu.
I cant stand these kids
*sigh*
Horrible, horrible, horrible
Been rejected? - yes
Been in love? - uh yes
been in lust? - sure can we say josh hartnett ohmygosh :/
Been used? - yes
Done something you regret? - only most of the time
Have you/are you/do you...
Considered a life of crime? thats my life already
Considered being a hooker? - uh yuck
Considered being a pimp? - lmfao already am baby ;]
Are you psycho? - sure do think so
Split personalities? - sure seems like it huh
Schizophrenic? - not here lately
Obsessive? - havent we been over this?
Obsessive compulsive? - yes
Panic? - too much
Anxiety? - yeah
Depressed? - uh
Suicidal? - ug no
Obsessed with hate? - not really
Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? actually that kinda freaks me out so stfu
Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? - ever wonder who the fuck comes up with this bullshit?
Are you?...???
Understanding: - generally i like to think so
Open-minded: - try to be
Arrogant: - uh
Insecure: - ah
Interesting: - of course
Hungry: - nope I just had a mixed berry granola bar
Friendly: - sometimes
Smart: - does it look like it
Moody: - yeah...i'm a girl.
Childish: -the question is when am i not
Independent: - more than i used to be
Hard working: - holy shit 56 hours a week of hard working
Organized: - lmfao
Healthy: - no way
Emotionally Stable: - not really
Shy: - sometimes
Difficult:- yes
Bored Easily: - sometimes
Thirsty: - yes
Sad: - sometimes
Happy: - mostly
Trusting: - depends on who
Talkative: - most of the time.
Original: - whatever
Different: - these are getting repetative.
unique- no se
Lonely: - donde estas
Color your hair? - yes
Have tattoos? - not so much
Piercings? - just my ears.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? - um, no.
Floss daily? - usually like every other day
Own a webcam? - no
Ever get off the damn computer? - uh
On preferences...
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? - the milk on the real
McDonalds or Burger King? - BK bc i hate mcdonalds
Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? perfect friend
Sweet or sour? - both
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? - yuck NEITHER
action\comedy\horror? comedy
Cats or dogs? - dogs, dur
Ocean or Pool? - pool..i miss my pool..it was so great.. *sigh*
Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? - nacho cheese
Mud or Jell-O wrestling? - jello bc i said so
With or without ice-cubes? - depends..depends on what it is and if it is already cold...and it also depends on if i have a straw..and if im in a hurry to drink it..following me here? k
Shine or rain? - rain
Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? - winter and fall make me feel homesick..i love the winter though, and summer
Vanilla or Chocolate? - vanilla
Gloves or mittens? - mittens :]
Eyes open or closed?- closed
Fly or breathe under water? fly
Bunk-bed or waterbed? bunk bed
Chewing gum or hard candy? - gum... wtf is with this chewing gum..had no idea there was any other kind
Motor boat or sailboat? - motorboat..were getting one next year..what do you know a year before I leave..what a coinsedence
Lights on or off? - off
Chicken or fish? - chicken, hate fish
What's your favorite...
Number? - 5..its me and dadas lucky number
Holiday? - my bday
Radio station? - 89.7, and 94.1
Place? - my bed
Scent? - lucky...hawaiin ginger, curve, candies, adidas....flowers.....and christmas day smells good too :]
If you could be anywhere, where would you be? hangin out with some friends..or in tx..also hangin out with some friends..or uh sleeping
What would you be doing? laughing my ass on the verge of peeing my pants if i were with friends..and um...probably the same if i were sleeping
What are you listening to? high-feeder
Can you do anything freakish with your body? lmao rawrrr take a guess
Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be? my dogs..and molly the mouse..even though she was mean to me last night..ill get over it i spose ;/
HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Kissed your cousin: rofl ;]....IS THIS SOMEONES IDEA OF A SICK JOKE?
2. Ran away: no way..thats so pointless
3. Broken someone's heart: yes, im a bitch
4. Cried when someone died: yah
Lied: sure
WHICH IS BETTER:
6. Flowers or candy: flowers
7. Scruff or Clean shaved: depends on who..but probably clean shaved!
8. Bitchy or Slutty: lmao, I have no idea
9. Tall or Short: Tall!
10. Pants or Shorts: I prefer the jeans...pantolones
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX:
11. Last person you slow danced with: jeez, no se
12. Worst Question To Ask: not sure, Ill get back to you
WHAT IS (your favorite):
13. Your Good Luck Charm: I guess I dont have one
14. Person You Hate Most: no se
15. Breakfast Food: breakfast is for idiots :/ but I guess the blueberry bagels at beckys are nice
Who:
16. Makes you laugh the most: becky, amanda, amanda, nicole, reese here lately, daniel my step dad..lol... and crazy tim
17. Can make you feel better no matter what: my friends
18. Has A Crush On You: no one
19. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: yes unfortunately
20. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: I like the way becky put it.. no se...we have it good, and we have it bad..
21. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: lmfao
DO YOU EVER:
22. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: not anymore really..if it rings...good luck to who is calling because chances are im not in a hurry to get to the phone so..eh
23. Save MSN conversations: no tengo
24. Save Emails: yes!
25. Wish you were someone else: somedays
26. Kiss: yessa
27. Romantic memory: eh nah
HAVE YOU:
28. Fallen for your best friend?: eh not really..become best friends with someone ive fallen for? yes
29. Made out with JUST a friend?: uh
30. Been rejected: Yyyyyyessssssss
32. Been used : who cares
33. Cheated on someone?: uh
34. Been cheated on?: yes
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
35. You touched?: my mommy hugged me
36. You talked to?: outloud? no se
37. You hugged?: my mom obviously
38. You instant messaged?: reese
39. You kissed?: no se
40. You yelled at?: amanda from tx
41. Who broke your heart?: mark may
42. Who told you they loved you?: no one loves me.. jp..my mom :]
DO YOU...
43. Color your hair? yes
44. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nopeee
45. Own a webcam? nah
46 Own a thong? lol yes
47. Ever get off the damn computer? once and awhile i come up for air?
48. Sprechen Sie Deutsch? not really
49. Habla espanol? si mucho...Y DONDE ESTA TU PANTOLONES?
Have you/do you/are you...
50. Schizophrenic? ha
51. Obsessive? yes
52. Compulsive? yes
53. Obsessive compulsive? definately
54. Panic? yes
55. Anxiety? yes
56. Depressed? sometimes
{x} You touched? my dog
{x} You talked to? Reese online and before that..hotlips..and brendalee and my friend from tx on the phizone
{x} you hugged? my mama
{x} you instant messaged? reese..wait havent we been through this?
{x} You laughed with? are you joking? I dont laugh
{x} You cried about? does it seem like I want to tell you?
{x} You cried with? myself
{x} You punched? uh lol I usually dont punch people..lmfao wait I guess I punch amanda on occasion
{x} You bought something for? uh I bought becky a mountain dew the other day..and like I turned a sharp corner and it fell onto the floor of my car and I flipped out..lmfao
{x} You had sex with? no one! Im so virginal
Currents...
{x} Current Clothes: definately my pimp pajama pants from aropostle..with monkeys on em..and my fuzzy monkey spaghetti strap pj shirt from dep
{x} Current Mood: heres a clue..fuck off
{x} Current Hair: in twistys and up and curly..ugly as shit because I slept on it :/
{x} Current Annoyance: umm my tooth hurts and when i touch my eye it hurts too :|
{x} Current thing you ought to be doing: sleeping..cleaning my room..but not at the same time because the only thing i can do while Im sleeping is think about things
{x} Current Desktop Picture: the little rabbit that says you suck and thats sad..it used to be this realllly cute picture of these two stick figures and this girl has a paper heart and is trying to hand it to this boy and they both look sad and the girl is saying..take it....please....AWWWWWWWWWW makes you all sad doesnt it
{x} Current Favorite Group: dashboard confessional...and a million others
{x} Current movie In DVD: no se... though i can't wait till chicago comes out either!!
{x} Current Refreshment: none
{x} Current Worry: too many worries as a matter of fact
{x} Current Crush: i plead the fifth
{x} Current Music: blue october, calling you
{x} Current fear: myself
On Dating...
{x} Long or short hair? depends
{x} Dark or blond hair? depends
{x} Tall or short? tall
{x} Sensitive or Funny? funnyish in a sensitive way? UHH..okay not really
{x} Good or bad? both
{x} Dark or light eyes? doesn't matter
{x} Hat or no hat? depends
{x} Pierced or no? uhhh depends
whats the word folk
..anyway
Im so sleepy
wouldnt it be a little
interesting if i typed
like this?
I think so, so well
give er a whirl..sound
good? I hope so...if not
tough shit, and erm..
yah. SOOO its been a
long and intersting day
I suppose..work was
boring as hell..sadly
enough the highlight
of my day was guessing
what time it was w/
beth and becky..
i won like 2 times..bc
im just cool like that
and one time..omg this
is amazing..me and beth
were guessing and
i said
ITS GONNA BE 4:53 BETH!
and shes like..no way
I say..4:49..and I checked
and it was like 4:52:54
or something like that
anyway..lol uhhhhhhh
well to make this short and
sweet, life sucks, I hate you
and your mama
SUCKA! just playing..I love
all of your moms, but I do
admit I dont like some of you
...... gotcha..i love you folk
hm. So I dont work this week
praise the lord.
My goals for this week are:
clean my room
sleep
go shopping
sleep
and that covers most of it
Im getting extremely bored
with this whole thing,
so I think Im going to roll
on out of here
1)Would you ever date someone younger than you? depends on who
2)Someone Older: I usually do
3)Have you ever smoked weed: no tengo
4)Ever been drunk: hehe
5)Been in love: um...i dunno if I should say fortunatley or unfortunately
6)Loved someone who you knew you couldn't have: you mean like someone in my family??
7)Gotten in a car accident: no se
8.)Broken a bone: no expect for my toe
9)Had your heart broken: always
10)Cheated on someone: no shame in my game
11)Been cheated on: yes, dirty bastard
12)Last time you said I love you to someone: my mom! this night
13)Last time you cried: um wow....no se
14)Last time you laughed: dos seconds ago
15)Where do you see yourself in 10 Years? ten years older
16)What age do you see yourself married at? i'll tell you when we get there
17)Describe your dream wedding: big, outside, like the one on the show I watched where you plan your best friends wedding and it was outside and pretty and yah :]
18.)Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yes but they get thrown on the floor
20)If you could dye your hair one color what would it be: blondish?
21)Have you ever been skinny-dipping: no se
25)Do you eat chicken with fingers or with a fork? depends on what chicken it is idioso
26)Would you rather give or receive? um...i'm a getter not a giver (haha that word looks funny getter haha...by the way this is Becky)
27)How many homes have you lived in? 7
28.)Do you play any instruments? yah duh..i'm a pimp
29)One pillow or two? depends
30)Do you get along with your parents? sometimes
32)Do you drive? i love driving
33)What kind of car do you have? ok *cough cough*
34)Whats your favorite color(s): pink and blue
35)Do you work: (haha does she work..what kinda freak are you) yah only 56 hours
36)Whats your favorite food: chinese and mexican
37)Do you have braces: does it look like i have braces?
38.)Stupid Stuff: people who talk too much, um..stereotypes, when the pop machines say they have the pop you want and they don't, and cavities, and when you think the green kind is green apple and its really lime
39)How many guys/girls have you kissed: ok, does it look like its any of your business...ask me if you'd really like to know
40)When was the last time you went on a date: depends on your definition of a date
41)Have you ever got in serious trouble? i've maneuvoured my way out of serious problems....(i dunno if thats right maneuvoured..but its the way us senior folk spell)
42)Why is the sky blue: because i said so
43)Who was your first crush: uh...Jared Pursell or Josh McCammond (that was when I was really little and they were both my boyfriends..at the same time so shut up)
46)When you meet a person of your preferred sex, you first notice their: um..ok...eyes and hair and laugh
47)Are you the romantic type: yes, obviously
48.)Have you ever been chased by cops: few times you know dope
49)What's a secret you've never told anyone: I'm really an eighty year old man ( mwhahaha, I knew it all along...its becky again)
50)Have you ever done drugs: hm...we gotta die from something jk
hey folks WHATS CRACKALACKIN!? anybody really ever check out my block anymore these days? Can I get a woot woot?! huh SUCKAFACE?! lmfao I was just reminicing in my old retarded blog...this is what mr bleth said to me the first day i had him my freshman year..
"My school was poor when I was little,the teeters didn't have totters, and we would skip rope and pretend we were swinging"
rofl.
I just told becky that and she barely laughed. SUCKAFACE :|
lmfao becky called my house-
Danny-hello Becky-Danny, let me talk to Shauna Danny- whooooooo is this?Becky-you know who this is!
Danny- I knowwwwwww..BeckyBecky- Sing to me Danny
Danny- Immm.....oh forgot the words(clears throat)
"IIIIIIIIIm dreamin of a......................whiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiite christmassss..just like the one my..grandpappyyy usssseeeeeeeeeed to have" lmao thats when I walked in on his solo debut..whata freak
-on the phone with nicole.
shes crazay
and i cant focus
while im on the
phone
so i have to go-
[ x ] Spell your first name backwards - anuahs
[ x ] The story behind your journal user name - uh. devi0usly..erm..dono really..I SOOO wanted it to be ech0es..or ech0ing...because when I was thinking of a name for my journal I heard the beautiful song by incubus called echo..and I love it..but eh that name was taken or somethig like that...so...im like... cuz like...eh..the end.
[ x ] Where do you live - i to the owa
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - indecisvie : inconsistent : obnoxious : tired
DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Wallet - silver mudd thingy
[ x ] Hairbrush - i cant brush my hair bc its curly..DUH
[ x ] Toothbrush - blue and white..used to have an electric one but the battery ran out and I decided to do things the hard way :/
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - none really anymore..I plan on wearing jewelry as soon as school starts up..bleh
[ x ] Pillow cover - flowery kinda
[ x ] Blanket - which one :\
[ x ] Coffee cup - dont have my very own one/.
[ x ] Sunglasses - black with like eh dark yellowish blackish lenses..small
[ x ] Underwear - right now? are you joking me? uh let me know if you think it really concerns you
[ x ] shoes - none :]
[ x ] Favorite shirt - i dono..i dont really have one right now..I wake up in the morning..throw somethin on and go back to bed..then leave for work :] come home and SLEEP..so I dont have time for favorite clothes
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - lucky..romance..curve..adidas..love spell..tommy girl..cool water..and hawaiin ginger
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - some depressing love sick type mix I made..that kinda thing
[ x ] Tattoos - none yet
[ x ] Piercings - ears
[ x ] What you are wearing now- adidas shorts..black spaghetti strap
[ x ] Hair - medium length..brownish blondish..highlighted..kinda..well i mean I screwed it up bc i did it myself but im going to get it done professionally in like 2-3 weeks
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - my tongue and teeth
[ x ] In my head - nothing
[ x ] Wishing - this stupid boy liked me
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - mary and my sissy :/ ONE MONTH!
[ x ] Is next to you - the door
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - cruel intentions. love and basketball. a walk to remember. alex and emma. romeo and juliet. two can play that game. enough. dirty dancing. drumline. maid in manhattan. etc
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - excersizing
[ x ] The last thing you ate - a popscicle that tasted like cotton candy..mm :] btw what do you call lending money to a bison? A BUFFA-LOAN!! duh
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - ghosts
[ x ] Do you like candles - yes
[ x ] Do you like incense - defineitely
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - eh. not in large amounts..AHAH
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - sometimes..mostly just in movie plots..but who knows
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - eh sometimes
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - depends
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - dont even want to think about it..hmmm burnt to a crisp or shoved in a box underground? decisions decisions
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - myself
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - your mother
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - like 2 and a half days
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - no
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - duh yes
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - uh okay
[ x ] What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to? las vegas, dallas, san antonio, austin, or um..hanalulu :]
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods - popscicles and uhh pickles and stuff
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand? me, and the fact that they can't
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - uh i dono
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time? hm..andrea, amanda, julio, steph, karen..etc
AND:
1. What was the last song you heard? Cursive- the casualty
2. What were the last two movies you saw? analyze that and alex and emma
3. What were the last three things you purchased? popsicles..garlic bread..red bull
4. What four things do you need to do this weekend? get a life, stay on my diet, go to sleep, hang out w/ nicole on friday..something like that
5. Who are the last five people you talked to? brenda..aaron..vicki..tommy..my mom
hey people
long day at work today..super long day...me, dani, trisha, and dan were supposed to finsish the new middle school library..and andy came up after he watched dance team at the high school...and like we got done with that in like an hour...then had NOTHING to do..we helped mr. weymore with some of his shit..because the fucker..these are his words mind you..decided to start his own library...and he had me, dani, and trisha help him with putting his books up.."okay girls we will start with the colonial era...lewis and clark, that kind of thing..just hand them to me"....lmao...we just stand there...ARE YOU JOKING US MR. WEYMORE? asking us to date back to 7th-8th grade history, what kind of crap is that.
So anywho after that I watched trisha and dani put up a bulletin bored..andy read a magazine...and then I sat and watched dan play this game where you match the country with the spot on the map...thrilling...and then we went to the library where we figured we could get some work done...like putting up the index card thing..but of course it was already done and packed away in a box..so we sat down and talked about marching band..then in comes andy and like I had a book in my hand so im like SHIT IS THAT JEFF?! (my boss) and dans like YES...so I like throw the book down..lmao and andy comes in and hes like laughing.."did you think I was jeff??" gah..and hes like what have you guys been doing? obviously nothing...so hes like come down to the choir room..lmao so we like run past rooms with teachers in them so they dont see us...ahaha..and dan and andy played with the piano in the choir room..and me, dani, and trisha layed down on the risers..then andy and dan came over and we all talked for quite some time...then trishas like I didnt bring a lunch today..lets go get something to eat..and wanted andy to go bowling wiht her yahta yahta..so we leave and go to the one place..and eat our lunch..half of our lunch at least and like then pulls up danny and ralph..and they were all going to burger king! so I jump on the bus im like hey you can get me some ice cream..and dannys all like no i cant take you guys..blah blah blah..i got pissed off and get off the bus..go inside and like sit with some of the guys..and then crazy tim came in and hes all like hey shauna! theyre going to burger king and want to know if you want to go with...so I hopped in trishas car..and lmao me, dani, and dan were cramped in her small backseat..gahh..anyway we went to burger king in manawa..then everyones like okay lets waste some time..go to the other burger king..so we get there and danis like hey we saw the the bus at the other burger king so lets go there so shaunas step dad can give her some money..lmao so we drive back..and the bus is gone...gahhhhhhh..anyway so after all that was done and we went back to work (btw danny told crazy tim to have us stay there so i hope he doesnt find out ;x ) anyway we went and helped my aunt and mr..kurt..gah with their band stuff...and ehh after that it was like 2:40 so in a desperate atempt to waste 40 more minutes we went out to the play ground and hopped in the swings..then andy and dan tried to climb the swing set and me, dani, and trisha layed down..then trisha decided to leave 20 mins early because she was so bored..and right when shes gettin ready to leave..jeff pulls up and they talk so the rest of us are freaking out..lmao and were like coming up with this plan to talk our way out of trouble if we get bitched at..but it was all good..jeffs so nice..dan and andy clocked out w/ trisha and they all left..and me and dani sat and talked until like 3:30...so it was an okay day...
got home and did nothing for awhile and my moms all like hey shauna! you wanna do me a favor? go to the store and get some garlic bread for dinner? omfg..seriously before/when you get your liscence youre all like HEY MOM YOU HAVE ANYWHERE YOU NEED ME TO GO FOR YOU? ANY ERANDS?! PLEASE!?!?! but after like a few weeks its no big deal..then it frankly just pisses you off..especially whenyouve had a long tedious BORING day of work...and the guy pulling out of the country club cuts you off and jumps in front of you at the stop sign..then you get to the store and cant find what the fuck you were supposed to get so youre all annoyed..omg.. oh jeesh..time to breathe
lol
so anyway, I work at sears tomorrow..coverin for this girl ashley..her best friend from texas is coming in tomorrow and she has to pick her up at the airport...im all like omg! my best friends comin here from texas too..so crazy..and shes like how do you know her? and im like oh, I used to live in texas..and shes one of these people..right after I said that she goes..NO WAY SHUT UP! lmao shes so hilarious.
anywho..amandas comin here the 19th-27th..its gonna be SO awesome man..I haveno idea what were going to do but eh..ill think of something..and I just realized..I was gonna ask to have that whole week off...but eh...i have 2 weeks of band camp after that..gahhhh shoottttt meeeeeeee..
welp I think Im going to go to bed..lol its 6:20... ;x
adios compadres
hello friends.
ready for an update? I know you is playa.
Hm..trying to think of whats new that you folk dont know and not much really springs to mind. Been workin a lot lately...bringing home the bread. Lots of it for that matter, so I guess this is all paying off. Its good to have something to do during the summer rather than how it has been every summer for me until this point...sitting at home on my ass waiting for danny to get home from work and drive me around...lol...so now Ive advanced to working my ass off every day..and it sucks sometimes because DUH its summer..but I love it...meeting new people, and making money while doing it. Its not as bad as it seems.
But, I have had the craziest experiences with customers at sears..man, Id explain but thats a lot to type. Last night we had a meeting..so I worked..open to close, plus a three hour meeting. We watched this tape..from the sears president..we call him father..lmao jp we dont..but it wa so..just..lmao...and at the end he had us chant.. lmao..i feel so one with my company and my sears family. ;x
I think I might be done working for the school next week..or whenever jeff cuts down on the people, if he does. No one really knows whats going to happen.
Tomorrow morning is the dance teams preview..for what theyre taking to camp..im gonna go and see allison..lol she announced to everyone that we work with...its gonna be cool...lol..shes so awesome, weve been kinda getting to know each other a little better since weve been working t/g...and up until recently we both always thought that the other didnt like us...and finally we just got it all out of the way..and she was saying how like I would never say anything to her except like.. "yah"..."I know"..."mhm".."amen"...lmfao..so we got into some in depth conversations and I think it did some good.
Hm. AMANDAS COMING HERE NEXT MONTH! holy shit Im so excited, I havent seen that girl in 2 years...2 YEARS!!!! omg I dono how we are able to deal with this..we were always hanging out..the type of people who fought simply because we were around each other too much.
Jamies birthday was yesterday.
Man as soon as Im done working for the school..im going to get my nails and hair done..and start tanning. exciting, huh?
Welp..Im going to go watch a movie w/ my mom. Analyze that.
No..thats the movie..not the..eh
:|
Well, well, well..havent been here for quite awhile! Been busy here lately..and even when I do get online Im like eh..I dont feel like typing anything up in this little shin dig. speaking of which im not in the mood anymore..lol im tiredddddddddddddddddddddddddddd ;[
omfg Im so close to jumping off my porch.
but unfortunately its not that high. I hate life. I hate everything and most of all my computer. I xd out of what I had already typed. To shorten it up bc im fucking tired and feel like bawling, me and danny got in a fight, he realllyyyy pissed me off..and some other shits goin on..but thats another story, for some other time. btw dont you hate it when someone flips out on your for doing something, then someone else does it and theyre great for it. Oh yah, me too. Eh fuck it though.Tired of worrying about who thinks what, or who is doing what, or who is mad for what Im telling/ saying to them. Were all big kids, time for us to act like it, right?
FIRST DAY OF SUMMER BREAAAAK!! yee haw :]
I got up at 8:30 today *sigh* lol. I had to go to a meeting at the school for the moving thing...I was worried that Id be like the only girl there..but Allison S. is there~!! But were on different teams..and so are some other girls from our school..Im the only girl on my team, but like its gonna be awesome cuz there are a bunch of funny guys on it..dannys the supervisor for the other team..lol
wellll I went to lunch and did some stuff w/ my mom then we went to get my paycheck and they werent supposed to be in until two..so me and Becky roamed around the mall looking for stuff to buy..and we went back to work and they dont know where the checks are..like theyre not there..sooooooooooooo I was shit out of luck..but maybe itll be in tonight! I hope so..
Danny opened a checking account for me :] :] :] :] :] :] so I get like the little checks and a debit/credit card :] :]
Sooo Im excited. Now Im about to go wash my car ;/ thennnn erm I have no idea what im gonna do.
I went to Amandas last night and Joe and Mike came over.. :] it was funnnnnn~! Tonight I was planning on going to the movies w/ amanda and whoever else but obviously I have no money except for the money my parents put in my account and I dont wanna use that...Beckys gonna check and see if our checks are in and if so I believe Im goin shoppppinnnn :] if the banks still open that is..and..I dono if it will be.. *sigh* I so need some new clothes. and shoes.and makeup. Woe is me.
So guys I need some advice. I still havent gotten a call from Chris, the bowling alley guy. *sigh* and my sisters going bowling Sunday. Should I go?? I was wondering if maybe I should comfront him...but then what would I say. Seriously..no joke, any ideas? anyone? email me...even if youre some strangers, because I know some strangers have been reading my blog..so eh email me...Shaunaaaaa@aol.com
Goin to wash the car now.
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8 fucking hours at work. But..I got paid time and a half since its a holiday. SOO fucking tired though.
No call today.. *sigh* eh my sister said hed be busy last night and tonight so eh well see. Look at this..anyone who doesnt believe in horoscopes should be smacked
Aquarius January 20 - February 18
Could be that you're waiting by the phone, praying that it'll ring. Is this the beginning of the greatest love story ever told? Maybe -- but you shouldn't waste your day waiting for it to start. Get outside -- that's why you have an answering machine!
Today was a pretty good day. I worked for real last night for the first time..im still training..but I was on the floor. It was interesting. I worked a split shift..so I could open and close...so I got home at 9 somethin..then went to bed at like 10:30..anywho graduation was today.. ;[ I cried..as expected...and erm..afterwards went to Laurens and worked on our english project with her and allison...BURNT myself w/ a hot glue gun..it looks reallyyyy gross too :| and its the finger you type stuff in w/ at the cash register..oh well..ill get over it... well after laurens I came home and got ready..and went to the bowling alley with my sister and pat. WOOH LOWDY..at first they didnt think they were going to be able to bowl..because on a few people from their league showed up..but like they practiced and what not...and i was talking to my sister about the guy I talked about before in this thing..named Chris..and like she told Pat to go up there and talk to him~$)(#*()@# I was so scared...but he went up there and was like sayin I thought he was cute or something..and he laughed and pat said he asked how old I was..wanted to make sure I wasnt uner than 16...gah! wellllppp..he started comin over to our table/walkin by..and this one time he came over and was talkin to my sister and pat..on this counter thing...and I was on the phone so I like hung up and stood over there...and then someone went up to the counter so he went and helped them...and my sister told me that she told him I liked him and he was like I know and smiled then ehh she was like well I can give you her number and hes like hang on not yet...and then he came by and told us that there was a graduation party at 9 but we could bowl as long as we wanted..and hes like you too! Bc uh I dont bowl..I watch..lol..so before we left my sister went up there and like..I dono asked if he had a girl friend..and he said kinda..lol and so my sisters like so do you want her number or what?? and he like gave her some paper and was like write it down..and I think thats everything..so eh I dono if hell call..its whatever. If he does thats awesomeeeee..ill fawkin die..but if not..ehhh what can ya do. lol im so nervous that im like extremely calm and moody..cuz actually it wont be cool if he doesnt call.. gah
welp I have to work at ehh..10 tomorrow morning..so Im gonna head off to bed!
adios compadres
<3
[Deftones-Minerva]
IM CRUSHED! Clay lost. ;[ I DEMAND A REFUND. Ruben has an amazing voice though. But still! Clay...is awesome. Give me a second to regain my thoughts :[
Wow its been an awful day. We wont get into that though-
OKAY after escuela..after we erm..jumped my car again (forgot to turn off the lights ;x x; ) after all that stuff I went to Sears to talk to my manager about hours. So uh she scheduled me all day Sunday...and Im like cool-more hours=more money for me and something to do. WELLLL I get half way home and I talk to Becky on the phone and Im like so do you work Sunday? "We have graduation Sunday" UUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH..so I get home and my mom tells me to go back up there and talk to her..because I was just gonna call her on the phone. Thank God shes super nice and was cool w/ it. I work a split shift friday..but that works because Im still gonna get to go to Audras open house :] aww I was talking to her and Im like "Its going to be so so weird without you.." and shes like..."aww Im starting to get sad". I saw her sister running with their dog..it was funny.
I bet Nicoles pissed too about Clay not winning. And Lauren..lmfao shes so hilarious..shes like OMG my screen saver is a bunch of pictures of Clay..I have EVERY song hes sang on the show and some off of the show downloaded...Ive seen EVERY episode of American Idol..etc..shes obsessed. But its all good. Me and her are going to hang out sometime...shes so funny. "AMEN BROTHA"
I just talked to my sis. I think shes goin bowling sunday ;] :] :] :]
this is shauna excited..lol Im all giggly ;x
Me and Allison and Lauren T. are doing this art thing for English..on some scene out of Julius Caesar..were doing a model or something..so erm..any ideas..hit me up~!
___ and trishaaaaa sittin in a treeee..k-i-s-s- iiii -nnn- gggg
first comes love
them comes marriage
then comes a CRAZY LITTLE CHILD in a babbbbyyyyyy carriage :]
oh btw I dont think I mentioned me and my mommy had a heart to heart at dinner :] I think I made her cry. It was great..I mean not that I made her cry..but..yah know. Or maybe you dont. Either way goodnight
<3
im in such a pissy mood. I had to bitch @ my mom to go shopping..because she really didnt want to go..so then I went to work and got like..an hour and a half in.. GAH..then met my mom at old navy and we shopped foor the longest time and like Im so picky...and plus Felicia told me I had to have light blue collered(sp) shirts...so Im lookin everywhere for these damned colored shirts and I found like 2..and some at JC Pennys for like 30$ each..so I didnt get them..because I have to pay my parents back for this and I dont even get paid till next friday so Im not spendin too much..and gah..I go to Sears to look for some shirts and ask around and find out they dont necessarily have to be collered..jeeeeeeesh so by that time I was really worn out so me and my mom left and ate dinner and came home..Beckys prolly gonna go w/ me tomorrow to find some stuff after school/ before I go to work. But I still have to get some shoes too and I have like only 50$ So im accepting donations. JESUS I hate buying my own stuff.
ohhhhhhhhh gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Graduation is Sunday... :|
and uh Ellens open house is Friay..Audra's is Saturday...but I start work on the floor Saturday..so Im gonna be angry if I miss her open house. But thats life.
the roof the roof the roof is on fireeee we dont need nothinnnnn but the ;x ;x ;x and the lightaaaa
so eh..another exciting day. I was gonna go to work @ 11:00..and Danny was gonna wake me up at 9:30 but the crazy fool didnt wake up until 10:30 so I obviously didnt make it at 11.. didnt go till like 1..I sat and did the computer stuff for 5 hours straight..they advise you to only do 3 hours at a time..but im SO eager to get that stuff done. Kate told me she was gonna talk to my manager person about gettin me put on the schedule...and training on the floor..like Wednesay prolly. Sooo me and my mom are gonna go shoppin for clothes tomorrow
yay~! :x I love clothes shoppinnn
except Im going to have to pay them back for all my new clothes..I think GAHHHHHHH
go dl "Send the Pain Below" by Chevelle. I <3 this song. Its my favorite :|
ehh so schools almost out.. thank God...well kinda..I dont want to get my report card...I hate school. (sigh)
So erm I have nothing interesting in here to write..
nothing exciting going on. My sister was supposed to talk to the hott guy for me today but of course they didnt go..I have such bad luck. Oh well, he wouldve probably been like..UH NO...and Id cry and be depressed, so I guess it all works out! Ill check a lot of guys out at work..HAHAHA GET IT? AGAIN? :[ Im so pathetic. Excuse me while I go hang myself.
Jp btw
hey kids..just got up :] I slept SO good last night. (Sigh) but now I have to get up...and get ready and go to work. Gah..i really hope I get done with my training today..I cant wait to go on the floor..for training I just sit @ this computer and pretend to be checking people out. lmfao. Thats what I do. Good job, eh? yah so I dono what to wear... :/ uuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhh
yah, I dont feel like typing anymore..so erm...ill wml unless I go bowlin w/ my sis.
adios
because i thought this picture was pretty, laura of mewing.net told me this: "it seems you enjoy dancing, drinking, eating, orgies, and expensive perfume. you're the type of person who buys brand-name socks--but you are also the type of person who has been electricuted by the toaster at least seven times. you were at the top of the class in elementary school, but faltered in junior high, because you didn't understand algebra. your favorite singer, suprisingly, is prince, and in your spare time you can be found tinkering with broken calculators and atari home videogame units."
whatever will laura tell you??
I hate how people think theyre more mature than other people just because their older. Age isnt anything but a number and some of us are acting our shoe size not our age. Except me because my shoe size is my age.
Anyway I personally hate how Becky goes in everyday to the band room and tells everyone all of our life stories...and secrets..and backstabs us. Gossipping with the band and choir teachers..clearly. She OBVIOUSLY should be devoting her every second to all of us at our lunch table. I can tell you one thing shes obviously a HORRIBLE person for going to the band room.
Back stabbings becoming a popular phrase around these parts. Practice what you preach..that goes for all of us. Its funny how you talk about people hearing one side of the story..and taking friends aside and talking shit but I would put money on the thought that you guys were talkin a lot of shit after Becky trotted off to do her own backstabbing. Dewd..grow up.
Fuck this shit. How old are we? Your right..your head is out of your ass..and constantly up everyone elses. Youre not anymore "wise" than the rest of us..dont pull that holier than thou bullshit, its not workin all too well.
[Godsmack-Straight out of line]
okay so it started hailing and raining after school- does god hate us high school kids or what? lol jp of course.
RANT OF THE DAY
One more cousin comment and Ill slap someone. No joke. Sure, I joke about it...but it happened to ME. Not anyone else. Making fun of myself for it is my way of coping with it...and its still a sensitive subject for me. When
Yo. High School is so crazy. Someday were going to look back on all of this and laugh. Thats the only reason I keep getting involved in this shit.
Rants-
I havent talked to Amanda or Jamie for a long time. I listened to the Uhaul song today and got all teary. Still dont even know where Jamie is...shes online right now but its either not her..or she forgot to close AIM..cuz this is the conversation so far
Shaunaaaaa [6:54 PM]: HEY
So..yah. I called Amanda and Andrea on Mother's Day..but neither answered. Eh..
I hate it when people feel the need to critisize other people for something when they do things equally bad or worse. And Im not going to exclude myself because Im sure someones got some example of me doing the same thing. But if someone going to have the nerve to bitch me out for doing something and have some shit of their own up their sleave..thats not going to work too well. (Btw Im just RANTING..even though we have things semi worked out- it happens to other people too.)
Another thing. Why do we judge each other? I know me and all of my friends dont like the people who think their God's gift to the world..so why do we act like that to people we consider "lower" than us? Half of the people were calling bitchy and stuck up probably either think the same about us..or arent even the way we percieve them to be. Its so childish for us to keep putting people down...I dono does anyone believe in Kharma? Because I know a few of my friends have erm...givin me the line "what goes around, comes around"..and somethin about what you do comes back to you 3 fold..er something like that. So how can you say that to me but belittle other people because of the way they look...or act? None of us have been put in a situation where were superior to anyone else. And people wonder why those "quiet" loner type of people lash out on people..or commit suicide..hell I would too if no one accepted me..and made fun of me..and never took the initiative to get to know me...and I dont mean to exclude myself from this because I know Im not innocent..but Ive been noticing more than ever how badly we treat people...and not one of us is better than the other at all..no one has the right to JUDGE anyone in any type of way. Not your friends, family, and especially not a stranger.
Schools not out yet. GAH
Some people who are sarcastic towards everyone and their mom shouldnt take things so seriously. If I have a sarcastic relationship with someone..Im going to be sarcastic.
Sarcasm 2 a : a mode of satirical wit depending for its effect on bitter, caustic, and often ironic language that is usually directed against an individual
omfg. (dies) Ive had a great afternoon. I went w/ my sis and her bf and 2 of their friends to the bowling alley. My sister pointed out this HOTT..omfg so hotttt guy who works there that she knows...and we go up there and I ordered food for dinner and etc..and im like oh gahhh..drooling..and Im like hey how old is he? and shes like hm I dono. So she asks and hes like 45..and shes like no seriously..and hes like how long have you known me? you should know. And hes like guess..so she guessed 18..and he said no..turns out hes gonna be 20 in 2 months..but anywho..we stayed there for a long time..which was greeeatt lol and then this girl got there and we thought it was his gf..so when we were gettin ready to leave he was sittin at a table w/ this girl and he walked up to my sis and they were whispering..and im like UH OKAY ITS TIME TO GO LYNN..lol and we leave and well..he asked her why she asked how old he is..and shes like well she wanted to know..and hes like ohhh yah? how old is she? and my sis is like jailbait...and hes like so? how old..and shes like 16..and i think thats when i said we had to go (kicks myself) and hes like okay..and sat down.. GAHHH lmao well after that we went to my moms work to take her mothers day stuff..and im like lynn! lets pretend we forgot my cell there and you can ask him if 16 is too young..but she said they close early sundays and he wouldnt even be there..so shes gonna talk to him next sunday...god hes so hott. (dies again) guys..feel sorry for me..really sorry :*[ *******
night
<3
BTW the comment thing wont work for me..lmao..grr
lmfao. Becky told the guy we have a crush on that one of her friends is like in "love" w/ him.. lol ;x I feel like such a jr high kid. But eh he really wanted to know who and why she wouldnt tell him so I told her to say bc "she" knew it wasnt realistic..lmao GAHHH! butterflies :| its okay though. Its one of those things only your friends get to know and stuff :x (sigh) lmao this is so fun~
lol amanda just called and asked for math homework...but im dumb. so im sorry that im not helpful :[
I guess I should try to stay awake in math class more often, eh :/
So tomorrow I have my first job interview EVER! Isnt that creepy? yah well..its going to be hard to convince them to hire me bc there are some complications. But eh, well see.
Shit. Im supposed to call my brother. But um, Im just staring at the phone...okay..been starin at the phone for the past 3 minutes now...I wonder if it will slide over to me and dial the number..hell..maybe even talk for me :[
Its weird talking to him on the phone..hell be like.."HEY HUN! HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? HOWS (not many people in my family practice good english..clearly) MOM AND DANNY? HOWS SCHOOL?" And that last parts where he usually loses my focus. Because, he dropped out of HS when he was in 11th grade- like a dumbass. So uh hell try to be all like "dont make the same mistakes that I did!" yet..he hasnt changed at all..so..he..gah hes just frustrating. He got married to this girl hes not even known half a year..probably like half of half of a year..and after you do the math..lol..thats not too long. That makes me sick. Im never going to be like that..I hope at least. Both my brother and sis dropped out of school..my sister in 10th grade..and when she was like 19-20 she got married to this guy..who was an ex convict..and they had a kid...then she moved back here..and met this other guy..and they had a kid..and NOW shes had another kid with the current guy. Hes not too bad I suppose- he kinda..worries me sometimes though. Anywho..my brothers now married as well..and workin at Taco Bell..he doesnt even have a car. So erm..being the youngest..who I always thought steryotypically was the least succesful..I have to be the most sucessful in terms of..career..living situation..all that. Dont get me wrong..my sis and brother are both really great..and my sister has the cutest kids and I love them to death..and thats the kind of life she wanted- and shell be succesful..but not for herself..for her kids...I dono thats just not for me..
anyway enough.
So. Jamies still not back. I decided a couple wks ago that since shes..missing..I wont write to her anymore..then it came to me in math class (thats the class where I think about my life...because..its too hard to pay attention to the teacher ;x ) anyway..im going to write to her everyday. And if and when I talk to her again..ill send them to her..and I thought..what if she dies or something..because as far off as that might sound..ive been setting myself up for these kinds of circumstances since 8th grade..i can like..do something special with them or something, yah know?
So, Gibby got a new job! In like oskaloosa er something.. lmao me and becky were like..hey gibby we should go to another movie! (we saw him and mrs. k @ the movies one time) and hes like yah!!!!!! Well..OH..Im going out of town this wknd..and next wknd..hm how about graduation wknd?! lmfao and were like SURE! and hes like what do you want to see? And Becky told him she wants to see that stupid fish show..lmfao ;x
gahh everyones getting sick :[ my sister has strep throat..jesusss..she has her tonsils out too :|
WELP. im done
<3
*dies* I love Dashboard Confessional. Phew Christopher Carrabba...im going to marry you..(faints)
anywho..so um. BRENDAS GOING TO SEE GC AND NEW FOUND GLORY. Brenda *whimpers*..you love me right? ;[ TAKE ME
oh crap were gonna watch fear.com..woohooo...w/m/l
HM so. Went to Beckys after schoo and then to Sears..where I applied...and eh the thing told me to go back for an interview!@%^* Yay :] But eh the lady told me to come back Thursday...good thing bc I was lookin like a scrub today. Erm..I look like a scrub everyday, huh :[ Well anywho-
welp Ill post later..Trisha wants me to take a gander at her journal. :]
buh bye
Well I havent got much time to post right now..bc im DEAD tired..and about ready to hit the sack :| gotta get up earlay so Becky can do the hair ;[ so much work.
OKAY I DONT SEE ANYONE COMMENTING. Snap to it. Maybe im losing customers ;[ ..ill lower my price..as long as you comment!
night people
<3
Last phone call: on the hellophone with becky right now~
Last TV show watched: Road Rules/Real World challenge :]
Last Item Bought: eh like a slushy @ sonic w/ becky..er I think
Last time showered: last night :|
Last shoes worn: docs
Last CD played: a mix hot lips gave me :*
Last downloaded: a catrillion songs-for ex- get low-lil jon/ The eastside boyz, Rock n Roll-Trick Daddy, Maching head-Bush..etc etc
Last annoyance: this guy I was driving behind..going fuckin 30 in a 40 zone
Last disappointment: myself
Last soda drank: diet pepsi
Last thing written: a poem
Last key used: m ^
Last word spoken: "fuck"..duh
Last question asked: "How was prom?"
Last trip to the bathroom: a few hours ago I guess? dont usually record the times :|
Last sleep: in Spanish class :]
Last IM: to danny..er GAH no! to justin..both l like at the same time :|
Last person to say "I love you": my friend danny
Last person to give you a compliment: Justin ;x
Last sexual fantasy: urg ;x ?
Last weird encounter: YOUR FACE
Last Store Shopped at: Maurices/Claires
Last ice cream eaten: oh man its been awhile..I dont even know
Last time amused: everay second of my life is amusing :|
Last time wanting to die: eh yesterday
Last time in love: like it just goes away out of nowhere..the last time I let myself admit it was last summer- that boy should die :|
Last time hugged: 30 mins ago- my mom
Last time scolded: 2 mins ago
Last time resentful: always!
Last chair sat in: the one i'm in?
Last underwear worn: uh...the ones i have on
Last shirt worn: pink spaghetti strap
Last class attended: global issues..woowwee :]
Last Final taken: um..that would have to be..a spanish final
Last time dancing: dont remember
Last time sick: right now :| :|
Last poster looked at: this one of eminem amanda gave me- rawwrr
Last concert attended: .gah
Last webpage visited: blurty.com
The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
Even though I know- I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold- like old job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got
When you feel the same
Even though I know- I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold- like old job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was an only son
Tell me I'm the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved
okay so, tell me im not a fucking genius and ill probably slap you :] I just fixed my comment thing which means..you folk can comment on my lovely journal :] and Ill be able to read it and comment back~!#%*$# Please be nice and not annonymous.. I dont want to have to fawk anyone up. jp. I <3 you all! Most of you anyway :]
heh
n-i-g-h-t
Well Ill be damned if I havent posted for quite awhile. Its been such an interesting week...so tiresome. Ive gotten half the ammount of sleep young kids like me need in a week :| Obviously, if you know anything- scratch that, if youre supposed to know anything..you know what this weeks been like. For you fortunate folk who are clueless- its been awful. Ever been worried about a friend..then told them..had them get mad at you..and ended up feeling really bad, and sorry for it? Yahh, me neither. Almost had you fooled :] Well- I wont go into great detail because ill probably get bitched at for tellin everyones business. Basically..me, allison, and becky were worried about amanda and jeff- and finally got the courage up to voice our opinions..and eh it caused many problems. Everyones on a different page, I swear its hard for all of us to think alike being as how were all so..complex. We try, but sometimes thats not good enough. So its been mass confusion, basically.
Good highlights of the week-
Monday- me and Becky went to burger king then to the mr. lc contest..which was fawkin hilarious- gah this one guy is sooo cute..the new object of me and Becky's obsession (droolsss) WOOOHHH MAMAAA hes hott
Tuesday- TIM DOC! Dewd the guy is amazing- I had such a great time. He really puts you in your place..as to whether or not you really can lead people..it was great..were prolly goin to see him again this summer :]
Thursday- Slept in late ;] ..didnt even get in trouble..when I made my way to school me and KJ walked around for awhile before I went to English..it was nice..we havent talked for such a long time. Anywho..got to 3rd hour and ole Langy was makin everyone stand on chairs and talk about something and see how many people they could get to listen to them. Sounds like a lunatic, huh? Well, she definitely is. One day she busted out a voodoo doll- threw it in the middle of the room and had us read a poem to it. Im convinced shes building a cult :|
Today- eehhh Langy wasnt at school so me and Allison got to talk basically all hour..then eh we went to the old HS and yahta yahtaaaaa..DEWD Beckys mom was at school for her work..so we went upstairs and she hooked us up w/ some pizza :] nice, eh? mhm. Then after school..we went to Leslies and she let me borrow a dress..then went back to school..Becky took her car home..then we went to the mall..oh man it was hilariousss..we were in line at Target..and theres this girl in front of us..and after awhile she starts talking to her mom about nicole and ash...and im like..dewd..thats..definitely Nicoles friend Kim from Clarinda..er some place like that..and Becky started to recognize her..and Ashley came up and started workin a different register...and the girl is like Hey Ash! Call Cole for me!...and finally im like stunned because I thought..it was hilarious..what a coinsedence..lol Nicole talks about this girl all the time..so I called Nicole and told her... it was funny :|
Then eh..once again me and Becky ate at Burger King..lol and eh drove around a bit..and I took her home..and me and Danny went to the store and I got some new makeuppppp<3333
Now Im talkin to Andrea..not much really goin on. I feel so bad because Jeff invited us to go to this concert thing er..I believe it was a concert but I asked my parents and they wouldnt let me :| cuz it was like 20$ er somethin and etc. So once again Amanda prolly thinks Im ditching her. But oh well. BLee called Becky and asked her if we wanted to go to the drive in..couldnt exactly do that either. I have to get up early tomorrow and go shopping :| then go apply at some places and shit..goin to chinese for lunch w/ becky..then shes doin my hair and vice versa for tomorrow night. Itll be an eventful day. Hopefully itll make up for a shitty week...really hopin next week goes a lot better..Im tired of all the fighting :/ but I suppose its essential. In any case its frustrating..and I hate it..and Im really lookin to have all of us hang out more often, and thats not going to happen if uh we cant get along..right? :| of course Im right.
Oh gah- we went to my brothers apartment last..eh Sunday I believe? Hes so strange..we had to drop some of his belongings off..and I swear he lives out in the fuckin booneys. lmfao I looked in their fridge to see if theyre drinkin..and eh didnt notice any. THANK GOD, my brothers not mentally stable enough to be sober when hes not even drunk- Id hate to see him fucked up. :/ Crazy kid.
SO hey listen to what an idiot I am-
I call Andrea the other day..out of nowhere really..and shes tellin me how her, mary, and amanda went to dinner..so Im like, thats awesome-nice bonding going on there...and a ways into the convo she says somethin about Sam bringin over her present..and Im like oh yah? For what?..and she laughs..and says my birthday..
and at that point Im practically ready to go jump off my porch...(the whole..6 feet down) I felt like such a moron..and jerk..how do you forget a best friends birthday? Easily in my world. Isnt that awful? Im sure Ive got everyones vote for worst friend now ;[ Im really pilin em up- considering Im a horrible person and all. Lmfao-sorry-not tryin to piss anyone off-really...just thought that was funny :| Youre probably ready to jump through the screen and strangle me now. My bad.
Anywho. Did I ever mention Jamie ran away? Yah. Supposedly somewhere in Lousiana- or so I heard from Walter..I think she ran off with this..20 something year old guy named Fabio. First of all- what in the hell could possess a person to run off with someone named Fabio? I could handle a Bobby..or Charlie..hell even a Junior- and thats definitely at the suicide level on my name rating list..but Fabio!? What on Gods green earth is she thinking. Okay, Im most definitely jk :| I dont give a shit what the guys name- in any case I would love for him to have his balls cut off. What an asshole he must be- actually what an asshole he is. Shes told me a couple things about him..and if I were there I swear- Id stangle the bastard. I hope she comes back soon..
I called her mom and Easter and she told me she knows where she is and that shed have her call me asap..that was almost 2 weeks ago..
hmm soo..what else is goin on..
Top 5 things youll never hear a man say-
"Does this suit make me look fat?"
"Sex is overrated"
"I just cant get enough of this new Celine Dion CD!!"
"Theres nothing I like better than crawling into bed with a good book."
"Whats on lifetime?"
Fact of the day- butterflies taste with their feet :]
dannys hollerin for me to go to bed. Dont have to tell me twice :]
<3333
Drea [11:35 PM]: shut up
Drea [11:36 PM]: with your baby ears
Drea [11:36 PM]: ;p
[Busta Rhymes feat. Mariah Carey- I know what you want]
Jeeeesh this is my jam, on the realll :] lol. SO, its been such an exciting, what- week? yah, almost. Yesterday I got really sick during 4th hour :| went home..I was so dizzy I thought I was like going to pass out on the way home- yuck :/
anywho..I slept FOREVER..then got in trouble this morning for waking up late. gah-
I cleaned my car- its shiny as fuck dewd~! Took forever though. Welp, applied at a catrillion places..Well see how that goes :\ ....sooo me and amanda and erin went to allisons..the chef lady had made dinner and we made it in time fo the vegetable plate ;x lol errr we went to blockbuster, we were there for seriously like an hourrr..not really..but..lmfao erin wore this PIMP fawkin shoes- it was AMAZINGGG..anyway, we got The Ring and Bourne Identity...and got some candy x; thennn we got some fity cent ice cream at the gas station..lmfao..went to allisons, amanda left w/ jeff..then we watched the movie- which was awesome btw..go watch it..NOW~
after we watched that..we uhh pretended we were at prom..w/ allisons dad's keyboard..played some phat beats..lmfao I did some interpretive dancing, then allison and erin did too..and goooddd lowdy then we found the dress up stuff..lmfao they have TONS of crazy stuff...we took pics..soo uh I bet everyone cant wait to see those huh ;x then we pretended to be cheerleaders..thats really gotta be tough..its never hurt so badly smiling..
well, now Im here. With nothing to do. But that is quiiiiiite alright :] Im very content. I feel like watching 8 mile, but sadly...we had to take it back today ;[
oh gah, I <3 this song..21 questions.. "if i fell off tomorrow would ya still <3 me, if i didnt smell soo good would ya still hug meee if i got locked up and sentenced till a quarter centuryyy could i count on you to be there to supporttt me mentally" aw this song is so awesomeeee go dl it.
lol when I got home danny was like "smell her breath!!! are her eyes bloodshot!!" :|
I wonder what everyone is doin right now. AW I saw beckys hair and dress and make up all that shiz- she looked so cute! lol aww! My little becky is growin up so fast! lmao
lol okay..leslies bitched at me bc i had her sweater and it was her little sisters...so I bring it to her and she leaves it in the f'n lunchroom- whatttt..lol amanda wore it today, lmfao its like 35 sizes too big for her..lol
so hmm..OH Allison and like Erin and Justin...and 2482 other people tried out for this thing..where you go to NY next summer for choir- I hope they make ittt! Then Ill be a roady ;x
Welp..better update bf the comp freezes up..wml
Hoppy Easter. WAHAHAHA :]
Well, its been a hellish weekend- but fun nonetheless. We put in new flooring Thursday and Friday which actually meant that I slept while the floor guy put the floor down- so everything worked out well. Friday night we were all supposed to go to see Anger Management- but that didnt work out too well- but we wont go into that. Long story. Anywho- me and Becky ended up going to Burger King- we thought wed say hi to Justin, but of course he wasnt there. Lol, that wouldve been pretty funny though. :/ Welllllllllllll after that, we rolled on over to Walgreens.. which was a big excitement all in itself- we thought Josh would be there- but he wasnt..that wouldve been weird..lol...anyway..we spend like 15 minutes trying to decide what candy to get- took a look at the Easter candy- fuck, the Easter Bunny must be a drug dealer or pimp to have enough money to pay for that shit.
Wellllll we got some of these energy drinks (which btw were disgusting- but in a good way?) and then went to the movies and saw Chicago. Best movie- go see it. NOW. Afterwords we saw ole' Gibby w/ Mrs. K..lol it was funnnnnny.
Hm so then yesterday I spent the night at Beckys- lmao. GOOD TIMES MAN. The night took an angry turn when we got in a HUGE ASS fight w/ Amanda. lol God, being over dramatic teenagers is definitely a tough job. Im so fed up with everything that Im just like- Fuck everything. It works-
Anyway, gah Im such a slacker :/ I need to WM in this thing. Ill do it later- very tired right now.
I DEFINITELY hate the world right now. Im extremely pissed off about a lot of things right now...and im not one of those people who think the world is out to get them or anything...but I swear to God this weeks not looking so great. I type in this thing for like over 30 mins...and right as Im typing "My computers a pos and the past two times Ive tried to post it freezes up and I lose everything," guess what happens. Mhm. So FUCK YOU TOO COMPUTER.
Anyway, I shut down my computer and go and ask my mom to type in the pw to my comp..and she says no..because shes been bitching at me since 10 to go to bed...which reallyyyy pisses me off...thats another story...so I flipped out and im like "I HATE YOU"...and my step dad has always punished me (well when I was little) for saying that to someone...its just something we never say..and so my mom was like.."WHAT?!?!" and im like, " I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!" and went to my room and turned on my cd player really loud and she starts flipping out so I turned it down and laid down on my bed and started screaming...then finally I came out and asked her to put me on here for 5-10 mins and she did. So here I am. One very pissed person- sorry, nothing happy to read about today. Soooooooo maddddddddddddddddddd.
Welp, better get going before my babysitter comes to check on me.
This thing. Its long, but read it. NOW BITCH. Jp :[ Im sorry.
No really. I am.
readyyy go
[name] Shauna
[home] Desoto Tx :]
[age] 16~! FINALLY!
[birthday] 2/18
[grade] sophomore
[class of] 05'..ut oh..big dawgs..lol. sissy :]
[sign] Aquarius
[eye color] hazelish greenish..eh..blue someday!
[hair] ehh dark blonde/light brown...kinda half dyed..half highlighted..ehhh
[bf/gf] no tengo. boys are trouble.
[school] Lc..the land of make believe!
[clothing style] eh yah know..grab somethin outta the closet..er, well its not that easy..im actually really obsessive and change my clothes like 5 times (on average) before I decide on something. Anyhow..
[pets] Cat..Punkin...4 dogs...sassy, ginger, baby, molly
*favorites*
[band] No doubt, Dashboard Confessional, Bush, Silverchair, Switchfoot
[music genre] rap..rock..everything
[color crayon] that cerulean color..its blue :/ ..and sky blue..and midnight blue..and pink
[juice flavor] strawberry bananna
[cereal] capn crunch..me and jamie used to eat it in the big cups ;x lol member that one time we were eatin it and you drew a picture of me on a paper towel! lmao
[jolly rancher flavor] apple..id fight a kid for an apple jolly rancher :/ mmmmmm
[skittle flavor] sour pink ones..er orange
[color m & m] blue :]
[kind of cookie] the ones with white chocolate chips..er whoever :/
[hangout] ..the..band room!? lol..nah, eh..I dono..anywhere?
[day] Wednesday or Friday
[month] February..or July
[season] fall..its so perty :/ but I love the summer too
[shoes] adidas
[restaurants] the texas roadhouse..lol..CHICKEN CRITTER SALAD! I told you it was good amanda :|...and eh...lmfao ole' chow line...(not really though) and eh chinese places :/
[cars] escalades, durangos, mustangs..dodge vipersss yayyy
[star wars character] ew
[simpsons character] santas little helper ;x
[kitchen appliance] eh those mixer things..blenders actually.
[color of lava lamp] Pink
[person to talk to online] whoevever
[person to talk to on the phone] everyone! if im on the phone its usually w/ amanda..or nicolay er allison
[memories] oh gosh, so many..the first that came to mind though, was when..jamie painted her nose with red fingernailpolish (thats not all one word..is it?!) lmao so me and amanda SAVED her life! Then we colored our noses with BRIGHT RED lipstick...and cleaned the house..swept the pool..made a tower of pop cans ( I didnt think I could ever look at another can again..lol) made the rat a jenga block house!!!!!....made coffee...and then threw a stuffed animal and brush at the wall and woke amandas mom up..ROFL..Coffee?! Cream?! Sugar!?! LMAO OMFG...and then when we re created it with drea..and she was the photographer~!!!! right before I moved! LMAO...THE TOAST AND COFFEE..omg...lol im going to cry.. ;[ moving on..
*this or that*
[boxers or briefs?] boxers
[plaid or striped?] ehhh plaid
[urban legend or the faculty?] eh both are good..but I was like obsessed with the faculty cuz uhh..josh hartnett...woooohhhhh
[star trek or star wars?] UH.no.
[alt or rap?] ehh :| prolly rap
[ska or punk?] punk
[classical or country?] country <3 COUNTRY MUSIC IS SO PRESSIN! lol..good times
[salt or pepper?] ew I hate pepper.
[coke or pepsi?] coke...lil cherry coke..lil cherry pepsi..aww sissy:]
[dr. pepper or mr. pibb?] EW...gahhhh yuck
[sprite, slice, or 7-up?] slice or sprite..or..7 up if thats all there is :/
[skittles-original, tropical, or wildberry?] UM sour
[m & m's-regular, peanut, peanut-butter, or almond?] eh, peanut butter
[hershey's-hugs or kisses] hugs :]
[jolly ranchers or jolly rancher bubble gum?] ehhh..jolly ranchers
[v-8 or hi-C?] uh..bc theyre completely opposite...uhh hi-c I suppose
[ken or barbie?] Ken cuz I used to have this one where you could shave his beard and put old spice on him..and then it would grow back..etc :]
[bleh or blah?] bleh
[okay, ok, or o.k.?] okay..I hate when people say.. o.k. UHHHH
[mono or stereo?] stereo
[shake or stir?] shake..while stirring..er..
[pens, crayons, pastels, or colored pencils?] MARKERS :|
[bright colors or dark colors] bright
[snap,crackle, or pop?] pop
[half-empty or half-full?] half full
[adidas, nike, fila, or reebok?] adidas..jamie, lmao I still have your shoes..like the white ones w/ the black..line..thingys..the adidas! ahahaha
[sunshine or rain?] rain prolly
[rain or snow?] rain
[sun or moon?] moon
[silver or gold?] silver
[frogs or toads?] oh yuck..neither
[cds or cassettes?] cds
[wild or mild?] er..mild
[rupaul or dennis rodman?] dennis rodman definately
[bsb or nsync?] uhh nsync I suppose
[keyboards-the normal kind or the separated kind?] uh..getting too hi-tech on me...the normal kind?
*short answer*
[left handed or right handed?] right handed
[are you smart?] eh..not exactly..lol
[whats your middle name?] Hasia Nicole
[how many personalities do you have?] I believe..one..but.. lol I have constand mood swings though if that counts for anything
[how many piercings do you have?] ..my ears :/
[tattoos?] none yet..gonna get a 5 on my ankle w/ manda
[do you like v-8?] eh
[what was your first word?] my mom doesnt remember....probably..fuck!..or something along those lines :] jp..I wish though! that would be awesome
[are you superstitious?] sometimes
[do you read your horoscope?] only religiously
[do you believe in that stuff?] definately..sometimes its pretty creepy how right they are
[can you do a cartwheel?] sure but not without breaking my leg or something
[do you have bangs?] GOD no. Back in the day i did..I looked like I was 10 for like 5 years..gahhh
[can you drive?] yes, praise the LOWD
[what do you drive?] my car :/
[do you lick your envelopes or use a sponge?] wtf..are there really people who use a sponge? Yes, I lick the stamp..even though it tastes disgusting and like..after so many its like 10 calories er somethin
[do you keep a journal?] not habitually..sometimes I write in one
[what languages do you know?] Uh..english..some spanish
[what's the best awards show?] mtv vmas..yessaaa
[do you like cotton candy?] sometimes..I like the pink kind :]
[do you like pina coladas?] yesss..and getttinnnn caught in the raiiinnn..holy shit.
[what do you sleep in?] my pjs :]
[how many pillows do you have?] like..5..but I use 2 at a time
[how many cds do you have?] I have no idea..I recently lost like 30-50 of them..*jumps off a cliff* :|
[how many times have you moved houses?] oh man...from my aunts to dannys apartment..from there to our house on south 17th..then we lived in a motel for like a long time..I cant remember if it was 3 wks or 3 months..lmao ;x..then into our house one jefferson ave..I MISS THAT HOUSE SO MUCH..my pool :[ .....gah...then here..on...MOHAWK street..gotta beautiful cornfield view in front...
[is your room messy?] always..so I always have to clean it
[do you like your handwriting?] sometimes
[do you like to fingerpaint?] definately
[do you sleep with a stuffed animal?] yah
[do you sleep with socks on?] I cant sleep with my socks on..unless im really tired..it bugs me
[are you ticklish?] yes
[is your house 1, 2, or 3 floors?] eh..1
[do you have a basement or an attic?] uh neither
[did you go to preschool?] yep
[are you a morning person?] fuck no
[do you like classical music?] sometimes
*hard questions*
[would you rather be tall or short?] tall
[would you rather burn to death or freeze to death?] oh god..just stick me in a big glob of icey hot why dont you :|
[do you think guys or girls have it easier?] guys of course
[would you eat a bowl of live crickets for $40,000?] doubtful
[if you had a band what would you name it?] UMM..gah..me and amanda have a band :| what is itttttttt..I dont remember..ghetto somethin.. :/ my memory fails me..GHETTO LOBSTER..I think?
[gonna go to college?] yes..hopefully to UT
[where do you want to live?] Texas
[if you had to dye your hair right now, what color would you make it?] golden blonde
[if you had to get a body piercing right now where would it be?] cartlige
[if you had to get a tattoo right now, what would it be?] the # 5
[if you were gonna be stuck on a deserted tropical island forever with one other person who would you want it to be?] fuck you i dont know
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01. what do you think of the way you look? bleh
02. what do you think about your attitude? it fluctuates..sometimes, scratch uh most of the time Im really bitchy
03. what do you think about the first person that loved you? uh
04. what do you think about karma? creepy
05. what do you think about love? most wonderful thing in the world..well..sometimes. But sometimes it makes you want to slit your wrists. Depressing, am I not?
06. what do you think about fate? I dono..I believe in it?
07. what do you think about yourself? I think Im.."different"..but I guess everyone thinks theyre different so in reality im just another dull person. Like everyone else. Back to phase one.
08. what do you think about the french? GAHHHHH!!!! bastards! Jp. ;/ but I definetely order freedom fries these days
09. what do you tell yourself when times get hard? go to sleep
10. what would you give your life for? a lot of things?
11. what was the saddest moment of your life so far? this one time when I was little and I saw my my bawling when we were driving somewhere..long long long time ago...and when I moved..Ive never cried so much in my entire life
12. what would life be without friends? it wouldnt be life
13. what would life be without family? impossible
.about dreams
14. do you dream a lot at night? yes
15. do you dream in black and white, or colour? color..wtf do people spell color, "colour" anyway?
16. do you remember any of your dreams? some of them
17. where is your dream make-out spot? I dont know? I dont like FANTASIZE about making out
18. what is your dream kiss like? how could you explain that? Id say..not agressive and sloppy and all that..thats just hornyness. Its gotta be sweet...hence, DREAM kiss
19. what is your dream job? gah, I wish I knew
20. where is your dream house? no where bc it hasnt been built yet
21. do you think i'm too sexy for milan, new york and japan? huh
.do you ..
27. .. write in a journal or diary? journal
28. .. keep an organizer? hell no..nothing I have or do involves the word organize
29. .. believe in love at first sight? yes
30. .. believe that every person has one soul mate? yes
31. .. believe in having a good education? uh..wtf? sure
32. .. believe in horoscopes? yesss
33. .. believe in yourself? ehh..sometimes.
34. .. shower daily? yes
35. .. like this survey so far? sure
36. .. like the person that sent you this/posted this? I dont know them..I copied it off someones site bc I was bored..but it NEVER ENDS
37. .. cry easily? yes
38. .. believe in heaven / hell? dono..sometimes
39. .. believe in god? ^
40. .. believe in angels/ghosts or other such things? yes
.favorites
41. day of the week: wednesday, friday
42. ice-cream: ehhh dono..m & m
43. movies: Dirty Dancing, Love and Basketball, Cruel Intentions, A Walk to Remember, Life as a House, Monsters Inc, Fools Rush in, Lilo and Stich ;x , Road to Perdition, Romeo and Juliet, DRUMLINE!!!!, and uhh Bringin down the house..which I just saw tonight..HOWS YO PIMP HAND!? lmaooo
44. actors: EDDY GRIFFIN! Shane West <3333, Tom Hanks, Ryan Philipee..SO HOT <3 , Paul Walker,
45. actresses: Reese Witherspoon, Christina Appelgate, Julia Stiles
46. quote: I have a catrillion
47. holiday: My bday
48. season: fall/winter
49. colors: blue and pink
50. flowers: white rose
51. school subject: ...does band count?
52. town: desoto..well, back in the day when I lived there it wasnt my favorite..but now it is :/
53. country: uh
54. drink: mountain dew I spose..OOH sherley temples :] mmm
55. food: salad w/ pickles
56. thing to wear: pjs and a hoody
57. music: everything..but mostly rap
58. page on the internet: lyric pages..AND the peanut butter jelly song page..ITS PEANUT BUTTA JELLY TIME!
59. place in your house: eh, my bed
60. animal: puppy :]
.relationships
61. crush/boyfriend/girlfriend's name: Crush..you guys know
62. what is a big turn on for you? eh stuff
63. where does that special someone live? uh here?
64. things you like in the opposite sex? personality..humor
65. when was your first kiss? when I was like 6 ;x
66. do you ever look at yourself in the mirror and start crying? not here lately?!
67. the most fucked up thing you've ever done to get someones attention is? uumm im not sure
68. which is more important - personality or looks? personality
69. favorite position, top or below? :x IN THE MIDDLE.. rawrrr
70. have you had sex? clearly not!
.creative questions
71. if you had the chance to speak with william shatner what would you say to him? ..beam me up scotty?
72. what color do you think best describes you and why? yellow..because..yellow reminds me of funiness..and IM FUNNY!!()%#)(@ ..sometimes..er :/ maybe..not?! stfu i am too.
73. if you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing? definately sleeping..or hangin out w/ friends
74. does the idea of leprechauns scare you? ew :| reminds me of YOUR FACE :|
75. have you ever wanted to make someone cry for no reason? yah :X ;/
76. have you ever written on a mirror? yes...is there any relevance in this question?
77. if you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why? sleep more. Wear shorts. Get up earlier. Kept my COOOOLLLL. Taken 30 more cents to the ice cream place so I coulda got a small bannana strawberry shake instead of a mountain dew.
78. do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed: ive never..slept oustide beneath the night sky..that sounds so dramatic..gahh
79. what is the most beautiful thing in the world? Im not really sure
80. name one person whose changed your life for the better: eh..can i name like 20?! my best friends..bc they made me who I am. :]
81. did gym class or team sports traumatize you as a child?uh, no..lol for some reason that made me remember this time when I hit someone or something and I go BAD REFLEXES and amanda started laughin her ass off..we were clearly in pe class..woah !
82. if you had to let go of a really loud fart who would you be most comfortable around? lol ew..no one?! actually prolly my sissy cuz shed laugh really hard
83. if someone could pop their eyeballs right out of the sockets would that impress you? uh..ew
84. if you could meet anyone, past or present, dead or alive, who would you meet and why? dono
85. what makes you you? me?
.school: have you ever ..
86. skipped school? no..
87. skipped a class? well..I mean ive slept in and went to school late..but im a good kid ;/
88. slept through a class? yes ;x well...not like..the WHOLE class..but..yah know
89. thrown things at the teacher, and what did you throw? I threw a ball of paper at a teacher in 5th grade..but I was jp :|
90. done mean things to people in your class? sure
91. cheated on tests? mwahaha
92. plagarized? not really
92. copied someone else's work? yes
93. been suspended, and for what? nope!
94. been expelled, and for what? no
95. had detention? lol..I used to get detentions ALL the time
96. brought a weapon to school, and what was it? I accidently had amandas brothers knife in my bag for like 6 years :x
97. stolen something from someone at school? eh i dont think so..well from like friends..but that doesnt count
98. had drugs in your posession at school? no
99. harrassed anyone in school? all the time
100. bought a teacher a flower? lolol no
.home: have you ever ..
102. snuck out and been caught? lmao one time me and jamie crawled out of her window DURING THE DAY..and her step dad caught us..ahahahahah such rebellion
103. snuck out and got away with it? eh
104. hit a family member? hell yah
105. been grounded for a month or more? not really..I dont get grounded..im kind of grounded at the moment..but not really
106. had a party at your house unsupervised? uh no
107. broken something & lied about it? yes ;x
108. stolen money from your family members? pocket change from my mom or stepdad
109. had a fistfight with your sibling? ehh not quite that bad
110. gotten in trouble for bad grades? thats why im in trouble now :|
.drugs: have you ever ..
111. smoked cigarettes? yes
112. drank alcohol? yes
113. been so drunk you passed out? not quite
114. puked from drug usage? fuck no
115. sniffed permanent markers or white out to get "high"? lol..not to get "high"..just cuz permanent markes smell good
116. smoked the killer weed (marijuana)? fuck no
117. smoked the killer weed (oregano)? lol uh
118. taken any pill medication that wasn't prescribed to you? yah
119. smoked crack, or any other drug? never
120. tried heroin in any form? no
121. tried x? no
122. candy flipped? no!
123. bought illegal drugs? fuck no!
124. sold illegal drugs? what..NO!?
125. had an adult or older person buy you alcohol or cigarettes? eh..
126. stolen alcohol or cigarettes from a store? no
127. driven drunk or under the influence of anything? eh
128. done any unusual drugs? nope
129. tried inhalants? nuh uh
130. took sleeping pills? yes
131. took caffeine pills? no
132. used 3 or more drugs at once? nah
132. tripped acid? no!!!
133. hallucinated? LOL UH NO..not bc of a drug anyway
134. taken a drug & swore you'd never take it again because of something that happened? nooo
135. overdosed? no!
136. taken something you didn't know what it was? no!
137. played a game such as "who will get the drugs"? no! HOLY SHIT THIS NEVER ENDS
138. been in a drinking contest? no
139. won a drinking contest? no
140. gone to school/work on drugs? no!
141. been caught by your parents or any adult while you were on drugs? no!!!!!
.misc: have you ever ..
142. stolen anything minor (small things)? eh yah when I was little :|
143. stolen anything major (expensive)? no
144. robbed a store/person? nope
145. been caught stealing? no
146. vandalized anything? eh
147. stolen anything not from a store? nah
148. tampered with other people's mail? nope
149. driven illegaly? yeah
150. ran from the cops? no
151. been busted by the cops for anything? nah
152. been arrested? no
153. had charges on anything filed against you? no
154. been to court? nope
155. been convicted of any crime? nope
156. broken in to any place? eh
157. spraypainted anything? nah..dont think so?
158. harassed anyone? lol sure!
159. done anything under the age of consent (drink, etc.)? yes
160. had sex under the age of consent? no
161. hit or harmed anyone? yes
162. broken into anyone else's stuff online? yes
163. hacked a persons computer or website? nah. Well. er. ill stfu now.
164. commited adultery? no
165. been banned from any place for any reason? nope
166. had a restraining order against you? no..but feel free! that would be cool :|
okay so I forgot this really retarded thing that happend. Uh yah, my cars completely dead. Automatic locks wont even work. So, we had it towed in to some car place. Sucks, huh? So now Nicoles takin me to school..nice, huh? Considering its like 27 miles out of her way.
Oh man, I had something else to say but my minds blank now.. ;x
i think im goin to beddddd
[The Ataris- Between you and Me]
WORD PLAYAZ..how you livin?! ;x jp.
SOO today has been an amazingly long. My clock went off..and I was like "FUCK, DANNY, CAN I STAY HOME!?!" ..."NO! youre goin to school today!!" ...(whimpers)...turned off my alarm clock and went back to bed..suprisingly I woke back up 10 mins later. Im so incredibly tired, I took a 3 hour nap yesterday afternoon- but they made me get up...because suposedly I wouldnt be able to sleep at night if I slept all day. Fuuuck they dont know me. I can sleep the acumalitive of what like 20 people sleep. Dont play with me cuz Ill do it. I SWER ILL DO IT.
Eh. So, I took a showa, then watched the news while I got ready. Pretty interesting stuff going on in Baghdad. The one Iraqi general guy thats always on TV...was like saying "We have defeated the enemy- they are not in Baghdad"...and this reporter was with these two soldiers..and he told them what he said..and hes like, "What do you have to say about that?" and theyre like, .."Well, were right across the street..so were gonna go on over and say Hi." It was pretty funny. I think Miller said like 80 of our people have died...
anyway..I turned on my car and when I went out there to leave...I wiped off the snow w/ my hand ;x and I got in and fuckin got snow EVERYWHERE- I was fuckin pissssssed...and was almost late. But, I made it.
I fell asleep like 8 times in health ;x ..dono how I made it thru the day...Im so worn out.
Dannys birthday is Wednesday..I SOOOOO cant forget.
SO, man. Im sure I have more to say but Im basically brain dead at the moment. So, Ill wml maybe
He broke my heart today
I don't know what to say
I can't feel a thing at all
I did not see it comin'
Now you just a man that got away
I look at the ground
And give the sky the middle finger
Something inside said
"Here's a day you should remember
So mark it on a wall"
I never believed it could happen to me
Something like this only happens to dumb girls
Taking themselves too seriously
I was so damn smart
I was the one girl
Who never believed it could happen to me
Something like this only happens to somebody else
I miss you so much
Can't stand it
You bring out the blonde in me
'Cause I'm still hanging on
Even though you done me wrong.
And I got the heart to forgive this
But I'd never let you know.
What kind of girl would put herself
In that postition?
yeah
To think that I could ever fight the system
And I got fooled again
I never believed it could happen to me
Something like this only happens to dumb girls
Taking themselves too seriously
I was so damn smart
I was the one girl
Who never believed it could happen to me
Something like this only happens to somebody else
I thought I was strong (I thought I was strong)
But I was just dreamin'
I can't believe it (can't believe it)
That nothing was wrong (nothing was wrong)
I thought I knew what was goin' on
But love was deceiving me (love was deceiving me)
Now I'm just a dumb girl
yeah
A dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb girl
That's what I am
yeah, yeah
I can't believe that it happened to me
Something like this only happens to dumb girls
Taking themselves too seriously
I was so damn smart, yeah
I was the one girl
Who never believed it could happen to me
Something like this only happens to somebody else
(only shit like this would happen to me)
Can't believe this shit could happen to me
yeah, yeah
'Cause something like this only happens to somebody else
I guess I'm just a dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb girl
That's what I am
Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb girl
Right now Im just going to vocally recite every cuss word Ive ever heard or said.
Makes me feel a little better. Im just going to copy and paste part of my IM w/ Amanda. It explains my feelings at this point- pretty well.
Shaunaaaaa [2:39 PM]: i swear to god this cant be happening
Shaunaaaaa [2:40 PM]: why the hell cant i be there to do something...retorical question pretty much (edit)
Shaunaaaaa [2:41 PM]: fucking bull shit long distance- shit like this is going on and I need to talk to andrea but i cant call her bc long distance is too muc
Shaunaaaaa [2:41 PM]: h
Shaunaaaaa [2:42 PM]: dont even have any more minutes on my calling card
Shaunaaaaa [2:42 PM]: cant ask danny to go get me one bc no matter what the problem its never really THAT big of a deal
Shaunaaaaa [2:42 PM]: he fuckin made a joke the other day..talkin to my mom..sayin.. Why dont we send shauna down to tx for the summer..and he cracked up
Shaunaaaaa [2:43 PM]: thats not fucking funny...Im over a thousand miles away from where I really really need to be right now- and thats funny..that I cant go..that they wont let me fucking go and they wont let them come here bc i have to get a job
Shaunaaaaa [2:43 PM]: fuck jobs I can fucking take vacations..that shits not important
Shaunaaaaa [2:44 PM]: 2 of my best friends could be pregnant..jesus..and im worried that jamies got aids or some shit bc..i mean..gah
Manda[2:45 PM]: oh honey.. im sorry
Shaunaaaaa [2:45 PM]: eh
Shaunaaaaa [2:45 PM]: me too
Fuck everything dewd. Seriously..this can not be happening. It cant.
[song: Linkin Park- Breaking the Habbit]
[mood: exhausted ]
Just got home awhile ago. Im SOOOOO tired! But, I had a GREAT time!!! Im so glad I went. Lotsa stuff happened. Like when I got to Allison's church..they were talking about like us doing activities- and I mean I figured there would be organized things we had to do...but I wasnt expectin as much stuff as we did. Like first we went outside in the parking lot and traced e/o and we had to be all connected...and like...KEN WAS THERE! lmao shes so freakin funny!! Anywho after that we like...eh talked in a group and shiz and they had us get into like groups of 3- so it was me, ken (amber), and allison...and like the topic of the thing was service- serving people...and stuff..so like Mr. and Mrs. Chef Lady were there...and they gave us like apple/grape juic and oreos..and like lmao Mr. Chef Lady was being SO rude..like lmao hed take a drink out your juice and give it to you..er pick up the glass and happen to put his finger in it ..and like he slamed our oreos down on the table and they got smushed :[ and Mrs. Chef Lady was niiice and gently giving people their stuff.. and like we thought Mr. Chef Lady was just being a dork...but they were pointing out like..good service vs. bad service...and we did some stuff..and they numbered us off and we went into groups...I was w/ Belinda (Mrs. Chef Lady) and like she was asking situations where we like volunteered er something..and served other people..and I found out that like the Chef Family does Meals on Wheels! Isnt that coool? lol...okay well if you dont feel like a sunday school lesson you can just skip this.
Our lesson was focused on like service like I said- well like right before Jesus was arrested when his disciples came to the house thingy..lol..er welll back in that day they would have a servant waiting by the door w/ like stuff to wash feet- because they wore what we call flip flops- all the time...so their feet would either be dusty or muddy...well obviously that was considered a servants job..but when they came to see Jesus before he was arrested...there was no servant by the door- so clearly they were like annoyed and what not...but then Jesus told them he was going to wash their feet- and I mean can you imagine how weird that would be? Jesus- their teacher and person they worshiped...stooping to a servants level....and well it significant bc..yah know it shows that basically people are equal-and stuffff..and Jesus told them that they should wash e/o's feet- serving others.
Well anywho, we had this activity to do by ourselves- to answer these questions and stuff..well like I went in this room w/ allison and she lit some candles and we listened to some pretty music and did our activity and prayed..then we had a heart to heart- it was really great. Shes such a great person. After that we had like free time..then we did this activity where we got in these groups of like 8 prolly and we passed along these tennis balls w/ the other groups- and we had to look up stuff in the Bible and discus stufffff..and like lmao it turned into a WARRR :/ Allisons group like kept throwin balls over to my group and like 4 of them hit me..lol it was hilarious but finally the 3 groups started like attackin e/o...lol kala and amber and me and chelsea were throwin them at allisons group ;x it was herrrrlarious..and like they got a lot of the night on tape..so we watched it this mornin..lmao ill talk more about that in a sec.
We did lots of other stuff- like during like one part of our free time they gave us stuff to make salvation bracelets- theyre pretty awesome.
Anywho- like the last thing we did..was like..we went to the sancu..er dono how to spell it- lol...and like they gave us each a candle..and we like had written something we want to do to help the community (volunteer at like a soup kitchen/ hospital...donate to a food drive..etc) and we took them and we prayed and put our cards in the offering plate...and then it was so cool..bc we got to do a foot washing thing..sounds pretty gross- but its cool- Allison had to do it at church camp and she thought it was really cool- bc I mean you imagine Jesus doing it for you..and stuff..and like they gave us the option of having our feet washed (the youth group leader..cant remember her name :X or this other guy..I wana say Jason? lol) or like you could have a friend do it- so me and Allison decided to do it for e/o..and see we only had one thing to like use..to put your feet in and stuff..and like everyone but amber (she has a foot thing..doesnt like people touchin them) did it...me and allison were the only ones who did it for e/o..lol..it was cool- I dono I took a lot from that..it was very meaningful- and then after that we had communiun and then we were done. Allison changed into her pjs then we went back upstaisr and got some snacks and got our crayonys ( we got them out of like one of the kids rooms..they have like 4th and 5th...and like kindergartend preschool..all that stuff..and like earlier in the evening me and allison went in there and she made me a flower out of pipe cleaners..and we played barney memory...we took these ones that had marchin band barney on it ;x ) so thennn we went back into the sanc..(cant spell it) thing and Emily and Chelsea and this Katie girl (all freshmen from our school) and they were talking about all sorts of stuff- so Allison talked w/ them..it was cool..then they decided to sleep in there so me and Allison went down stairs to the chapel pray..thing..room w/ our sleepin bags and listened to music and colored ;x and like we had to get up at 7:30 because we had to make pancakes and eggs and sausage and bacon for the church..well like me and Allison tried to stay up- but like at 6:25 er so we decided to go to sleep bc we were on the verge of passing out..lmao so we turned on the flashlights and made pictures on the wall..hers looked like an eye and mine looked like a tadpole lol..it was funnnnny..and then we went to bed..well..oh man..at like 8 something...I wake up to like 20 people singing "YOURE MY SUNSHINEEEEE MY ONLY SUNSHINNNNNNE..." roflmao so I fly up in my sleeping bag..and I was so freaked out- I forgot where I was...and I layed back down and was kicking my feet and theyre like singing LOUDLY and tellin us to get up and stuff..and Im like NOOOO and covered my face- cuz lmfao they had the camera on...and ROFLMAO dewd it was SO funny...Amber layed on top of me and shes like HON-IE this isnt a nightmare..its really happening! lmfao somethign like that..it was so funny..you have no idea..well what happened was they forgot to come to the room thing and wake us up- so they had already made breakfast for the early morning service- and like they had eaten breakfast..and Deb (youth group leader) was like Wheres allison? and Shauna? lmao..I love it. It was greatttt..we watched the tape upstairs and it was SO funny..ehh so me and allison ate breakfast..lol I love it cuz we got to wear our pjs..and for the church service we had our sleepin bags..lol..anywho we ate breakfast and helped clean and stuff..thenn um.watched a little bit of monsters inc. and I talked w/ kala and amber...and uhhh lmao me and ken busted some rhymes fo allison and a small audience- it was great.
Anyway, thats about it really!
Im so tired..runnin on 1 er 2 hours of sleeeepppp.
So yah! Finallyyy I get to do something! Im going to a lock in w/ Allison at her church- its gonna be a lot of fun~! I probably wont get any sleep what so ever from what shes said. Were gonna play flashlight tag prolly ;x then in the morning we have to make breakfast for everyone. Funnn! :] Eh my hairs bein frizzy :| GAH
I have a headacheee.. I hope it goes away.
Hmm whatd I do today. I got up at 7:30- and Rachel got here at like 8:00...and we watched cartoons..and played w/ linkin logs ;x we made a house...a church...and a dog house..and played dinasaurs and barbies x;
She wanted to watch Shrek but I couldnt figure out how in the hell to work the DVD player..we like got a new remote so like..its different now :/ OH man..she kept sayin "ME WANT SEK" rofl..Im like WTF!?! And finally she picked up the DVD and im like WOAH. okay. anywho..we watched Sponge Bob..for like 423 hours...and then Monsters Inc. It was SO cute..near the end when kitty leaves and boo gets out of bed and goes to the door..rachel goes..her gets outa her bed just like me do..lmao it was superrrr cute.
uhhhh I made lunch..and I had to be mean and make her sit in this chair ;x she kept doing EVERYTHING I told her not to..obviously its her job..shes 4..but she was sad cuz I was like, "RACHEL. Sit down in this chair, or youre takin a nap until your mom gets here."...which in the long run was good..because we went to watch some more tv and she fell asleep on the couch...for like 2 hours..so i did too ;x
DEWD amanda and amy watched 8 mile last night. Thats so mean dewd..lol I cant wait to see it ;/ ...AMANDA liked it..I mean..Amanda was sayin how much she didnt want to see it..and shes liek OMG THATS THE BEST MOVIE IVE EVER SEENNN~!$#@*
SO yep. Cant wait to see it.
Welp, Im leavin soon- and I have to go search for some allergie medicine bc I need some :/
adios
<33
Okay. Im beyond pissed right now. I was just typing a post and I fucking clicked settings on accident and lost what I was typing. Shoot me. There was soooo much too- I have no energy to type it again. As a matter of fact im goin to bed- rachels comin over in the morning :] Hopefully shes good and just goes to sleep- but uh...thats highly doubtful. Anyway I need all the sleep I can get cuz im goin to a lock in thing w/ allison :] itll be fun. Ill tell about my day tomorrow :/ or Sunday. Complete lack of engery.
Dl this song. Its beautiful- i <3 it
Maren Ord-
Perfect
Don't close your eyes
They may not open
What if they open
Would you be alive
Everyone falls
But not everyone rises
Why don't you get up
And rise again for me
chorus
What if the world were
a little more perfect
Would you stop crying or
would you take the leap
What if the world
were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes
and blink again for me
What about friendship
What about friends
You said the whole world
was against you
And it all had to end
What about love
What about family
What about all that
you have to live for
chorus
It isn't easy here without you
Why did you leave me
What am I supposed to do
(without you)
chorus
Oh yah. ;x
Drea [10:41 PM]: but then i see my baby
Drea [10:41 PM]: suddenly im not crazy
Drea [10:43 PM]: i love that song
Drea[10:43 PM]: its so sweet
Shaunaaaaa [10:43 PM]: i know
Drea [10:43 PM]: but superman makes me want to tear into that white boy..... he sounds so hot in that song
[song: The Way You Make Me Feel-Michael Jackson] ;]
[mood: energetic]
(fade into britney spears background)
Dearrr diaryyyy, today I saw a boyyyy and I wonder if he noticed meeeeee
OH. Uh. Anyway.. lol wtf :x that songs so fuckin GAYYYY
Moving on..
Gotta love Michael Jackson- even if he is crazy.. youuuuuuuuu give meeee fever like ivvvve neveer evaaa knownnnn..lmao ;x
SO. Just got home a bit ago. lmao- I had to go back to school to get something- and I was parked by the back door...and the new kid Jake- (the SUPER nice guy whos like everyone's new best friend- from Sudan) was like "Hey girl, tight ride!" lmfao. ;x
Sooo..today was somewhat decent. Nothing too exciting happened...unfortunately. I REALLY wanted to go to the soccer game- but nobody really was planning on going. So, eh. Oh well.
LMAO okay this morning...Amanda got a pencil from..dewd fuck it, he knows- the whole world knows. lol nm I changed my mind..Im not saying. ANYWHO..she got his pencil to give to me- and like I was walking into the band room and he was right there and i started laughing at amanda and he looked at me- i think he got the point. lol OH well. Not like I havent been embarassed in front of him ever before. I could shoot myself! Thats how bad the embarassment is!
Me and my friends have so many problems. Gah.
People are so dumb sometimes. High school seems like such a HUGE deal. Its so dramatic though, its bs.
NIN - Hurt I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of shit
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
Didnt mean to post that last post...lol but clearly, I pushed the wrong button. Gah, I swear..life is full of too many responsibilities and commands. "Call me." "Do the dishes." "NO Shauna, you thinking fucking up the dish washer is gonna get you out of this? Youll be washing them manually if you keep this up, hoe. DO IT OVER." "Get offline." "Do your homework." "Why didnt you call me back?" "Wake up." "Get a job." "Be nice to your mother." "Hit your step dad." "Is something wrong? Tell me what you were talking about on your post." IM SO FED UP. I swear to God, I just want to sleep for like 4 months. But then Id have to check my voicemails and thered probably be 2,000..and that would just annoy the shit out of me.
Jeesh. Its hot in here. Tanned a little today, but Im going to use some sunless tanning lotion. Im such a risk taker- who do you know that lives on the edge like me!?
lol. Eh, kinda scared about the sunless stuff- but hell, why not? The hairs fake, might as well have fake skin pigment. Er. WTF Ill stfu about that now.
This mood of complaining just isnt going away. So, Im goin to bed in a few. Oh wait. No. I have too many things to do before I get to sleep. Oh GODDDDDDEDD
Goded?! what? ;x
You would think parents would get the clue. Do the worst job putting dishes into the dishwasher everytime and they get fed up and make you stop doing it, right!? Yah, thats what I thought too.
Hm...today was a very long day. Allison had her job shadow...so english was extremely boring. Seemed never ending today. The last half of the day really sucked too. You know, I seem to like guys that dont work well with me..or dont even notice me. But, what can you do. Obviously bitch about it as much as possible.
Gah. I have to get offline in 3 minutes. My parents obviously feel the need to babysit me.
Beckys on the hellophone so i gtg! <3
btw dl this song- its my FAVORITE song :/ er.. one of them . I love it.
lol my sons about to get the shit smacked out of his lippy ass. JEFFS GRUMPY TODAY :|
song-
Incubus - Echo lyrics There's something about
The look in your eyes
Something I noticed when
The light was just right
It reminded me twice
That I was alive
And it reminded me that
You're so worth the fight
My biggest fear will be
The rescue of me
Strange how it turns out
That way, yeah
Could you show me dear?
Something I'm not seeing
Something infinitely interesting
Could you show me dear?
Something I'm not seeing
Something infinitely interesting
Theres something about
The way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion
When you sing
More subtle than something
Someone contrives
Your movements echo that
I have seen the real thing
Your biggest fear will be
The rescue of you
Strange how it turns out
That way, yeah
Could you show me dear?
Something I'm not seeing
Something infinitely interesting
Could you show me dear?
Something I'm not seeing
Something infinitely interesting
Unfortunately I cant get my messages from the comment thingy..so be patient until I figure it out ;x . So if you have anything to say that you really need me to see..eh. email me.
SO, I know youre all waiting to hear about my day at the zoo, right!? K. Well...as you might have guessed there were a catrillion animals ;x lol I LOVE THE ZOO. As a matter of fact, Im going to apply there. And no, not just bc the guy I like works there. Thats just a plus. Working at the zoo, would be the best job ever! Except for working at the movie theatre or amusement park.
Anywho, OH MY GOSH you guys have to check out the penguins. They are fuckin AWESOMEEEE!! Cutest things ive seen in my entire life let me tell ya. This one was pushin the others in the water ;x thats me in penguin form.
Oh mannn...there was this HOTT fawkin guy there...drivin this garbage lookin truck around- he drove by and like I was staring at him, I swear I was like drooling all over myself..so he was staring back at me..wondering how severe my mental retardation was. But eh, yah so he drove by again right before we left and like..smiled at me...and my step dad goes.."HEY LOOK OUT THAT HOTTIE!!!!!!" and the guy looks at him.. uh..lol i think he was tryin to pick him up ;x ...and he goes "SHE LIKES YOU!!!!"...I was lmao. Gotta love dads.
So, yah. I had tons of fun- I love hangin out with the parents ;x
lol amanda and trisha sent me this email about things that change for girls when theyre a teenager. Uh. Not like puberty and that..lol
like... "Youd do anything for your bff or bf" and "Youre embarassed to go to the mall with your parents"..im like wtf, lmao. SHIT I dont care who sees me with my parents- its all good.
Anyway. Im so homesick. Just IM'd Mary.
Shaunaaaaa [6:16 PM]: hey mary!!!!
Shaunaaaaa [6:16 PM]: I MISS YOU!!! :[
Mary[6:16 PM]: awwwwwwwwww how sweet
Mary [6:16 PM]: i miss u too
Mary [6:16 PM]: how r u?
Shaunaaaaa [6:17 PM]: I know. Who wouldnt though?
Shaunaaaaa [6:17 PM]: Im alright, you?
Mary[6:17 PM]: are we a little vain shaunahasianicolelehmer?????
Mary [6:17 PM]: noooooooooooooooooo
Mary [6:17 PM]: not u
lol I love it. Sometimes I forget that her names actually Jeri.
Jeesh, I tanned for an hour and a half after we got home- and I think Im a little burnt. YES !! I want to be golden brown-er. yah know what I mean.
Well, were goin to Rachels birthday party (shes 4 now :*] )...and I think Im gonna go up to the store real quick and get some punch.
[song:Modest Mouse-Edit the Sad Parts]
[mood: blank]
Now that Im calm.....
Guess where Im going tomorrow ;x GUESSS!!!
The zoo. You wanna know the weird part? Wtf, as if Im expecting a response. Anywho, Im going with my parents. Should be...interesting.
Im really hoping tomorrow lasts forever and I never have to go to school again.That way I dont have to deal with anythinggg. That sounds so great. What sounds even better is going to school, coming home, and having nothing to worry about. None of this dramatic shit weve got goin on- none of us can go a week without fighting- but amanda and becky are trying to get us to test out getting along. Sounds like a fun game, eh?
I swear, it sucks liking someone who doesnt like you back. I have this reoccuring dream that like...me and nicole are in English class with ole LANGY ;x ...but her class is where my math class is? And Langy tells me and Nicole that were talking too much (go figure) and to go get a desk from the computer lab. So, we go out and we try and lift up this desk...but we cant..so the guy I like (not saying names ;x ..Im sure there isnt anyone who doesnt know by now.) comes out and carries it into the class room...and sits down by me and nicole and I like POUR my heart out about how I like him and yahta yahta.
But, then I wake up. And its all the same. Life is so sad sometimes.
Bleh, Sooo I got my hair cut and permed and all that stuff...its kinda...interesting. There are like 18324 different lengths...it smells AWFUL. Jesus, I had to endure 2 hours of that rotten perm smell..and itll be like a week before I can get the smell completely out of my hair.
Soo, I just tried to IM drea- but OBVIOUSLY she was.."getting her munch on." lol, I love it.
GAH.
Moving on.
I swear...in the course of like 72 hours, our lives have turned into an episode of Days of Our Lives. Allison and Amanda got in a "fight"..but praise the Lowd, they got it worked out. But, now theres like 52309 other problems...
JESUS. Speaking of problems. I swear on my fucking life Id rather kill myself than see (er..hear about?) my BEST friends doing drugs..
Ive heard everything from.."weeds not a drug" to.."its not that big of a deal"...well, hell, you guys have this link so hopefully youll look at it. I dont know what the hell you guys are thinking. Id love to know though, to try and understand. Because at this point..Im OBLIVIOUS to whats going on in your heads.
So amazing, I had promises with the 3 of you (although you may have had a memory lapse and might not remember)...about not doing drugs, or any of that stupid shit.
But, I guess promises are meant to be broken, right?
Time to go get my drink on. Nothing illegal though ;]
JEESH maybe if i wasnt such a retard there wouldnt be so many problems with this thing ;|
Im too tired to fix all this stuff so ill do it tomorrow..hopefully? Im pretty busy tomorrow..so uh, call the cell if you need me children, but chances are I might not pick up. Leave a VM. Let me make myself clear. A VM...thats singular...meaning ONE...not 20...coughcoughAMANDA... lol
night kids :]
Personality Disorder Rating Information Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Very High
GAH. AOL is such a piece of shit. I type this huggggge thing up, and I get kicked off, go figure.
I came online earlier, and my box is full of chain letters. My favorite are the ones that are like "SEND THIS TO 7,476 PEOPLE OR YOUR LOVE LIFE WILL BE RUINED FOREVER." Ohh. So thats where I went wrong, didn't fwd the chain letter.
Hmmm, I also like the ones that are like..."Send this to 124 people and the name of the person you will mary will MIRACULOUSLY appear on your computer screen." 5 hours later and nothing still happens...are they trying to tell me something?!
Anywho.. today has been an incredibly long day. Me and Danny had the hugest fight ever a few hours ago. Mainly about how Im like..ungrateful...dont take care of my car...wont look for a job...sleep in till 12 when I obviously should be up at 6 on weekends...refuse to do chores...etc.
It started off a normal civilized conversation (such a rare occurance) ..then out of nowhere he stared like YELLING at me like mad. It was creepy...I was in schock, so I started laughing. BIG mistake. I mean HUUUUUGE mistake. We reallllly got into it, screaming, yelling...I started crying...and went to my room...and bawled like a little baby ;x My face is still red a blotchy :/
Anywho after that episode...I went to find him to turn on my comp (the fuckers have a PW on it)...and he was hiding from me in his closet..lol...so I open the door, and hes like, "Im coming out of the closet," and we both started laughing. We then had a heart to heart, and now things are good. Hm, good's kind of an overstatement. Better.
Im SOOOO tired.
Amanda made a blog today. Lmao, good stuff.
Yesterday by crossroads (I think thats the one ;x ) there were like 3 people (I kid you not) with signs and posters - pro war. It was pretty cool to see some people (even if you could count them on Mr. Bleths hand..lmao) supporting the soldiers and the war. Jeesh, when the war first started, I was like obsessed with news coverage. Television is such a good thing. Anyway, now...its kind of creepy watching all of this stuff, not that it wasnt before...but it didnt seem that realistic until so many people started dying. I think I kind of lost my fascination when the Iraqis showed the American POWs on television. I even saw a picture of this newspaper...with the 2 soldiers they shot right on the front cover. This whole thing is just really sick- I wish it would just hurry up and end. But thats pretty doubtful, things seem to be just getting started.
Gahhh, me and brenda..well, mostly brenda, lol...have been working on this freakin thing for many hours...and im POOPED ;[
So, I'm headin off to bed. I know my blog still isnt wonderful- but cut me some slack :|
heres my flow
about brenda ;x
brendalee
she like masta p
always gettin dem hoes..
short motha fucka just like
lil romeo
usually call her twitch
cuz move
like she got an itch..
wicka wicka
brenda aint no bitch
likin her some abercrombie and fitch
(erreee eerree)
and uh. thats all I can think of ;x
thanks so much Blee
for your help with the layout<3
Well, well, well. A new blog, how EXCITING. Sorry for the POS layout- I don't quite know how to make my own ;x ...but I'm workin on it. Anywho, we'll see how successful this thing is. I'm not the best at updating and all that shnazzy stuff...I tried to keep up with a journal on LJ once..but..uh it died.
WELP, nothin really exciting or life changing happened today..uh, go figure. I woke up at 6 o'clock in the GODAMN morning on the verge of throwing up. Sick, huh?
Eh...
Unfortunately I'm still grounded. Jesus. Erin invited me to her top secret "sleepover" a few days ago ;x.. but instead I'm stuck at home- with virtually nothing to do. AOL gets pretty f'n boring after awhile. Like...5 years ago actually.
Me and Danny went to Omaha...he had to go to Lowes- and if that's not the worst store I've ever been to, I don't know what is. I'm never going to be old. I don't want to EVER actually enjoy shopping for outdoor appliances and all that mumbo jumbo. Anway...I was forced to go inside because I swear I had to pee so bad I thought my bladder was going to burst...so I go in, walk down like 30 never ending aisles..searching for the restrooms...5 hours later I still couldn't find it so I stopped to ask this little old guy who was on this little midget looking ladder ;x ...he was untangling some shit, so I waited for seriously like 2 minutes..then finally I'm like, "Er, excuse me sir." Suprisingly I guess he hadn't even noticed I was standing there...because he like whipped around really fast and hit is head on this shelf thing..I felt so bad...
me- uh...
little guy- WOAH! Yes maam, can I help you?
me- um, yes can you..tell me where the restrooms are?
little guy- why I SURELLLLLLY can!
(he gives me the directions and I walk off)
I turn around and he's like watching me-intently- like some freak! It was pretty creepy as a matter of fact. Anyway I was so happy leaving that god foresaken store. Home improvement stores make me CRINGE. :/
eh, time to go figure this layout shniz out :|
